This is just an idea that's been floating through my mind for a while so I decided to write it all down.

Disclaimer: I own nothing except the plot.

Cold.

That's how I felt as I watched my Jacob leave. He said he wasn't coming back until he got his head straight, but it still hurt to watch my only friend leave. As if he didn't care that he was hurting me in the process. It was all her fault, that stupid leech-loving bitch. She did this to my Jacob. I saw his thoughts when we were the only ones in our wolf form. Jake showed me everything. From how she practically sucked his face off then basically told him to fuck off she's marrying the leech. Well she didn't really put it that way but it's what went through my mind as he told me.

Why must she hurt him? If it wasn't for Jake himself, I'd kill her without a second thought. Jake left me by myself because he couldn't take the pain of watching someone he loved, love somebody else. But I dealt with the pain for 2 years now. Everyday I have to watch Sam and Emily in their circle of fake love and happiness. It's what sucks the most about being a wolf, everyone knows everything. You can't hide nor conceal your thoughts. Though I've practiced and mastered concealing my thoughts from my pack, I get tired of seeing what runs through the minds of my hormonal pack brothers.

I sighed resting my head on my knees as I sat on the porch of my old two story home. Times like these, when I felt lonely and Jake wasn't around is when I missed my dad the most. He always made me feel loved and appreciated. Then again of course he would, he's my dad, but I've never felt that away around my mom. Dad would always call me his little moon princess, though I was far from a "princess" growing up.I was a huge tomboy back then, opting with football with the guys, hiking and camping out under the stars, instead Barbie dolls and jump rope. My mom didn't understand it, often she would voice her opinion, but it didn't matter because dad still loved me and he didn't care.

Now at 20, well physically 18yrs old, I wasn't that bratty tomboy anymore. I still kicked Jake's ass in football though. My body had filled out tremendously, Jake always said I had a Kardashian ass which in return I'd give him a punch to the gut. I had my moms long silky black hair which I refuse to cut. And my dads warm cinnamon brown eyes. Smooth russet colored skin which hinted my Native American background. I was also pretty damn tall, 6ft to be exact. It's the damn wolf gene. I got up wiping the dust off my bottom and proceeded into the forest. I had to let the others know that Jake was gone. I couldn't have them worried, I was the only one who knew, the only one he said goodbye to.

I walked the short distance to Sam's cabin. It's usually where the pack hung out, stuffing their face with Emily's shitty food. As I reached the small cabin nestled right outside the woods, I took a minute to gather my thoughts before knocking on the wooden door was Quil that answered.

"Leah?"

"What does it look like shit for brains?" I answered. With a smirk.

"I mean-I just w-what are you doing here?" he stammered.

"Damn Quil is it wrong of me to want to hang with my pack brothers?" we both new what I said was a load of shit.

I sighed. "Look just let me in the damned house I need to speak with you all. Is everyone here"? I tried peering over his beefy shoulder.

"Yup" he answered "Except for Jake that is." he stepped aside letting me in the small house. Everyone was sitting in the living room and the adjoining kitchen munching on Emily's pissy muffins. Even though I was slightly hungry at the moment, I'd rather gag then subject myself to eat her food.

"Leah what are you doing here?" everyone exclaimed nervously. Even Seth was a little fidgety but he looked the other way when I gave him a questioning look. I grimaced and shook it off.

"Glad to see you all too. What kind of fucking greeting is that? A simple 'hello Leah' or a 'hey how you doing Leah' would have been nice"

"Did you come here just to complain or piss us off?" Paul shouted from the kitchen, mouth full of food. Fucking pig.

"Look you guys, I hate to be the bearer of bad news but. . . . Jake is gone." I said plopping myself down on the old recliner opposite of Sam and Emily on the loveseat. Sam shot up out of his seat.

"What do you mean gone?" he looked furious, at me. What the hell did I do?

"I mean gone as he packed up his shit and left. Don't worry he'll be back. I think" I retorted.

