*Disclaimer, i do not own Naomi, Emily or Skins
This is just a short little oneshot that i came up with. It basically summerises what i think was the moment when Naomi decides that Emily is worth it. It's meant to be read fast, and a little frantic, like her thoughts are jumping all over the place.
I hope you enjoy and tell me what you think! xx
Her mind was spinning and her head was pounding, All she could think about was her constant spinning sensation and her love, complete want, for a Miss Emily Fitch. What she would do, and what she would give for Emily exceeded anything or anyone else. She was amazing, she was perfect, she was immaculate. Anything and everything Naomi wanted existed within Emily. And all she could do was push Emily away.
She knew that Emily liked her, even loved her, and from the way that Emily had been acting lately she could tell that it was somewhat serious. She always gave "suggestive", if that was the word, looks at her, and the comments she made and the way she acted around her practically screamed I want you.
But Naomi couldn't let herself give in to the tantalising red hair and luscious lips as they smiled and called her name. The looks they would get, the names they would get called, they would be the focus of attention and she hated attention more than anything else. She loved being in the background, reading other people, being the cool unattainable one.
Emily was driving her insane. She disliked the thought of being with another girl, coming out as being gay. But the idea of being with Emily was so strong it made her eyes swim and her head spin. She could almost taste those ruby lips on hers, feel the warmth of her skin pressing down onto her, the slide of her hand running up her body, the feel of her inside… it nearly killed her. She wanted to run her fingers through Emily's hair, to hold her close, to say that she was hers.
Because she did want Emily to be hers. The thought of Emily with another made Naomi's stomach clench tightly. She had heard things about her and JJ, and that hurt, as much as Emily proclaimed it meant nothing, it hurt like fucking hell. But what if she was to move on properly, to accept and think that Naomi really didn't want her at all, and start looking for other girls? What if she actually found one? Would she be better than Naomi? Would Naomi still have a chance to get her back even after Emily had given up all hope?
She didn't think so. Emily may be in love with her (oh god the word love made her so light headed she had to sit down) but she had her dignity and she had her pride. She wasn't desperate. Not at all. Emily was gorgeous, and would easily be able to find another, easily be able to move on, easily find a way to be happy without Naomi by her side.
She couldn't let that happen. As much as she hated the thought of being known as one of the lesbians, the thought of not being with Emily would be enough to make her explode. She had never felt like this about anyone before in her life. All she wanted was Emily, all she needed was Emily, and Emily was who she was going to get.