State Of Mind

Astoryteller143

Chapter 1:

Right now, if you asked me where I am from the outside world, I couldn't give you an answer. I live inside of my head I believe but, it's very dark. I can hear the people around me talking to each other but, I can never reply to them. I always feel like they are so close to me yet far away, since we can never actually communicate. I am just a man blind and paralyzed as far as I know, but then again every once and I while some one pushes me to move. They tell me to squeeze there hand but I can't gather the ability to do so. I think they lost hope in me.

Today was different, today I heard a young female voice, it sounded scared yet sad. Altogether, it sounded familiar. "Edward? It's me.." She said sighing. "I know I haven't visited you in a while and I'm sorry." She stopped for a moment. "Mason is here."

Then suddenly I wasn't blind anymore I was falling deeper in my dark space fast, it was getting brighter above me as if I was falling from the light but I missed light so bad. What would it be like to fall? Would it hurt? Would I die? Is this what you see before you're gone?

Suddenly I jumped forward and I was no longer in my dark lonely state. The girl who was talking stared at me like I was a foreign creature then picked the child who sat on the edge of my bed and ran out of the room calling for a doctor.

When they came back they caught me trying to get out of all of the things they hooked into my arms and put into my nose and mouth. The girl who had left the room stood at the door holding her baby she was still staring at me strangely and I couldn't help but to stare at her beauty. The doctor started to look over me doing doctor things I guess when he started to speak. "Do you remember your name?" He asked me.

"Yes." I said nodding softly looking at him now. "Edward Cullen."

"Yes," He said sitting back from me a little. "You got into an accident just a few short months ago and went into a coma. These two weren't as injured as you were so they were able to get away with just a few minor injuries. They saved your life. You had pretty bad head trauma." He told me. "Do you remember them?" He asked me raising an eyebrow slightly nodding towards the girl and her young son.

"I don't even know them." I said honestly

"This is Isabella Swan." He said gesturing to the girl I had been eyeing. "And the young boy is Mason, your son." He said to me and I looked at him in shock.

"I don't have a son." I tried to say but he shook his head standing up.

"Your memory is likely to come back to you after a while. You just need to go back to your everyday routine before the accident." He said. "I will let you all talk." He said a bit softer leaving the room.

Isabella took her seat next to the bed holding her-our child. There was an awkward moment of silence because I wasn't sure what to say to her. I didn't remember ever sleeping with her, or asking her to be my girlfriend, let alone naming our child together. I had always grown up in a house where we were told not to have sex until marriage. "How did the accident happen?" I asked her finally.

"We were driving and being a little stupid." She said pausing for a moment as if she was thinking. "We focused on each other playing around more than paying attention to the road." She said. I couldn't help but to smile. I could just imagine it. I could see how things could easily get distracting with her around me. I liked the sound of it, we were very in love I guess.

"Why weren't we married?" I asked confused. I always grew up taught that you should get married before you decide to have sex, that's what made me think of something. "Were my parents upset?"

She bit her lip lightly as if she was looking for a way to answer my question. "We didn't get around to it. Being so busy and all. You had lost your job so.." She started to trail off before my second question's answer came out. "I have never met your parent's before." She said with a hint of a blush.

"Well you had to have met them here at the hospital." I insisted but she shook her head.
"I've been gone for a long while, before your parents entered the room I was sure to leave it. They don't know that me and Mason exist as far as I know." She said with a soft shrug.

After a couple of hours I was able to leave the hospital with Isabella. Bella, actually. We lived in a house further away from town than I would have liked a couple of years ago.. I guess that the things I liked changed.

When we got into the house I found things here strange. Even though Bella and I had a child, we didn't share a room together. My things from before, the ones that I remember along with the ones she tells me were mine, have been moved into a room a short way down the hall from her and Mason's rooms. I didn't think that it was fair, Mason got to sleep closer to her in a room even though he didn't sleep alone and she had me in the guest room. "Why don't we share a bedroom?" I asked out of curiosity but she didn't seem to have a good answer.

"We just didn't." She said looking up at me. She stood at the doorway while I looked around my room looking at pictures of people I couldn't recognize beside me, smiling like we were the best of friends. It made me feel like a jerk, the fact that I couldn't remember them. "I bet that your hungry." She said a different tone in her voice now, more fun and happy sounding.

"I am." I told her facing her and meeting her eyes. She looked away from them and down at Mason who had ran into the room and held his arms up for her. Maybe he was my son he looked just like me. I just feel like I'm missing to many of the pieces right now.

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