Relentless Sacrifice

All VA characters belong to the wonderful Rachel Mead.

Note: This story takes place before some of the events in Last Sacrifice, but right after Dimitri tells Rose that his love for her has fade.

Chapter 1

"I've given up on you...Love fades. Mine has."

The words stung. I felt like my heart was been stab over and over again. They punctured my heart, left it broken and bleeding. They hurt really bad.

Anger, pain, deception, betrayal battle each other inside my heart. A wave of pain washes over my body, and it takes everything not to fall down.; the emotions battle ting each other inside my heart.

I stared at him, after everything that we have been through this is what I get.

I only stare at him, his back that is to say as he has already turned away from me. I stagger back not believing this.

"Rose!"Lissa says from behind"I told you..." Through the bond I can feel her anger at me for been here; it's like a slap on the face.

I don't let her finish, I spun around and walk out there as fast as I can.

I'm not thinking; I'm only feeling.

I open my eyes just as new tears formed in my eyes. Angrily I quickly cleaned them away.

It had been a week since Dimitri had been turn back to himself yet in that week so many things had happen.

For one everyone thought that Lissa was the hero. She wasn't! Just because she brought him back; healed his soul, that didn't made her the hero automatically. But in everyone's eyes she was. It made me angry, I was the one who had suffer, to get him to be saved. I'm the one suffering, I don't regret it though it save him even though he doesn't want me.

Second; Lissa and me were mad at each other. She was beyond angry at me for trying to seek Dimitri.

Third. I'm no longer a candidate to be Lissa's guardian. Apparently Lissa had personally requested that I be removed. Her actions hurt me. That's not what best friends to to one another.

Fourth: Adrian and me are no longer a combo. We had a huge fight, caused mainly by all the darkness I had been bottling inside. He left for California telling me, this time what we were over.

Fifth: Spirit, Lissa had used too much Spirit, and now i had to pay the consequences. I didn't regret it, If I had to do it all over again I would. To save him I would risk everything and do anything.

Anger cursed through my veins; her emotions seeped through me.

I know what is happening. I'm absorbing her darkness, healing her broken soul that spirit damages when she uses spirit.

It's what I have been doing for a whole week. Which is why I have been here in my room for the past days. Since Lissa removed me from her candidate list, everyone sort of just forgot about me. Something for which I was thankful yet at the same time angry, disappointed and hurt, because no one thought of me. Of how I was doing?

How was I dealing with all the aftermath of spirit Lissa had used.

Everyone forgot that I existed.

Everyone forgot that I was the reason Lissa was mentally stable.

No one thought that maybe I was the one who was losing it.

As the hours went by, I began to lose control of things. I paced around anxiously trying to calm down the anger. Sometimes it worked, other times it made me feel on the edge balancing between staying sane and falling down and let darkness embrace me.

I stared at myself in the mirror.

There was dark circles, underneath my eyes, proof that I hadn't slept for days.

My skin which had been some what tan, now had lost its color. I was pale, another proof that I hadn't eaten.

I was weak, heart broken, with no spirit to keep going; the irony of it made me want to laugh but it ended more in a half sob, and slamming my fist on top on the wardrobe.

A ghostly image of who I had once been now stared back at me.

My muscles strain.

"This is not you" I told myself "Its spirit. Calm down"

But the feelings were overpowering me.

Rage burn within me.

I needed to let this out before it consumed me.

I exhale trying to calm down the feelings inside of me.

As I stared at my ghostly reflection, I saw a flash of red pass through my eyes.

Shock, I stagger back.

Impossible, what u just saw- I shook my head.

Spirit was doing this to me. I'm really going crazy. It's really happening now.

I'm really going crazy this time, and this time nothing, and no one would be able to help me stay sane.

Everyone has abandoned me.

I pull my knees to my chest and hug them. I stay like this loosing track of time. My mind reels with so many thoughts yet at the same time I'm not thinking of anything. Nothing makes sense.

Somewhere in between I began to doze off. In the distance I hear a sound but I'm too drowsy to fully make sense of what is going on. All I want to do is fall down, get my self lost in my subconscious. I want to embrace darkness and never find a way out. The sound grows louder and I'm forced to wake up. Drowsy I try to make sense of surroundings.

It's still night and the room is too cold. I look at the nightstand clock; it' five-twenty six pm.

The sounds grows louder; like metal hitting metal, it lingers on the air and it makes my stomach clutch in fear.

I get up and open the window. My eyes quickly adjust to the night. I notice that there is no one outside which is weird. This side of court always has guardians coming in and out; this is the head quarters of the guardians. And it's not even day which is when Moroi and Damphirs sleep, it's still night.

But tonight there is no one. It's too silent and I wonder if no one else hears the sound. Disturb by the sound I put on my shoes and walked out of my room.

I notice as I walk by the hallway that there is no one insight. The sound of my footsteps echo in the long hallway.

I clutched the silver stake that is hidden inside my jacket.

The cold icy wind hits me as soon as I open the door. I step out and stand outside. I no longer hear a sound, it's silent, way too silent.

Something moves in the darkness and I try to make sense if what is happening.

It's coming towards me what ever it is, I can feel it. I stagger back, my heart is racing with fear.

The wings flap as it lands down, my eyes are wide with fear. I want to scream but I feel frozen, no sound comes off my mouth. The sound of my heart beating really fast, it's the only sound I can hear.

His red eyes stared at me with a knowing look.

It moves forward, I step back.

Soon, you'll fade soon.

He doesn't speak no words. Yet in my mind they are like thousands bells with a never ending resound.

Time seems to have stop, I Shake my head in horror.

Shatter, your soul will shatter.

It flies down towards me. That's when I begin to scream.

So how was it? Good or bad?

What do you think is happening to Rose?

Don't forget to review^^