Chris hadn't meant to cheat on Alex, he really hadn't. He'd only gone to her house to hang out, play some video games then she'd been on his lap asking, begging him to kiss her and...
He stood under the water, the temperature turned up higher than he'd normally have it almost like he thought he could wash it all away. He'd wanted Alex for years and now he had him, he finally had him and he'd slept with someone else.
"You're scum." He hissed to himself as he scrubbed his body, Alex's cheerful face filling his mind. Trusting, cheerful Alex who would believe any lie he tried to spin. It made him feel sick.
Later that night Chris went to see Alex, who'd greeted him happily throwing his arms around him and kissing him deeply. No-one kissed quite like Alex, it was like he could put all his emotions into that single act all while being completely unaware of the effects he was having on you. He tried to tell him, tried to take a step back and admit everything but Alex, chose that moment to pull his shirt off in a fluid motion, their eyes meeting.
"I've wanted you all day."
And Chris' words stuck in his throat, as Alex pushed his jeans down, revealing his semi erect cock because underwear was too constrictive or so he said. Chris was sure he only did it to tease him.
He tried again he really did, but when your partner is bent over the bed, wiggling his ass at you, looking over his shoulder, how are you meant to form the words I cheated. Instead Chris prepped him until Alex was begging him to take him, whining and writhing on the sheets and although he'd never admit it, he almost felt sick as he pushed inside his boyfriend, knowing what he'd done a few hours before.
Chris whispered his apologies tears falling down his face as he kissed the sleeping Alex's head. "I never meant to baby." He stroked his hair, which was stupidly soft as always, "I really do love you Alex, I really fucking do."
When Alex opened his eyes the next morning, he automatically reached for his lover only to find him not there. Opening his eyes confusion crossed his face when all he found was an envelope on the Chris' pillow. Tearing it open, he was even more confused to find a one way ticket to japan.
You have to focus on your career Alex. You're really going places in Japan and I'm not having you turn them down just so you can stay here with me. You have to follow the path you were born to take.
always yours, Chris.He stared at the crossed out note, before slowly turning the paper over, his whole world shattering as it all fell into place.
I tried so hard to tell you, but I'm nothing but a coward. I'm so sorry Alex.