I couldn't belive it.

I wouldn't believe it.

I chose not to.

But deep inside...

I knew it to be true.

So horribly true it was. Every day I waited by my window. Every day I watched, I cried, I hurt. But every day... all of it was in vain.

I don't know how long it has been, but to me, it has seemed like an eternity. It's unbearable. It's painful. It's... sickening. My Ciel had left me, with that damned pitch-black butler. He has not returned since. I've not seen a sign of him.

Many around the city have heard of Ciel's death. They all think he has died. Some even recieved cards dated with his death. But I know. I knew all to well that he was still alive. Nothing in the world could change my mind about that.

I thought to myself. Recalling the day that he had left me, in my mind.

~Flashback~

"Ciel.. b- but you don't have to leave! Why won't you tell me what's wrong?" I said with tears running down my face. Stinging my cheeks in salty streaks of pain. I didn't know why he was doing this, and he wouldn't tell me. And through it all I could see his butler just watching the scene play out. Watching like he had already known what was going to happen. Like he had already knew Ciel had to leave me. And he knew why. But niether would give me an answer. Not even his servants.

Ciel had started walking out the door but stopped when he heard me crying. He turned around slowly. He had a strange vibe about him. Almost like he didn't want this, like he was trapped inside himself. Like he wasn't there anymore. But deep inside I knew he was still my Ciel, and I would find a way to make him show it. He walked towards me sluggishly. It felt like time ticked by even slower. He stopped when he was almost a foot away from me. I could see the anger spreading across his face. He looked up at me with his good eye, the only one I ever saw.

"Elizabeth. I am leaving and I am not coming back. You will not follow me. You will not wait for me to return. You will move on with your life, and you will marry another man. And you will be happy. Is that understood?" He said this with clenched fists. He was shaking all over. He seemed as if he was holding back. Of what I don't know.. but all I know is that it scared me. And I didn't like it one bit.

"But C-Ciel~?" I tried to say before he could leave me. Choking on my own tears. My throat burned and my heart ached, but still I tried to reach him. I tried to release him from whatever posessed him. But it was no use. I fell to my knees and sat there. I stared at the floor as he walked away, out the door and to his carrige which would take him somewhere I would never see. Somewhere I would never know. Somewhere I would never even dream of.

He didn't even tell me he loved me. He didn't even say goodbye.

I stayed there, kneeling on the Phantomhive manor's floor for what seemed like a lifetime. I could feel the hatred welling up inside of me. I didn't know what I hated more, Ciel.. or that damned butler of his. Finally my tears slowed, along with my breathing. I was still shaking everywhere. My stomach felt like it had been thrown out a window and into a tornado and back again. I tried standing for the first time since he left me. Slowly, ever so slowly, I rose. My knees were weak, my ankles and toes were numb. I tried reaching out to steady myself onto anything I could grasp, but before I was able to even move my arm I fell to the ground once more. Causing a large thud to echo around the manor. I decided I would stay there until moring as I curled myself into a ball and cried myself to sleep.

~End Of Flashback~

I stayed sitting on the edge of my bed as recalled all of the moments I had spent with Ciel, and how I'd never spend another with him again. I felt a tear slip down my cheek, falling onto my hand. All I ever wanted was to grow up and be a good wife for Ciel. I wanted us to have two children, one boy, and one girl. I would've tried to be the best mother in the world. I would've stayed up late taking care of our children as Ciel worked. I would put them to bed whenever was neccesary. Then I would've tried comforting Ciel, asking him how his day went and how things were going with the company. Of course he would've just said: "terrible" and then put his head down on his desk. Refusing to answer anymore questions. Then we would go to sleep, and start the same thing over again the morining after. And I would've been fine with that. I woul've been more than fine with that. I would have cherished every moment of it. That was all I ever wanted.

But no. It could never happen that way. Not because of Ciel; not because of me; not because of my parents. Not even the queen could've stopped us. I wouldn't have let her. But no. It was that damned butler's fault. I blamed him for all this and I always would. He took away my friend. He took away my happiness. He took away my love; my life; my Ciel.

He took away the only thing that made my life worth living to me.

I'll be damned if I let him get away with it.

So? Did you guys like it? I'm also going to post this on my deviantart as well. Just ask for my username in a message if you want to find it on there. This is the first chaptre so I didn't have much to go off of. I promise the next one will be longer. If you have any ideas you would like to add to the story please tell me! :D I would love to hear them~ :3 Thankies~ 3