This takes place right after "Only the Good Spy Young" when our beloved Cammie Morgan runs away. It's in Zach's POV.

Disclaimer: Ally Carter owns the Gallagher Girls. Mayday Parade owns the song.

She is everywhere I go
Everyone I see
Winter's gone and I still can't sleep
Summer's on the way
At least that's what they say
But these clouds won't leave

Everywhere I go, she's all that's on my mind. I can't think straight. I can barely make it through the day. Winter isn't here anymore. Nope. Over the Winter, when she was being followed by the Circle, and she didn't know much about them, she was probably safer. Now that she's gone, it's like she took all the life out of this place. Gallagher isn't the same. Everyone is stressing, and hardly anyone has smiled since that day. It's like a cloud is hanging over us.

Walk away
I'm barely breathing
As I'm lying on the floor
Take my heart
As you're leaving
I don't need it anymore

She's gone. Cammie is really gone. She got up and she walked out of her school. Her home. Her safety. I can hardly breath because I'm too worried. She might as well have ripped my heart out right there and taken it with her. It's not like there's any use for it here.

This is the memory
This is the curse of having
Too much time to think about it
It's killing me
This is the last time
This is my forgiveness
This is endless

The memory of that day...It kills me. It kills me knowing that she's gone and it's all my fault. This stupid curse of a memory I have won't stop haunting me. It repeats the same thing over and over. 'It's all your fault.' She's been gone for months now, and we haven't been able to get her back. I deserved this, didn't I? I've hurt too many people in my lifetime and I'm only 17. I don't deserve her forgiveness. I can't even forgive myself. This stupid, endless summer...

Now spring has brought the rain
But I still see your face
And I can not escape the past
Creeping up inside
Reminding me that I
Can never bring you back

Spring came and left. Then, summer. I still see your image every single day. No matter how much I want to forget the past, I can't. I'm a spy. Spies never forget. And that's why I remember that no matter how hard I try, I just can't bring you back home.

This is the memory
This is the curse of having
Too much time to think about it
It's killing me
This is the last time
This is my forgiveness
This is endless

(This is endless)
This is endless
(This is endless)

Someone help me
'Cause the memory
Convinced itself to tear me apart
And it's gonna succeed before long

It really is my fault. That day, in the pigeons...I gave you the idea. You kept thinking about it, and eventually, you left. Only, you left without me. You left us all, and it kills all of us. None of these people forgive me. I don't deserve it. It tears me apart every single time I think of you. Of that day. Pretty soon, it might really kill me.

This is the memory
This is the curse of having
Too much time to think about it
It's killing me
This is the last time
This is my forgiveness
This is endless
(This is endless)

Someone help me
'Cause the memory
Convinced itself to tear me apart
And it's gonna succeed before long
(This is endless)

She is everywhere I go
Everyone I see
But these clouds won't leave

Every single week I think of her. Every single day, I remind myself that it's all my fault. Every single minute, I have to go on in the safety of Gallagher, but she's out there, in the cold. Every single second passes, and in those seconds, I'm here. Missing her. Wanting her. Needing her. She's gone. And it's my fault. But I will get her back.

"Zach, where did you go over the summer?"

"I went crazy."

I hope you all enjoyed this! I was just listening to the song, and the idea came to mind. Thanks for the support! Tell me how I did. You know you wanna review!

Forever and Always,

Me