Making A Choice
Chapter one
Inuyasha jumped out of the tree he was sitting in and picked up the strange little book that Kagome had been writing in previous to her departure. He knew that for some reason, she had been upset today and had decided to take it out on this poor thing. He had smelt her tears when she had written in it today. He knew that they were because of him. 'If only I knew how she felt. I could give Kikyo up and move on to the real thing' he thought. Inuyasha opened the book and immediately started reading.
Wednesday
My mom got me you. My own diary. She says that although she knows we talk a lot together, I need to have a place to vent out all the things that I don't tell her. Well, today I am going to be going back to Feudal Japan. to see Inuyasha, Miroku, Sango, and Shippo. I really need to stop writing though and start packing, because I am already an hour later than I told Inuyasha. Inuyasha. What a mystery. One moment he is runni
Wednesday night
Sorry for ending it there but Inuyasha had had enough "of that waiting thing." so he decided it was his place to come and get me. Jerk I can't believe him. But back onto what I was saying. Inuyasha. He is so fickle. I mean most of the time I think he may actually return my feelings for him, but the moment that everyone's favorite miko (Kikyo) show's up it's as if I'm not even there. Or even worse, I am "just a shard hunter" or just "Kikyo's reincarnate." I am so tired of it. I know that to everyone I appear that I am a happy, go with the flow kind of person. But inside, well inside I am a bomb. I am just counting my seconds until Inuyasha hurts me one to many times. I have quit crying for him so long ago. It's just a waste of both his time and mine. He won't ever return my feelings of love, except to Kikyo. If he ever does love me I don't know what I'll do. In the back of my mind I will always know that he only loves me because I remind him of the old Kikyo. I am surprised that he even took the time to get to know my name though. I figured he would have just kept calling me Kikyo's reincarnate like he did for the first 6 months of our travels. Another thing I am not surprised about is that Miroku and Sango have not hooked up yet. I see the glances that they give on another when they think the other, and our whole pack isn't looking. I think both are just too afraid of falling in love. I can hear Inuyasha above me. Sitting a few branches out of my sight. It's an odd thing, love I mean, it just won't let me go. It won't let my heart stop suffering. My brain and my heart are having serious connection issues. My brain knows that Inuyasha doesn't love, will never love me and if he does it will only be because I look like Kikyo. My heart seems to think that there is a chance-stupid heart.
Thursday
For the first time I a grateful for this diary. I could never EVER tell me mom about what happened today. This morning when I woke up I got up and went to take a bath. And guess what I saw?? Oh just guess? That stupid bitch kissing MY Inuyasha. But the most shocking thing about it was that it was very much a mutual kiss. SO much for him being my Inuyasha. I am writing this as Inuyasha sits above me. I'm sure he can read it. Just as I am sure he can smell me tears. Honestly I don't care any more. I think that I should just go home now. My instincts are telling me to get away. Away from the pain. Away from the hanyou that will never return my love. But I can't. I need to stay here for my friends, and for Shippo. The poor kitsune would be devastated if I left him. But most importantly, I think I need to stay for myself. I feel it in my 'gut' in the bottom of my heart that I will find love here. And the love will be returned. Plus, I don't really belong in my era anymore. I have grown out of it. I no longer have the need for the common technology. I need to go for a walk.
Chapter one
Inuyasha jumped out of the tree he was sitting in and picked up the strange little book that Kagome had been writing in previous to her departure. He knew that for some reason, she had been upset today and had decided to take it out on this poor thing. He had smelt her tears when she had written in it today. He knew that they were because of him. 'If only I knew how she felt. I could give Kikyo up and move on to the real thing' he thought. Inuyasha opened the book and immediately started reading.
Wednesday
My mom got me you. My own diary. She says that although she knows we talk a lot together, I need to have a place to vent out all the things that I don't tell her. Well, today I am going to be going back to Feudal Japan. to see Inuyasha, Miroku, Sango, and Shippo. I really need to stop writing though and start packing, because I am already an hour later than I told Inuyasha. Inuyasha. What a mystery. One moment he is runni
Wednesday night
Sorry for ending it there but Inuyasha had had enough "of that waiting thing." so he decided it was his place to come and get me. Jerk I can't believe him. But back onto what I was saying. Inuyasha. He is so fickle. I mean most of the time I think he may actually return my feelings for him, but the moment that everyone's favorite miko (Kikyo) show's up it's as if I'm not even there. Or even worse, I am "just a shard hunter" or just "Kikyo's reincarnate." I am so tired of it. I know that to everyone I appear that I am a happy, go with the flow kind of person. But inside, well inside I am a bomb. I am just counting my seconds until Inuyasha hurts me one to many times. I have quit crying for him so long ago. It's just a waste of both his time and mine. He won't ever return my feelings of love, except to Kikyo. If he ever does love me I don't know what I'll do. In the back of my mind I will always know that he only loves me because I remind him of the old Kikyo. I am surprised that he even took the time to get to know my name though. I figured he would have just kept calling me Kikyo's reincarnate like he did for the first 6 months of our travels. Another thing I am not surprised about is that Miroku and Sango have not hooked up yet. I see the glances that they give on another when they think the other, and our whole pack isn't looking. I think both are just too afraid of falling in love. I can hear Inuyasha above me. Sitting a few branches out of my sight. It's an odd thing, love I mean, it just won't let me go. It won't let my heart stop suffering. My brain and my heart are having serious connection issues. My brain knows that Inuyasha doesn't love, will never love me and if he does it will only be because I look like Kikyo. My heart seems to think that there is a chance-stupid heart.
Thursday
For the first time I a grateful for this diary. I could never EVER tell me mom about what happened today. This morning when I woke up I got up and went to take a bath. And guess what I saw?? Oh just guess? That stupid bitch kissing MY Inuyasha. But the most shocking thing about it was that it was very much a mutual kiss. SO much for him being my Inuyasha. I am writing this as Inuyasha sits above me. I'm sure he can read it. Just as I am sure he can smell me tears. Honestly I don't care any more. I think that I should just go home now. My instincts are telling me to get away. Away from the pain. Away from the hanyou that will never return my love. But I can't. I need to stay here for my friends, and for Shippo. The poor kitsune would be devastated if I left him. But most importantly, I think I need to stay for myself. I feel it in my 'gut' in the bottom of my heart that I will find love here. And the love will be returned. Plus, I don't really belong in my era anymore. I have grown out of it. I no longer have the need for the common technology. I need to go for a walk.