Letting Go
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters
FYI: this has absolutely nothing to do with my other stories, also this is in Barbara's POV up until the dialogue
It's been five years, five years since he died, five years since I lost my heart. It's funny to be standing here, over his grave, I never even went to the funeral, I never visited or anything, it was just too hard.
His family hated me, they blamed me for the longest time, it made sense, I was there, I didn't save him. I couldn't really, I realize that now, I have finally come to terms with what happened.
For around three years I barely did anything, I just wasted away beating myself up, lost in my grief. I would eat, and sleep, and bathe but I was just going through the motions, there was no feeling behind it, no anything.
Helena went through her own period of self bashing over his death too, she threw herself into patrolling and got reckless there for a while, in the end it was Dinah to snap her out of it, I was too upset to bother. After Helena's period of self-destructiveness was over, she came to me, she said it was time for me to wake up and realize the truth, it wasn't my fault.
Helena was the first person to be brutally honest with me, everyone else had just told me it wasn't my fault and tried to make me feel better. But Helena, she went through every painful detail of that night until I realized it wasn't my fault, she made me see.
I visited his parents the other day, they practically through me out right off the bat, but I made them listen. I told them exactly what happened, I told them the truth, and they still hate me for getting their son involved with people like Harley Quinn. When I told Helena and Dinah about it, they both got really angry, I have a feeling The Brixtons are gonna get a visits from two very pissed off vigilantes soon enough.
Back to the reason I'm here, I've spent five years grieving, five years beating myself up over something I couldn't control, but no more, it's time to let go. I've spent too long dwelling on what could have been; I need to start focusing on the future.
"Goodbye my love," Barbara whispered, "I'll always love you but it's time for me to let go. I've met someone else, he knew about me right away, he understood right away. It's time, I'm ready to move on, and I'm ready to put this all behind me, like I should have done before. I'm sorry for what happened Wade, it was what I feared all along, I never meant for this to happen. I never meant for you to die, and I certainly never meant for you to fall in love with me. But it happened, and none of it is my fault, it just happened, none of us can control fate, I know that now, it took me a while but I get it now. Helena and Dinah helped show me the truth, you loved me, I loved you, but some things just aren't meant to be."
"Are you ready?" Helena asked coming up to Barbara.
Barbara nodded, "yeah, it's time, I'm ready."
Dinah smiled brightly, "finally, he's been waiting for this."
Barbara smiled slightly, "yeah he has, but he doesn't have to wait anymore, I'm finally ready to be Mrs. Barbara Grayson.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters
FYI: this has absolutely nothing to do with my other stories, also this is in Barbara's POV up until the dialogue
It's been five years, five years since he died, five years since I lost my heart. It's funny to be standing here, over his grave, I never even went to the funeral, I never visited or anything, it was just too hard.
His family hated me, they blamed me for the longest time, it made sense, I was there, I didn't save him. I couldn't really, I realize that now, I have finally come to terms with what happened.
For around three years I barely did anything, I just wasted away beating myself up, lost in my grief. I would eat, and sleep, and bathe but I was just going through the motions, there was no feeling behind it, no anything.
Helena went through her own period of self bashing over his death too, she threw herself into patrolling and got reckless there for a while, in the end it was Dinah to snap her out of it, I was too upset to bother. After Helena's period of self-destructiveness was over, she came to me, she said it was time for me to wake up and realize the truth, it wasn't my fault.
Helena was the first person to be brutally honest with me, everyone else had just told me it wasn't my fault and tried to make me feel better. But Helena, she went through every painful detail of that night until I realized it wasn't my fault, she made me see.
I visited his parents the other day, they practically through me out right off the bat, but I made them listen. I told them exactly what happened, I told them the truth, and they still hate me for getting their son involved with people like Harley Quinn. When I told Helena and Dinah about it, they both got really angry, I have a feeling The Brixtons are gonna get a visits from two very pissed off vigilantes soon enough.
Back to the reason I'm here, I've spent five years grieving, five years beating myself up over something I couldn't control, but no more, it's time to let go. I've spent too long dwelling on what could have been; I need to start focusing on the future.
"Goodbye my love," Barbara whispered, "I'll always love you but it's time for me to let go. I've met someone else, he knew about me right away, he understood right away. It's time, I'm ready to move on, and I'm ready to put this all behind me, like I should have done before. I'm sorry for what happened Wade, it was what I feared all along, I never meant for this to happen. I never meant for you to die, and I certainly never meant for you to fall in love with me. But it happened, and none of it is my fault, it just happened, none of us can control fate, I know that now, it took me a while but I get it now. Helena and Dinah helped show me the truth, you loved me, I loved you, but some things just aren't meant to be."
"Are you ready?" Helena asked coming up to Barbara.
Barbara nodded, "yeah, it's time, I'm ready."
Dinah smiled brightly, "finally, he's been waiting for this."
Barbara smiled slightly, "yeah he has, but he doesn't have to wait anymore, I'm finally ready to be Mrs. Barbara Grayson.