Title- That Darkest Feeling

Character/s- Okumura Rin

Genre- Horror & Tragedy

Rating- T

Anime- Blue Exorcist (Ao no Exorcist)

Summary- Rin Okumura had been alone for as long as he could remember. He was tormented by those others couldn't see and scorned by all the beings called 'humans'. This is his story as he fights through his life, trying to find what he should do with his life and find his 'place' in the world.

Prologue

Small feet pattered across the wet pavement, fleeing from what others couldn't see as the heaven's poured their wrath upon the world. Lightning arched across the night sky, illuminating the fleeing child as he raced on. The boy's clothes only consisted of a white short sleeved shirt, soaked through and showing his prominent ribs jutting out of the thin shirt and a pair of worn black shorts. His hair was a tangled mess, only serving to get in his eyes and make the child stumble as he fled, stumbling and making him lose momentum. Scrapes and small scars littered the youth's body, darkening what was once creamy peach into sickly shades of purple, green and yellow.

The emaciated child collapsed in one of the many shadowed alleyways that he had scrambled and dashed through in order to escape any possible pursuers. He feebly dragged his body over into the shadow of a dumpster, completely masking his presence except for choked sobs emitted from his mouth. 'Why does it have to be this way? What did I do wrong… Am I really a demon,' the youth continued to cry, rocking back and forth in the consuming darkness of the alleyway, mentally questioning the words of others and their following actions.

The boy had just gotten home from pre-school and he was rather proud of himself. He had managed not to get into any fights today! 'Father will be so proud of me!,' the youth thought excitedly as he walked happily next to his younger twin brother.

"Nii-san? You look rather happy," commented the younger twin of the two. The elder simply smiled brightly the turned to his twin.

"Yup, Yukio! I didn't get into a fight today so Father should be proud me," The elder exclaimed proudly while strutting like a peacock. This display caused Yukio to laugh at his elder till he clutched his sides from mirth.

"Rin-nii-san? Are you going to show me that cool trick today," the younger asked curiously. The elder twin had been bragging to the younger for weeks about discovering a cool trick he could do. Whenever Yukio asked, the elder would smirk and say he had to be patient till he wanted to show him. Rin kept on claiming he wanted to 'perfect' the trick before showing Yukio and the priest they called Father.

Rin adopted an exaggeratedly thoughtful expression before replying," Hmmm… I don't know… Are you ready for the awesomeness?" This promptly caused Yukio to sigh before pleading to his older brother with a pouting face. Rin only laughed at his younger twin then ruffled the other's hair with affection.

"Yea, I think I'll show you and father today," he exclaimed with a bright smile as the twins raced home together to get to the church that the two labeled as home.

The youth in the alleyway, Rin Okumura as he was once called, shook his head of the happy memories from several months ago. He grimly recalled that after showing his Father the 'trick' he had discovered, everything had gone downhill. A few weeks before he showed his parental figure, he had discovered he could summon these strange yet beautiful blue flames if he concentrated hard. Rin, being the youth he was, didn't think anything was abnormal about this and decided to practice summoning the azure flames at will till he could almost do it unconsciously and make the size anyway he wanted.

After mastering the flames, he decided to wait for a day where he had done something to make his Father proud to show him his 'awesome trick' as well. The reactions he received when he showed his elder and younger twin were exactly the opposite of what he had hoped to receive in return. The priest's expression went at first from shock, then calculating, and it finally ended in a murderous rage. In the elder's rage, he yelled at Rin as the younger's eyes teared over. Rin looked to his younger brother hopefully but was devastated by what he saw. Yukio, his most precious twin, was staring at him with tears in his eyes like he was a devil incarnate!

What was left of his hope was crushed and he fled the church like the demons from hell were chasing him, seeking to bring him to eternal damnation. Ever since that day a few months ago, he had been alone. The strange creatures he could always remember seeing seemed to be bothering him more ever since he fled the church. Some of the more human ones would be a little kind to him and would give him a little bit of food, but they always called him Young Master, which he always found a little creepy.

Some of the 'demon's' were unusually cruel to him and others he had seen on the streets. These people were the ones he learned to avoid, but on nights like tonight, they always seemed to want to pick on him specifically. Rin knew it was high time he learned how to defend himself, but he didn't know how. The boy also knew he lacked proper schooling to survive out here for long, so he would have to find a solution to that 'little' problem too.

'All answers come with time,' Rin thought as he wiped any leftover tears from his face and stood up."I'm on my own now, so I gotta survive…," the youth softly commented on his situation. He had a hard road ahead of him so he might as well get moving.

Yay. First chapter of my first fanfic. I have no planned update schedule for this fic, so updates will be incredibly random, just like my motivation is. So, ja, treat the noob kindly 'cause I don't know how often I'll do this. Comments, questions, raving rants, and concerns shall be read via reviews co comment and I shall read. All suggestions are welcomed with wide arms but that doesn't mean they'll be used. So… Ja matta and see you whenever I post the next chapter.