My Augustus, This is to You

by Lunatris262

Hazel writes a letter in the form of a poem to Augustus in case he is watching over her. She is going to leave it at his grave and she wants him to know that it was a privilege for her to love him. Rated teen just in case. Characters and plot are not mine, but John Green's.

Dear Augustus,

Though you are long gone, I thought you would like this.

We are all side effects,

Every day I breathe,

A side effect of life,

While I await my fate.

I wait for my death,

I am a grenade,

I will explode,

Hurting everyone who crossed my path.

You have died,

I miss you so,

I will never entwine my heart,

With another,

Because we are apart.

I thought only I could hurt others,

But now the pain has reached my heart,

You told me,

"It would be a privilege to have my heart broken by you."

I never thought it would be me who has been torn apart,

And not you.

All I want to say,

Is that I want you to know,

I am happy with my choices,

And you have left your scars.

And though I now cry,

I always remember to enjoy the little things,

So I put the cigarette in my mouth,

Never giving it the chance to try,

and stop my heart.

We are all side effects,

We are all grenades,

We have all left enough scars,

We have all lived our lives,

We have all done something honorable.

Goodbye, Augustus. Maybe I'll see you soon.

Yours truly and forever,

Hazel Grace