A/N: Warning for some suicidal thoughts and an attempt. Self-harm is also included.

Disclaimer:I don't own CHiPs.

Why me? Why me? Why!? Those few words just kept running through Nikki Mitchell's mind. She was staring at the computer screen in front of her. She wanted to throw the computer across the room but the noise of that would wake up her older sister Brandi. Brandi was older by about a minute. They were twins, but not identical twins. In Nikki's mind Brandi was much much prettier. But in all honesty both girls were beautiful. Nikki had long wavy dark silky hair it went down past her waist. Brandi had long dark red hair it went down to about her the middle of her back. It was also wavy. She died it a darker red color because she liked that. Both girls were about 5'4 130lbs. They were small young women, in their lower twenties. Both blessed with smooth sun kissed tan skin.

Nikki hated the way she looked. She thought Brandi looked better than her. She wished she was Brandi. And tonight while on social media all she could find were people commenting on how pretty her sister was. Nikki logged out of twitter because it was depressing, Instagram was worse, and then when she got on her Facebook she wanted to scream. Nikki rarely posted a picture of herself anyway so that explained a little as to why no one ever said anything, but seeing all these pictures and these comments all about her sister was driving her crazy!

Nikki and Brandi although sisters not by choice, it was something that God had chosen to happen…but just because they were sisters didn't mean they couldn't be friends. Like lots of people had said to them over the years 'sisters can't be friends' they were friends…not only that they were best friends. Nikki loved her sister like crazy! But just like friends or sisters they had their own fights. Nikki was proud to say that she did have one more friend other than Brandi. Her name was Amber. Amber had been friends with both sisters for years, ever since they started pre-school.

Nikki slowly got up from her chair, grabbed her laptop, and walked to her bedroom. She set her laptop on the dresser and shut it off.

"Nikki?" Brandi asked tiredly as she walked into the room rubbing her tired eyes. "Why you still up, girl?" she asked with a yawn and a stretch.

Nikki smiled and sat down on her bed. "I don't know, couldn't sleep I guess," she replied.

Brandi nodded "Ok then." She started to walk out of the room.

Nikki was thankful for that, she laid down and covered up under her covers.

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Nikki slowly pulled herself out of bed. "Well…I guess this is about the right time to get up." She walked towards the kitchen, and saw Brandi running around trying to make breakfast, while doing her hair at the same time.

"We're gonna be late for work if you don't get ready now, Nikki," she said with a bobby pin in her mouth.

Nikki took a quick bite of Brandi's toast then ran to her room to get dressed and do her hair. In no time both sisters were out the door and on their way to work.

Meanwhile in another part of town

Ponch was just finishing up his ding dong just after briefing. It was about seven-fifty in the morning.

"Hey, Baker you ready for today? I have a feeling it's gonna be a good one," he asked with a huge smile.

"You and your feelings," Jon mumbled as he and Ponch exited the building and went to their motorcycles. Ponch was smiling the whole time. "What, you meet a girl or something?" Jon asked.

"Well…uh do you remember that nurse in ICU…Nikki Mitchell?" Ponch asked.

"Oh the one you've been flirting with every time you see her?" Jon asked.

"Yeah…uh anyway…she friended me on Facebook last night…" Ponch started a smile creeping on his face. "She said I looked cute in my profile picture that I just updated this morning before briefing…and you know what else?"

"Oh I'm sure you'll tell me whether I wanna know or not," Jon teased.

Ponch rolled his eyes. "We chatted a bit today…she said we could go out tonight."

"Wow what a surprise…you've got a date on Friday night," Jon said with a grin. "You could've said that and spared all the details, partner…and before you ask yes I'm still going out with Brandi. We can make it a double date tonight too if you want."

"You read my mind, Jon. Thanks!" Ponch said strapping on his helmet then starting his motorcycle. "Let's get to work, partner!"