...pfffttt, honestly...? I have no idea what I'm doing. I don't even know what to say...

Welp. Erm, first fic. Show me mercy. It's my own little AU. I just really wanted to just post my own story anyways, so here we are. (:

*Warnings* mentions of rape (BUT nothing graphic so you don't have to worry too much) and bringing beautiful life into the world ;)

Thank u and enjoy :) and also keep an open mind while reading this... please?

Freezing. That was how her body was feeling. Humiliation? Anger? Wanting to see blood poured out across the ground desperately? Those were the emotions running through her.

Damn she was angry. Hela roughly pulled at the ancient chains that were holding her arms down, but to no avail, that caused her to release a frustrated beastly growl. If anyone back in Asgard would've heard her, they would've thought it was her beloved Fenris instead. Asgard...just the thought of it made her want to gag. Odin, the bastard. Caging her like an animal in the pits of Hel. And just when she was finally able to escape, the Frost Giants found her, taken her. And caged her...

Again. Fate simply loved her did it not?

How did she even conveniently land on Jotunheim? Argh, no. She didn't want to start pondering on THAT again.

Kick Kick Kick... kick.

Oh, and now the monstrosity inside of her decided it wanted to play once more. Wonderful.

You see, after the Jotuns found her, and brought her to Laufey. He had taken one greedy look at her, and decided to show her "mercy", by becoming his... toy. She had lost count at how many times he forced himself on her, but each time had left her with so much disgust, hate, and worst of all, shame. She was stronger than this. But the cost of her leaving Hel, was having her powers/energy drained immensely.

Eventually ,and wow what a shock. She realized she was carrying this...monstrosity. Laufey wasn't exactly pleased at hearing the news, he screamed at her that it was her fault because... ...logic. But probably because they were at currently at war, so a child isn't exactly convenient for the great king right now. As if Hela gave a damn. This creature that invaded her stomach was coming, whether it's father liked it or not. Norns... why did it have to be her...? She hated children.

Giving birth is never easy. But imagine giving birth to something that literally had the name, 'Giant' in it. Sound extra painful? Yes well, that was exactly what the young goddess was going through. The cold was killing her, it hurt so much...screaming. More screaming, Hela swore that when it was all over, her voice would be lost. Blood splattered everywhere. Ha, how ironic. After all, she had wished to see blood covering the grounds.

It stopped. Silence.

And there it was, a cry. Crying.

Finally.

Hela looked down and couldn't stop the gasp that went past her dry lips. The creature... it was... small. And blue, with scarlet gleaming eyes, and strange markings engraved in it's skin. But if you were to ignore all of that, the child looked exactly like an asgardian babe. Was that natural? Suddenly overcome with foreign emotions, Hela reached down and picked the little frosty up to her chest. Not paying attention to the fact that it stopped crying when it sensed it's mother.

A boy. It was a boy. Her boy. Damn sentiment. But for once in her life, she felt grateful towards her enemies. Laufey had ordered the guard to remove the chains when it was time for the delivery (thank the norns for that, would've been impossible with those shackles). And the guard hadn't just done that, he also secretly brought her blankets, bowls of water, and bread. It was the first time she'd eaten in months.

Well, now everyone can just die. Hela deserved rest. Positioning herself comfortably, with the baby already dosing off in her arms. She desperately tried fighting the sweet warmth entering her vengeful heart.

Hmm, perhaps the Frost Giants were fools after all. Apparently the All-Father decided to bring the war to this realm. Which meant they supposedly forgotten her existence, which meant they stopped checking on her. Which left her without chains, and an unlocked door. Idiots. Wrapping the baby up in the thickest blanket she was given, she swiftly left the dungeons without a trace. It sickened her at how close Odin was, but she didn't have time for him. Ignoring the bloodshed, she quickly headed up the temple. Hela impressed herself, going through childbirth barely a week ago, and already racing up several steps.

As soon as she reached her destination, she scanned the area hoping for something. Anything really.

There. A large stone. It appeared to be the safest place. And now she was concerned about safety? What was this tiny beast doing to her?

