A/N: What it doooooo home skillets! G1 here, driving this muthafuckin rocket and its about to go DOWN!

Hehe, so basically I've been working on this for a while and it is my personal baby so be gentle with he/she (i don't know what the fuck it is), it is very sensitive. I told it to stop being such a punk bitch but this fucker has a mind of its own, real shit. This is kinda of a song fic to express my love of music through a story cause every time I hear a song and love it, the lyrics sing to me and I form a mini story in my head. I might as well share some, right? Goodness knows G2 is sick of hearing my mini-song-movie-story-thingys. So if your not into the song fic thing, this story may not be for you. cause i can guran-fucking-tee this story will be full of music. Imma HUGE Taylor Swift Fan (Tay Tay) btw, so that might be most of what Bella sings because her songs are just so striaght forward and honest. I effing love her! But anyhoos, I hope you like it.

P.S: KEEP IN MIND READERS, THE CHAPTERS ARE NAMED AFTER SONGS PERTAINING SOME WHAT TO THE CHAPTER. SO UNLESS YOU KNOW THE SONG, DON'T TAKE THE TITLES TOO LITERAL.

CH 1: Jump Then Fall

BPOV

"I know you're going to do great B-dog. You have a great singing voice. You're going to win this for sure. And if you don't, I'll beat anyone's ass who does." He said it playfully, but I could hear the menace behind his words.

"Sure I will." I laughed. Edward was always there to make me feel better. Like right now. He knew how nervous I was.

He was always there for me. I knew if I asked him for anything he would do it. We have been best friends since second grade. Even with my newly acquired feelings I knew we would still be.

Until he finds out about them, that is. My conscience said.

Shut up stupid.

I know you are but what am I?

"Yes, you will. Just don't…." Edward spoke. I watched the way his mouthed moved, not really listening to what he was saying. I can ever keep my focus when he's talking to me anymore. I hear the words but all I can think is…

We should be together.

Yeah.

I could watch him talk all day and he wouldn't notice.

"Bella. Earth to Bella." Edward said waving his hand in front of my face, bringing me back from La La Land.

"Huh? What?"

"Didn't you hear me? I said try to not fall. I wouldn't want to lose you to public embarrassment." He said teasingly. I punched his arm.

"Ow. What are you? The Hulk?" He rubbed his arm.

"Don't make fun of me."

He smiled. I love his smile. Every time he smiles, I smile.

"Whatever." Some of his hair fell in his face. I brushed it away.

"I like the way you hair falls in your face." Did I just say that out loud?

Yep.

Shit.

I moved my hand as fast as I could from his face. I bent my head down and looked at the floor trying to hide to the massive blush that spread across my face.

I felt his hand on cheek and lifted my head up. "I like the way you blush."

If it was possible I blushed harder.

"Edward! You not supposed to be back here!" A shrilling voice said. Edward dropped his hand. I frowned.

"I was just leaving Alice." He said glumly and rolled his. I giggled.

"Sure you were." She rolled her eyes. "Come on. Bella needs to prepare." She ordered with here hands on her hips.

"Fine. See you B." He kissed me on the cheek and turned around to leave. I'm sure I looked like a tomato.

"I'll escort you out." Alice walked with him. But not before turning around to wink at me.

Why did I listen to Alice?

Cause you love him.

Not good enough! Maybe I could sneak out. I wonder where the exit is…

"Stop it." Alice said, back already.

I looked down at the conspirator of this whole scheme. "What are you talking about?" I tried to play it off. I knew it was a waste though. She could always see through me.

"You know exactly what I'm talking about. Stop trying to look for ways to escape and get ready. You're almost up. You got this. I know you do." She looked at me encouragingly through her gray eyes.

I took a shaky breath and nodded. I still wasn't too concrete about this whole situation though.

"I'll go get Jasper to see if he can calm you down." She walked off to find her boyfriend. She thinks just because he took AP psychology last year he's some sansei of talk therapy. Wrong. I took AP U.S. history last year and I swear I couldn't tell you who the 42nd president was.

Who knew this would ever happen to me? Why didn't anyone ever say " One day you're going to fall in love with your best friend, so watch out." Why the hell couldn't there be a warning telling you who you would fall in love with? I wish there was. Then I wouldn't be about to pour my heart out in a song to hundreds of people at my school's talent show. Including the persons it's for.

