A/N: Ok so i loved the relationship between Phoebe and Cole in charmed and i was so sad when i watched it when he died for the first time. I know it happened ages ago but everytime i watch it i have the urge to write about it lol (:

Disclaimer: Charmed belongs to whomever created ... im not quite sure who lol

Love Wasnt Enough For Us

"If im dead right now, I know it was at your hand. No one else in heaven or hell had power over me. Please don't cry I was dead before you met me, I was born the day you loved me, and my love for you will keep me alive forever."

He was the love of my life. Being a witch had taken over my life for so long and I never really gave time to myself, I lost my sister and then I gained a sister. Going from being the youngest sister to the middle sister was something which scared me. Ive always been so care free and loose and then this massive bombshell of responsibility was thrust upon and it wasn't something I was ready for.

Prue was my big sister, she always looked out for me and took control over the responsibilities and I could just be me. I sometimes wished that I had been killed instead of Prue, Piper needed her and if there was anyway that I could change it I would have. But things changed, I miss Prue everyday I honestly do, but having Paige, my younger sister is something that I love. I finally get to pass on my craft to someone else and I get to be the older sister and guide her away from trouble (not that I always succeed).

Cole Turner, oh how I loved you. You were tall, dark and handsome and everything that I could have ever was there for me at those times when I needed him the most, he held me when I lost Prue and then was always there for me. We went through so much, I thought I had finally found my prince charming but I couldn't keep him. That day, it stays with me forever. I chose my sisters over him and I would do it again, however the pain doesn't become any easier. That pain, like someone had shoved their hand into my chest and pulled out my heart just so I could watch it stop beating.

You know, Grams never warned me. She never told me that I was going to feel this way, she never told me that I was going to cry myself to sleep every single night, she never told me that I was the one who had to kill the person I loved. I never knew how much impact that man would have on my life, the day I met him I never thought that it would turn into something so furious and beautiful in the way we loved each other. I had the chance to bring him back but I couldn't, I always loved him but at some point we all move on and let go and maybe, just maybe love wasn't enough for us.

There you go (:

Hope you enjoyed

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Lizzle x