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Shouldn't Be a Good in Goodbye
After the sadness, after the last words. Caught in the silence; caught in between.
Penelope Garcia,
I missed my warm and happy feelings. I wasn't feeling the sadness anymore I was feeling the sorrow. The last words Emily said to me kept running around in my mind. I know that I'm no profiler but I should've known that something wasn't right. We were all dead silent as we waited for news about Emily. I was caught between disbelief and heartbreak when JJ told us that she didn't make it.
After the madness, after the slow shock. Before the wave hits the flood comes rushing in.
Derek Morgan,
In some ways everything seemed to happen so fast and in others it seemed to have taken eternity. I was over being mad. I slowly came out of the shock that Emily wasn't alive and that I was the last person that spoke to her. I knew that it would only take a bit longer before the flood of emotions come rushing in but I had to stay strong.
This is the bad before the worse. This is the storm before the storm and I haven't even hit the bottom of this ocean floor.
Aaron Hotchner,
Looking at the team's faces was almost unbearable and I knew that things would only get far worse. It was only the first storm because I when they found out the truth it would create another one. Only it would consist of and rage and fury, not pain and sadness. I knew that I hadn't touched the bottom of the ocean floor yet with the lies I was telling and the lies that I would have to keep feeding them.
This is the bend before the brake; this is the mercy not the grace. This is the proof and not the faith I try to find.
Jennifer Jareau,
With everything that we've been through, how much more could we bend without breaking? I wondered if this was supposed to be mercy not grace. It made me question the faith I was trying to find. Even though I knew that Hotch and I were doing the right thing it didn't make it any easier to see everybody's hopeful eyes turn to grief. The fact that I was betraying their trust like this made me feel sick but it had to be done.
Shouldn't be a good in goodbye.
Emily Prentiss,
I keep thinking that I never got a chance. I never got the chance to explain myself, a chance to tell them everything, a chance to say goodbye. If I would've said something, done something else before then maybe things wouldn't have turned out this way. I've come to realize that there shouldn't be a good in goodbye.
If I never loved you, if I never felt your kiss, if I never had you. I know that I still would have mourned you and I would've missed your smile.
Spencer Reid,
I just couldn't believe it, you're gone. I loved you more than a co-worker and more than a friend but I never got to say it. I never got to feel the softness of your touch, or the magic of your kiss. I know that even if I didn't feel this way I still would've mourned you because you were to amazing not to mourn. I'm going to miss you and your sunny smile.
If it wasn't so worth it this wouldn't be. The bad before the worse and the storm before the storm.
David Rossi,
You always had to try and save the world, didn't you? I always admired that about you. I wondered if doing what you did for Declan would still be worth it if you would've known that this was going to happen. Then I realized that I know what your answer would be. I also realized that this feeling of pain and darkness is only going to get worse.
A.N I don't know what came over. I was watching "Lauren" and I couldn't get this song out of my head so I starting writing and this is what ended up happening. This is Beta'd by no other then the amazing Whitewolf200056. Anyways, I hope that you liked it and please review.