A/N: So this is like my fourth EClare story and I'm working on all of them at once. But I hope you like this one; it's a little different than the others.

Clare POV:

I was broken, I have had my share of pain, I thought that I could withstand anything that came hurtling my way. But I was kidding myself. Now I was here all alone, because I was too afraid to admit my weakness. Eli was at college in New York and had no idea what was going on. We broke up because we couldn't possibly stay together with him so far away. Alli and I weren't friends anymore because of something so stupid. And that stupid thing was me ignorantly to kill myself, and no it wasn't because of Eli, my pain went much deeper than that. I had gone to many therapists but none of them could put me back together again. I tried to hide my pain, but everyone saw the hurt. Adam was the only true friend I had; he told me that he would never leave, that he would comfort me.

Now it was the day Eli was supposed to come home to visit. But I couldn't face him, I just couldn't. I didn't want to show him how I've fell apart at the seams.

I lay on my bed, staring out the window when Adam came through the door.

"Hey, how ya doing?" He said as he sat across from me.

"Same as yesterday, Adam," I sighed.

"Eli's coming home today." He said, making small talk.

"I know, don't remind me."

"You have to tell him what's been going on."

"Adam, please don't start this."

"Just, please talk to him; you don't even have to tell him. He's going to be at my house later today." He pleaded.

"Fine, Fine. I'll come."

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I was walking in the blistering cold, towards Adam's house. He had texted me telling me that Eli was all ready at his house.

I took my time, putting deep thought into every step I took. I finally ended up on Adam's front porch, still wondering if I was ready to see Eli again, I mean it had been six month since we last saw each other.

I walked through the door and entered the living room. Adam was sitting on the couch; Eli was on the love seat, with a mysterious girl at his side. He looked the same. Still wore all black, with the occasional splash of grey.

On the other hand, I have never seen this girl before. She was actually pretty. Her chocolate brown locks went past her shoulders, she had dark blue eyes. She looked more like Eli's type than I was.

I slowly walked over to Adam and sat by him.

Eli smiled and said, "Hey Clare,"

"Hi, long time no talk." I weakly smiled.

"Yea, I know I'm sorry for that, I've just been so caught up wi-" I cut him off.

"No I get it, school work. So, who is this?" I said glancing at the girl sitting with Eli.

"Oh, sorry. Guys this is Maddie, my girlfriend." He said.

Just hearing those words made me sick to my stomach. I ran out of the room, out into the back yard. I went to sit in a lawn chair beside the pool.

I was such a wimp, I couldn't handle the blunt truth, which Eli had all ready gotten over me, and there was nothing I could do about it.

A/N: What did you think of the first chapter? Should I keep going?