"And why did you let him leave? Why didn't you stop him?" he took a step closer. I stood up.

"News flash asshole, it's a free country, Jake has the right to go where ever he so pleases so back the fuck off. He needed to get out, to clear his head. Give him some time he'll be back." I snapped. I was beyond pissed right now. And ready to leave. Emily reached a hand out to her husband, my ex, and pulled him down next to her on the loveseat. He visibly relaxed and kissed her forehead gently and my heart hurt a little, but nothing prepared for the scene that would happen next. Sam placed his hand tenderly on Emily's stomach and they both looked down at it lovingly.

I gasped, tears welling up in my eyes already but I fought them back. Sam and Emily looked up sharply eyes wide.

"When did you plan on telling me?" I trembeled though I tried keeping my voice steady. My heart was thumping loudly in my ears, I'm sure everyone could hear it minus Emily. She cleared her throat,

"We just found out not so long ago Leah we want-" I raised my hand stopping her mid-sentence.

"What a load of shit because from the looks of things y'all weren't planning on telling me at all. " I stood up and headed towards the front door.

"Leah wait." I heard Sam call from behind.

I spun around on my heels "Fuck you Sam and fuck you Emily. You're my cousin, I considered you a sister. We told each other everything."

"I'm sorry" I heard Emily whisper.

"Choke on a muffin skank." I growled back before heading out slamming the door loudly behind me. The impact of Emily's pregnancy didn't hit me until I was halfway deep through the forest. I shouldn't be so mad at her, it's her life, her baby and if she doesn't want to tell me then, well, that's her decision. It just hurt to know that they actually were planning on not telling me. Would they wait until she started showing or until the baby was born? I shook my head. I began unconsciously running deeper into the dark woods. It's not like I was lost, I knew these woods like the back of my hands. I stopped leaning agaisnt a tree. I slid down against the tree, the rough texture tearing the back of my shirt. I allowed a few tears to escape my sorrow filled eyes. Is it wrong of me to hate Emily so much? She took everything away from me. My fiancé, my friends, and now she's pregnant and I can never have that. I can't get pregnant. I'm a fucking menopausal she wolf stuck in time until my body stops shifting. I haven't had my period or gotten sick since my change. Fate fucks me over. Why can't I have a happy ending? I turn away guys that do try to get to know me because deep down there's a hope that Sam would leave Emily for me. I groaned. I need to move on from this Sam and Emily thing. But it hurts so much. I wish Jacob was here, I wished that he never left. I needed my best friend.

The woods were quiet, not an animal in sight as I stood up from the forest ground. As I began walking in the direction of my home a white blur flashed at the corner of my eyes. I inhaled deeply then grimaced. Vampire.

"Show yourself" I growled. My body trembled ready to phase if a fight were to go down. It stepped out from behind the trees.

"Leah Clearwater it's only me." Edward Cullen walked out his hands up in surrender.

I sneered "What the hell are you doing on Quileute land bloodsucker?" I took an offensive possession.

He smirked "Your in Cullen territory Clearwater." I looked around taking in my surroundings. My brows furrowed. I was on their land. Man I must of been really out of it. The sudden realization didn't stop me from keeping my guard up.

"Well piss off leech I was just leaving" I began walking back in the direction to La Push but his voice stopped me in my tracks.

"Leah wait!" I inwardly groaned. "What?" I snapped.

"Jake, is he really gone?"

"No shit Sherlock what else have you been soaking up from my mind?" I said crossing my arms under my breast. His eyes zeroed in on the area and I dropped my arms at my side instantly. He cleared his throat and brought his attention back to my face.

"I didn't mean to be listening in I-I- I apologize" he said curtly. "I'm sorry about Emily,I must leave now. Bye Miss Clearwater." and just like that he was gone. Stupid leech I grumbled as I took off to La Push. And I swear I heard his laugh echo through the forest.

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