This is a story that me, Nashville1211, and BreannaM13 co-wrote. We loved the last scene in the past episode and wished that it had continued. This is what we wish would happen even though it probably won't because the writers like to tease.
We hope you enjoy it and let us know if you want us to continue.
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Rayna went up to the cabin after the interview to see Deacon and talk to him about their situation. She sat down on the chair next to him.
Rayna: I wanted to thank you for doing that. You ran out of there so fast.
Deacon: You were right we needed to do it. How is she doing?
Rayna: I don't know.
Deacon: You should have told me Ray. I'm sorry. I was a mess when you found out you were pregnant but I got better and I've been good a long time. Right?
Rayna nods.
Deacon: So why didn't you tell me when she was like three, you know, or five or ten? Why didn't you give me a little more time to be her daddy?
Rayna: You were always part of her life. You saw her grow up.
Deacon stands up: No no Ray. It's not the same. You know that's not the same Rayna. You ever sing her to sleep?
Rayna: Mhm.
Deacon: I never did. And I never got to hold her when she was scared or, I don't know, feel her cling to my leg when she was shy around strangers. Yeah I was there all the time but I didn't know. The hard part is that right now I still wouldn't know. If she hadn't found out Rayna, I still wouldn't know. You'd be sitting down in that chair lying to my face right now and every other day, the rest of my life.
Rayna: You don't know that. I mean...
Deacon: Look, I'm sorry. I went there and did what I had to do for my daughter but that's all I got for you Ray.
Rayna stands up: Our daughter, shes our daughter Deacon. And I've done what I've had to do for her too. You think I wanted it like this? I wanted to be your wife. I wanted us to raise her up together. In a wonderful loving home that you could not provide. I cried myself to sleep for a year I wanted it so bad. And you know you're right, I could have told you at some point down the line, but when, when really is it the right time to blow up your kids...life. And when you did find out did you scoop her in your arms and tell her how much you loved her and you were so proud of her. Nope. You got drunk. You got drunk and I almost died. I lied to you I did and I bet you resent the hell out of me for that, but I guarantee I resent you even for putting us in this position in the first place.
They both had tears in their eyes and all Deacon wanted to do was wrap his arms around her and feel like he belonged to her but he didn't. He couldn't. She was right he couldn't have taken care of a family. He looked away because he didn't want to see the hurt in her eyes and then after five minutes he asked tentatively, "do you want to come inside?" She shook her head as a tear rolled down her cheek, "I can't." "I'm making dinner." He walked inside and she sat down on the chair outside for a while in order to get herself together. She really had missed him so much when they broke up and all she wanted was for him to wrap his arms around her and make her feel safe. She looked inside the house, their house, and saw him standing by the stove. A small loving smile appeared on her lips. It felt like the good times they had spent together at their cabin. She slowly got up.
She walked into the house looking at all the pictures of her albums on the walls, the 'eternity' sign above the door and all the furniture that was still right where she remembered it. Deacon turned around and smiled knowing that she was going to come back inside. "You know its not the same without you here." Rayna looked at him and smiled. This was home this house is where she could have started her own family that she had always wanted, with the man she had loved for all her life. Deacon asked, "are you going to stay for dinner? It's your favorite, baked catfish. Just like old times." Rayna answered, "yeah, I guess I can stay for dinner." Deacon turned back towards the stove and smiled.
She missed being up here with him and even though they weren't together she felt like she was home. She looked at him cooking and allowed her mind to drift away from all the problems they were facing. She imagined wrapping her arms around his waist and burying her face in his neck in order to feel his warmth and inhale his scent. He would wrap her arms around her and pull her closer as he kissed her hair... Rayna shivered when she was brought back to reality by Deacon asking, "what?" She had been caught staring. She blushed and smiled, "nothing. Can I help you with anything?" Deacon smiled back, "can you set the table?"
Rayna got up and walked to the cabinet where she had left the plates and took two out. Deacon was standing in front of the drawer with the knives and forks and she brushed against him, voluntarily, as she went to open it, "sorry." He moved back so she could get the forks and knives and watched her as she walked into the dining room to set the table.
He watched as she walked around the table and chairs. He missed those auburn curls and the sweet smell of when she laid next to him in their bed. He watched as she moved so swiftly across the floor. He imagined himself walking up behind her, wrapping his arms around her waist, nuzzling her neck with his nose, and kissing so softly. Deacon sighed when he was brought back to reality by a voice asking, "anything else?" Deacon smiled. "Do you wanna grab our drinks out of the fridge while I get the food plated?" "Sure." Rayna walked towards the fridge when his hand reached for the refrigerator door brushing against hers. "Sorry," he stepped away from the fridge and walked over to the stove. Rayna smiled. He had done that on purpose. He didn't need anything from the fridge. He just wanted to feel her. She grabbed a bottle of sparkling apple cider and two cups. Deacon pulled the fish out of the oven and they walked into the dining room side by side. Rayna filled the glasses and he made the plates.