Making her way towards the frozen rock, she wondered if this was the best idea. It had to be. Unfortunately she had no other choice but to return to Hel. The cost of her leaving in the first place, plus being hold hostage for several months, weakened her tremendously, in both body and spirit. Attempting to run away successfully was foolish. It'd be an idiotic move. And exactly how many Beings would bring a child with them through the gates of Hel? No one. Absolutely no one. So, the child would have to remain right here. Simple as that.

Securing the baby firmly on the stone, Hela decided to whisper one thing,

"Farewell little one, I know you're destined to rule this universe. Make me proud".

And with that she was gone. It wasn't long before the baby woke up and started crying again.

Passing through the familiar gates, Hela allowed a single tear to fall from her face.

"So he's gone". It was a stupid comment, but if she were honest, she was trying to distract herself. The two young men standing before her were obviously Sons of Odin. She heard several stories about Thor, but not much about Loki. Only rumors, and that he was a trickster. But there was something... something. She felt it as soon as stepped out of her portal. A feeling... this sense of just knowing. Could it be...? But it was impossible, this asgardian was not her... he didn't even look like him.

"That's a shame. I would've liked to have seen that".

"You must be Hela. I'm Thor, Son of Odin".

"Really"? Gods the question was burning her. It was so hard not to stare in his direction. She had to know...

"And who are you"?

Loki looked back at her in complete confusion, he definitely hadn't been expecting that.

"Loki".

Hela scoffed slightly. "Loki, what? Aren't you an Odinson as well darling"? Ahh, that did it. His eyes darkened as he summoned twin steel daggers. "And why exactly are you so curious about that, goddess of death"?

Hela couldn't stand it anymore, she needed true confirmation. She wasn't happy with what she was about to do, but there was no other way. Forming a pit of fire in her hand, she sent it straight for Loki's exposed neck. But carefully, so it wouldn't kill. Only cause horrendous pain.

It happened so fast. He had let out a sudden scream of agony. Thor rushed at his side, shocked and fearful for his brother.

It lasted only a brief second, but she saw it. Oh she saw it. The fire making direct contact, and the surrounding skin turning a rich shade of blue.

So it was true. Loki was her son. Her only child. She gave him life. He was hers. And he was still small. Although, that was probably a good thing. If he resembled his... father in the slightest, she most likely couldn't look at him. As a matter of fact, now that she examined him. He seemed to take after his mother. Same eyes, same hair, pale skin, dressing in only black and different shades of green. It was rather scary.

Not that this revelation would interfere with her plans. She was still going take her rightful place as the Queen of Asgard. And kill anyone who wouldn't kneel without hesitation. But one thing was for certain, she wouldn't kill him. She may have been the Goddess of Death, but she wasn't a monster. Only a monster would kill it's own offspring. No...Loki would be by her side. She owed him that much. After all, she knew his destiny was to rule. And rule he shall.

The brothers, nor Hela herself, noticed the tear that escaped her forest-green eye.

Whoa... did I just do that...? HECK YES I DID! Hope it lived up to your expectations! I tried my best to impress ;) Was Hela too soft? Nope, 'frosty' blue baby Loki would melt any old fool's heart. and wow, did I randomly just give Hela fire powers on that last part...? Yeah I did. Ahhh, being a writer gives me so much power. Kneel before me peasants...

Nah, just kidding. So yeah, I know in mythology or whatever, Hela is actually Loki's daughter. And Loki's mother was still a Frost Giant, yada yada ding dong. But think about it, first of all. This is the MCU not mythology. Second, there's been zero mention of Loki's biological mama, ZERO. Thirdly, didn't exactly see any females in the land of Jotunheim. Lastly, LOOK AT 'EM! Hela was right huh? It's scary...

Random, but I was sick as hell while writing this. I DID want to make it longer, but nap times/getting high on cough syrup doesn't leave ya with much energy does it...? And some parts were a little bit of a challenge, I warned u guys I didn't know what I was doing. I mean just read my name. I go by Midnight, but Im also a Loki lover. So y'all can call me Midnight, Middy? Or Loki's lover... wait I meant just Loki lover. Heh heh...

So dang, if you're still reading this, then I like u. I like u a lot :)