MCA canon is pretty awful but it at least lets me do this.
I think the thing is that she hates me. Two years can change a person, I know it did me. Everybody says not to get worked up about it, but there's something strange behind her ignoring me. I haven't heard her say more than three sentences in a row, and her vocabulary consists mostly of "Hello, Shintaro" and "I have to go, but it was nice talking to you" with a few "how was your day" and "that's good" thrown in. Every time I try to tell her how I feel, I end up telling her something stupid. I'm stupid.
I thought back on all of the time we had spent together, and how rude I was. I was callous and unkind to the girl who called me her friend, and there was no way I could make it up to her. She had always showed me kindness, and what was the nicest thing I ever did for her? Help her with her homework? She still failed, and I was pathetic. I'm still pathetic.
That box of paper cranes hidden under my bed makes me think of her. I look at all the numbers written in red ink, my 100s compared to her 40s. She always worked her hardest, and without any effort, I made her look like a dimwitted fool.
The tough part was writing the letter I. After that, the other words flowed seamlessly from my red pen. Big scrawling letters. I LOVE YOU. Childish handwriting cramped in with neat mathematical I LOVE YOUs. On the wing I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU and in my mind I screamed I LOVE YOU from rooftops and whispered the words quietly into the ear of her I love.
When it was done, I stared at my work. I thought of Ayano's face as I handed it to her, what she would think when she realized that I loved her more than I cared to know. I put it in the box with the rest.
Moved from fresh-hot-yaois