Disclaimer: I do not own Hiei, or any of the YYH characters, though I desperately wish I did, the plot and song/poem however is, mine.

MiniWashu: You finally posted it, yay! But of course I, Washu, could have done better! I am after all the most accomplished being in the universe, and soon-to-be-famous mad scientist.

Lady SP: *Shakes head* why in the world did I pick a miniature Washu as my muse?!?

*An innocent man walks into authoress's secret writing room.*

Innocent guy: Hey, do you two know the way to the nearest gas station *gets zapped by MiniWashu and falls to the floor*

MiniWashu: Yay! A new guinea pig to test my new Cell Manipulating machine!

Lady SP: you poor, poor, soul, *grins wickedly and joins MiniWashu in her deranged experiment*

Ahem, anyway, on to the story…

Its like I'm walking through a storm,

Every day and night,

Hiei walked through the crowd of humans, thinking to himself. He recalled how he had gotten stuck in this pathetic excuse for a world in the first place. Why did he have to go and try and steal those stupid artifacts anyway? All the worlds could be thrown at his feet and it wouldn't help, wouldn't fill the emptiness inside of him.

And they don't understand,

Why I cry out,

Why I fight.

The emptiness that had come from being branded "The Forbidden Child", from having all his trust betrayed, and yet at the same time, he was foolish enough to trust again, and again, each time his glass-like hope being shattered into a million pieces. But then, he would carefully rebuild it, only to go trust again, and have it shattered once more.

Because they don't know,

What its like to have your soul,

Shattered a million times,

And put back together,

Just to be given another million blows.

And I learned,

Trust is cruel,

And trust is cold.

To trust, the heart is nothing but a game,

And all I know is,

Trust never brought me anything.

He remembered every single person he had ever given his trust, his heart, his hope. He remembered everything about them, the way they looked, the way they acted, the things they liked. He remembered all the times he had been there for them, and vice versa. He never would have thought that those very people would be the ones who would cause him to become so aloof, and…paranoid. He tried to forget them, but their kind, yet deceiving faces, and their warm, welcoming voices, the same ones that had shouted for his exile, or murder, or whatever, wouldn't leave him in peace, always visiting him in his nightmares.

And they don't see,

The visions and the nightmares,

And the memories.

But now he was falling into the trap once again, beginning to trust these stupid humans, The Reikai Tantei, he was once again part of a team, a group, a family, but everyday he waited for it to end and for them to push him away.

Voices swirl around me,

As I hear myself crying in the chambers of my mind.

And nobody understands, nobody seems so see,

Why trust is something, I'm not willing to take,

Or willing to provide.

And I learned,

Trust is cruel,

And trust is cold.

To trust, the heart is nothing but a game,

And all I know is,

Trust never brought me anything.

None of them knew how much they had come to mean to him, but he kept his heart cold and strong, he knew sooner or later, the time would come and once again he would be on his own, exiled yet again.

And they don't know about my pain,

How I've been betrayed before,

And how in hope I see nothing to gain.

He kept thinking to himself, when suddenly his thoughts were interrupted as somebody bumped into him, a feminine voice entered his ears,

"Sorry about that,"

"Hn," he had no time for apologies, and it seemed the owner of that voice was the same, she seemed quite reluctant to grind out the S word. He turned to see nothing more than wispy black hair disappearing into the crowd, he shrugged and continued thinking.

It happened before, it can happen again,

Been pushed right out that door,

Into the cold,

Into the rain,

And I learned,

Trust is cruel,

And trust is cold.

To trust, the heart is nothing but a game,

And all I know is,

Trust never brought me anything.

Anything but pain.

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A/N: This is my first YYH fanfic, so… don't expect much, but I do hope you liked this chapter, I will be posting the next one very soon.