They sat across from each other and it felt awkward. 'I shouldn't have stayed,' she thought to herself. Deacon saw that she was feeling out of place and said, "what really hurt me when I found out was not only you lying but also knowing that I wasn't there to raise her with you. I knew what you wanted Ray because I wanted the same thing. I know I screwed up back then and I'm sorry that I couldn't give you your dream." Rayna looked down and sighed, "I wish we could have lived our dream together. I missed you so so much. Every night I went to bed thinking about you and every morning the first thing I thought of was you saying good morning to me. But I think the most important thing now is to move on and go forward with our lives. I can't fix the mistakes I made back then and neither can you but I think we should try and not make the same mistakes again. I'm tired of hurting the one person that has loved me for me." Deacon looked sad, "I'm tired of that too Ray, but I love you. I always have and I always will." Deacon admitted.
He put down his fork and laid his hand on top of hers. "You and me have so much damn water under our bridge, it's like we're drowning in it. I just want to put the past behind us and do what's right for our daughter, even if that means us never getting back together." Rayna now had tears rolling down her cheeks. She used her free hand and wiped them away. "Deacon I have never not loved you. There hasn't been a day that has gone by in the last 14 years that I haven't thought about what our life could have been like or still could be. The thing is that im scared, I'm scared of what could happen. It seems like every time we are together something bad happens and one of us almost dies." Deacon sighed. "Ray, I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. You know that's not who I am." Rayna smiled and looked away, "I'm sorry I hurt you by lying. And... I miss you," she looked up at him, "I miss you as my best friend. I know you had to pull away from me to heal but I want you to know that I miss you." Deacon wanted to comfort her. He knew what she was feeling.
He got up and walked over to her and pulled her up. "Come here Ray." She looked into his eyes and then wrapped her arms around his waist and spread her hands out on his back before fisting his shirt. And she exhaled letting her tears fall. "I miss you too, Ray. Its okay just let it all out." Deacon stated rubbing her back. She lifted her head up to look at him. "I'm sorry you have to see me like this." "Shh.. its okay." He kissed the top of her head "I'm so sorry." "Ray, I said it's okay." Deacon looked down at her wiping the tears off her cheek. "No I'm sorry I kept your daughter away from you for the most critical years of her life." Deacon sighed. "I'ts okay you had your reasons and they were pretty good ones. So don't be sorry lets just start from now and move foward." Rayna nodded and smiled, she then snuggled into his chest. She didn't know what they were doing. She didn't know what would happen after she left or what would happen tomorrow. But right now she felt a little better because she felt Deacon's arms around her and that gave her hope that some day, maybe, he would forgive her completely.
She untangled herself and picked up the plates and took them to the kitchen. He got the glasses and followed her. She washed and he dried just like they had done so many times before in that exact kitchen. "Are you going to stay for a while longer? I was going to light the fire." She looked at her phone and saw that no one was missing her. She looked at Deacon, "yeah." He nodded, "okay." She watched him walk towards the living room and smiled. She made tea and poured it in to two mugs. She walked over to the coffe table and set the mugs down. She sat down on the couch and watched him put wood in the fireplace and start the fire. That is the man she had fallen in love with all those years ago. That is the man she wanted to marry and start her own family with.
He got up and walked over to the couch to sit down next to her. "It should warm up fast. Are you cold?" Deacon asked. "A little." She replied as she scooted closer to him. He grabbed a blanket from the back of the couch and covered them up. He wrapped his arm around her and pulled her close. They sat like this for a few minutes until Rayna spoke up. "Deacon I'm sorry, I really am sorry. And I hope one day you can forgive me for what I have done to you." She moved away a little so that she could see his face. "It's hard to find out that the person you love has lied to you for over a decade." Rayna nodded and looked away. "But I hope you can forgive me for putting us here in the first place. I believe you, that you resent me so much more. We're in the same boat here, Ray. We both wanted the same thing." She cut him off, her voice heavy with emotion. She didn't like to admit this. To admit that the dream was still there, "want Deacon, not wanted." He looked at her a little sternly, "you have a funny way of showing it. How can you say that? You're with Luke." That felt like a dagger straight to her heart. Her voice got louder, "because I'm in love with you, Deacon, not Luke, not anybody else. It has never not been that way. I don't like admitting it but I can't fight it." He looked away from her. She had lied to him. You don't lie like that to people you love. "How do I know your not lieing to me? How do I know you are telling the truth? Because dammit Ray, I can't go through this again."