Edward.

The most popular, hottest, athletic, sweetest, perfect guy in Forks. And my best friend. It's not like I've been in love with him forever. Just since last summer.

We went backpacking in Europe for summer vacation before our senior year, just me and him. Of course, with adult supervision. But it felt like just the two of us because Emmett, Edwards older brother, wasn't much of an adult anyway. Even at 22.

That whole summer changed the way I looked at him. The way he smiled, laughed, ate, smelled...

He wasn't just the boy next door who had always been there for me. He wasn't just somebody I could tell everything to for as long as I could remember. The person who fought for me when people picked on me in the fifth grade. Or was my shoulder to cry on when my first boyfriend broke up with me at my 14th birthday party.

The smallest things about him drive me crazy.

I love the way he sounds in the morning when he wakes up and I'm the one he calls. His laugh is the best sound I've ever heard. And he knows none of this.

And that brings me back to now. Back stage in Forks high school's auditorium., registered in the annual Winter Wonderland talent show for right before winter break, about to go on stage and tell him. Thinking about it now makes me want to run for it.

Stop it. My conscience scolded me.

Fine.

I looked out into the audience to see where he was. I spotted him in the front row. Next to him was Emmett and his girlfriend Rosalie. On the other side was a empty seat which must be Jasper's. Carlisle and Esme, his parents and my god parents, were behind him. Next to them was my dad, Charlie. Edward spotted me and flashed his beautiful crooked smile. I grimaced and stepped back.

"Fuck." I breathed and fell against the wall with my guitar. I took slow breathes and put my head between my knees to prevent hyperventilating.

"Bella!" I heard Alice yell over all the chaos backstage. I lifted my head slowly as her and Jasper came into view.

Jasper knelt in front of me and put his hands on my knees. "Damn girl, you're paler than pale." Alice hit him in the head.

"Ow. Violent much?" he said rubbing his head. Alice might be small but her hit was hell.

"You're not helping." She replied.

"Oh right. Well, look at the bright side B. You still have two more acts before you go on. Just don't trip. That would look really bad." He grinned. I glared.

"Your still not helping dumb ass." Alice said. He shrugged and kiss me on the forehead before standing.

"Don't worry Bella, you'll do great. If he doesn't figure it out after this, then he truly is an idiot and doesn't deserve you."

I gave him a small smile. "Thanks Jazz. You always know what to say…sometimes."

"Any time. Well, I should get back before the person in questioning thinks something's wrong. That wouldn't really help either." I cringed at the thought.

Alice hit him again. "And you always know how to ruin it too." He kissed her on the cheek while rubbing his head and left. Alice sat down beside me.

"I forgot he knew." I said sadly. It wasn't a secret anymore when Emmett found out. That was like me saying it to the world. I'm surprised Edward still didn't know.

"Who doesn't?" Alice asked rhetorically. I gave her a look.

"Are you trying to help? Because you suck at it worse than Jasper." I accused.

"Nope. I'm just stating the truth. Everyone does know." I rolled my eyes.

"No shit." I sighed.

"The only one who doesn't is Edward, but…" She stopped her self from saying the rest of her sentence.

"But what?" She didn't answer.

"Alice." She huffed.

"Look. Do you think I would make you go out there if I didn't think there was hope that he felt the same way?" She said.

I blanched.

"What? What are you talking about? What are you saying? That Edward feels something too. Huh? Alice? Is that what your saying? Is that what you're trying to get me to believe? Cause' if you are than that's a really cruel fucking-"

"Bella! Bella, calm down. And this is not a joke. See. This is why I didn't want to say any thing to you. I knew you wouldn't believe me. Plus I promised. It's not my place to tell you. But I will say this…there are just some things you don't know."

"What the hell does that mean? Who did you promise? What don't I know?" I asked desperately. I had a felling who she was talking about though. A very bad sick-in-the-pit-of-my-stomach feeling.

She pretended to seal her lips and throw away the key. "My lips are sealed. Now come on. I need to re-do your make up. Just put what I just said as far in the back of you head as possible. You need to concentrate." How the hell did she expect me to do that with this new information?

