Author's Note: Hi, it's me again. So, I guess this isn't the best thing I've ever written, because I wrote it in a car on a road trip half-asleep. Tsumetai Yoru means Cold Night, and it is Kyoya's character theme. This isn't actually proof-read (heh, heh) but I guess I'll have to live with it. It's really short for me (I guess) so…yeah. XD Carry on then.
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Illuminated by the cold night's moonlight
I hid in the shadows projected by the town
In the coldness of my family, I myself grew up cold and calculating. Many times I found myself hiding behind my older brothers, the ones whom I would never surpass.
Thinking there was not a single thing
Left to believe in
Among the crowds coming and going
In the monochrome world
I bowed my head
I was about ready to give up. How could I surpass my brothers without exceeding the box I had to stay within? There was no possible way, and I didn't know any other way to do it. Either I stayed within the confinements of being the third son or I do nothing at all.
We got many visitors, at my household, when I was growing up. They all viewed me as the third son, just hiding behind my brothers, because I would obviously never amount to anything or accomplish a thing. My world was very limited. That was the way everyone saw me, and soon I saw myself that way as well. I was hidden within the successes and accomplishments of my brothers.
I realized, from your words
The single flower nestled against my feet
But then I met him.
Tamaki Suoh, a foreigner, who happened to be the illegitimate child of the chairman. I did my research, when I first met him, as I did for everyone I knew. Suoh was the automatic heir to the Suoh Corporation. At the beginning, I think that's what made me first hate him the most. I soon realized that he was a complete fool.
But after I got to know him, after we became friends…I realized he wasn't just an idiot.
He was an idiot who could see through my façade. How was that? How was that? Who was he? Tamaki, with his stupid foreigner charms and customs and phrases, could see through the wall that I had painstakingly built? How did he know?
As if to insist
That I'm not afraid
Even if I lose
I walked forward
He taught me to keep trying, to never give up…that it's okay to exceed the frame I was given.
He taught me that I never needed to stay within the boundaries. And if I got trouble for it…that was okay with me too. I wasn't afraid.
He taught me that even if I exceeded, and even if I failed…to keep trying.
And to never give up.
With only silence
Filling my heart
I have lived until now
Never knowing desire
Before I met him, I would never speak out, never contribute or do what I want, because it was always about what my father wanted.
I never wanted anything but to make my father see that I, as the third son, was good enough to become heir to the Ohtori group.
I was a manipulator. Everything I did, it was for my own benefit.
But after meeting Tamaki…I had the desire to help people, to be kind…for some reason I couldn't grasp.
Soon, however, I knew.
I wanted Tamaki. I wanted to make him happy, I wanted him to know that I could do it. That I would never give up. For him.
Not even understanding
The meaning of doubt anymore
Feeling righteousness
In the distorting town
I was simply swept along, but…
I looked at him, and I saw that he didn't know uncertainty, or hesitation. He knew desire, and wishes, and dreams. He didn't dream only when sleeping, but all the time. And he saw who I was for who I really was. He saw behind my façade passion, and want, and desire…for power, and for him.
Before I met him, I was just following the path laid out for me, but once I met him…
I realized, from your words
The single flower nestled against my feet
He taught me to wander off the path, and make my own.
He taught me that life was short and I should live it to my full potential.
He taught me how to shine.
Even if I insist
That I'm not afraid of losing
Time will go on…
And he taught me never to give up.