She wanted to prove it to him in all the wrong ways. Wrong because she was in a relationship and she did not want to cheat but right now Deacon was the most important. She didn't want to go through another break up with him either. He looked at her and they just looked at each other for what felt like forever until she looked at his lips and then back at his eyes. She slowly and tentatively moved closer. Her lips were centimeters away and he could feel her warm breath brushing his lips. She let her lips touch his very lightly and it was like a switch was flipped and nothing else mattered. She was showing him she loved him. Nothing else mattered. She opened her lips a little and he kissed her back just as lightly. Nothing topped this, nothing ever topped this and it was so wrong but so so right. A tear rolled down her cheek and he exhaled his face in a nostalgic expression because they had passed on 13 years of this. It was sad for both of them. He took her bottom lip in between his and let his tongue skim it. More tears rolled down her cheeks because she loved him so much that it hurt her. He made her feel like no one else ever could and it was just a kiss but a kiss with so much emotion and so much feeling that she didn't know what else to do but cry. She skimmed her tongue on his top lip and moved her hand to his cheek. He sighed again. He really missed her lips. He always missed her lips and now he was kissing them and his heart was breaking because he didn't know if he could ever be with her again. If she could ever be with him again.
She heard her phone buzzing on the table but didn't care. She was kissing the man she loves and nothing could ruin this. They kissed for a few more seconds until he pulled away. She sighed at the break of contact. "Ray, you really should answer that. He's called 4 times." Deacon said hoping she would say no. "No it's okay you're more important. I want to be with you and not him but I know that we can't right now. That kiss showed me so many feelings that I haven't had with anybody else. That kiss was to prove to you that I love you and yeah I may have just hurt somebody because of it." Deacon smiled and pulled her into a hug. She hugged him back and then pulled away. "I'm going to give you some time. I really should get going. It's getting late." Rayna said as she stood up. "Call me when you're ready and I promise I will be waiting."
Deacon nodded and walked her to the door. She had showed him she wanted to be with him. He could still taste the remnants of her lips and it just wasn't enough. He wanted to kiss her every day for the rest of his life but he didn't know if he could be with her. The saying, "love conquers all" ran through his mind and he scoffed at it. If only it was that simple. She got in her car. She had just kissed Deacon and it had felt so good and it just made her miss him more. Having a little bit of him made her want more and right now she couldn't have more. She ran her tongue across her lips and tasted his kiss. She sat there as she looked down at her phone. She had four missed calls from Luke. She should really take a break from him and tell him that she kissed Deacon.
She slowly drove away leaving a peace of her behind; leaving half of herself behind. She called Luke and put him on loud speaker. "I've been trying to reach you for the past 20 minutes is everything alright?" "Yes everything is fine. I was just.. umm.. taking care of a few things." "I'm going out of town to visit my kids for a few days. I was just calling to let you know." Rayna nodded, "can you stop by the house before you leave? I need to talk to you." "Yeah I'll be there in about an hour." "Okay see you then."
Rayna arrived home and paced the kitchen before she sat down on the stool at the counter. She heard the door open and close. Luke walked up to Rayna and gave her a hug and a kiss. The kiss made her think of the kiss that she had just shared with the love of her life and it didn't feel the same. "Hey Babe. What did you need to talk?" Luke asked as he sat down next to her. She placed her hand on his and looked him in the eye. "You know I never meant to hurt you, right?" Luke stood up and walked to the other side of the counter. "Ray, what did you do?" She started crying. She never wanted to hurt him but she wanted to be with the man she loved and might have a chance to be with. "Did you go to Deacon?" He said harshly. She nodded. He looked at her, his eyes filled with anger. "Did you sleep with him?" "No I didnt sleep with him! I can't believe you would think that!" She scolded. "Well I don't know what to think anymore. All you talk or worry about is Deacon!" He shouted. Rayna walked toward the door shouting, "he's the father of one of my children! Of course I'm going to worry about him!" She opend the door, "and let me make this really simple for you. You don't have to think about me anymore. The door is open Luke." "I can't believe you are doing this Rayna." She snickered, "well I guess you don't know me very well then." He looked at her shocked as he walked out the door. She slammed the door behind him. "Goodbye!"
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