I huffed. "Fine." I let it go for now. I knew she wasn't going to break. But after the show I was getting answers. From her and Edward. I don't care how all this turns out, some one was going to talk.

"Come on sweetie." She helped me up.

"Well that was Mike, Tyler, and Eric with "Can't Touch This." A very creative piece. Next we have Ben Cheney and Angela Weber with…the salsa!" The announcer said.

Mike, Tyler, and Eric walked passed me. Tyler smiled, Eric gave me a thumbs up, and Mike…

Mike was bold.

He walked over to me and didn't stop until he was in my ear. " Break a leg babe. I'll be watching." He said in a slurry voice. I guess he was trying to sound sexy but it just sounded weird. I looked him straight in the eye, angry that he was even in my presence.

"I m going to give you one more warning. But if you come near me one more time I will not stop Edward from breaking your face this time." you could tell by his face he remembered exactly what I was talking bought, but he hid it pretty well. He gave me a once over that made me feel dirty and walked away. Asshole.

"Well, it looks like someone's not so nervous anymore." She smirked.

"I can't help it. He really pisses me off…And thanks for reminding me." I said mockingly. She shrugged.

"Lets give them a round of applause! Wasn't that amazing? Now we have Lauren Calve, Jessica Stanley, and Tanya Denali singing "Don't cha!"

The music started and my stomach began to hurt. Tanya. I hated her.

Edward's ex. And everything I'm not. Blonde, tall, beautiful. They were the perfect couple. Yes, I did say were, as in past-tense.

Because he dumped her. To make the long story short. She cheated.

How anyone could ever cheat on someone like Edward was astonishing to me. That night was really hard for him though. After arguing on the phone with Tanya for an hour he came to my house. That was the angriest I had ever seen him. Edward's not usually a violent person but that night he was punching some walls. I held him all night until he calmed down. He didn't cry at all, but I knew he wanted to. He was so angry.

When someone you care about hurts you, that's what you need to do to let out. He didn't though. But in the morning when we woke up he gave me the most beautiful breathtaking smile that said 'Thank you' without words. All I did was be there when he needed me. Yet I got the best reward ever. I just did what he did for me when James hurt me.

I caught him when he fell.

I also did the other thing he did to James. I beat the shit out of Tanya's slutty ass. That whole week was really bad for him though. At school people were spreading rumors that brought him to his knees, but I always caught him.

She has been trying to get back with him ever since. Its been three months of non stop calls and unexpected visits. Once she even showed up in nothing but a trench coat. But fortunately Edward wasn't home. Man did she get an ear full from Esme though.

Pathetic bitch.

I went to look at their performance from back stage. They were all wearing short-shorts with their asses hanging out, tank tops that weren't covering shit, and heels I would die in.

I looked down at my clothing. I had on black skinny jeans, a dark blue V-neck with a white and gray striped cardigan over it, and silver pumps. My hair was curled and I had a bit of make up on but nothing special.

That's all I was. Nothing special. So why in the hell would someone like Edward who could have anyone he wanted, young to old, want someone as plain as me when he could have someone as perfect as Tanya?

Because he doesn't want someone like that. Stop doubting yourself. I bet you he feels the same way about you that you do him.

Why would you speak such blasphemy? Go away!

You're retarded.

I ignored that little voice in my head and leaned out a little to see Edward. His jaw was basically on the floor. His eyes, along with most of the men in the room, and some women, glued on Tanya and her posse of sluts shaking all there body parts in the air. I shook my head and stepped back.

"Your doing it again." Alice scolded me coming out of no where. I gave her the same panicked look I'd worn all night.

"Alice, what if he doesn't like me like it? What if he just wants to stay friends? Or worse, what if this ruins our friendship? I'm not Tanya or someone remotely close. I cant-" My voice broke. I took a deep breath and continued. "I wouldn't be able to live, Alice I need him in my life. Even if it not the way I prefer I just-" My voice caught in my throat. I was on the verge of tears.

Alice took my face in her hands and stared me in the eyes. "Stop. Breathe. Relax. What did I say before? I wouldn't make you do this if I didn't have hope. I feel it. This is not going to turn out bad. Edward loves you and always will .And who the fuck wants to be Tanya? I should wash your mouth out with soap for speaking such dirty words." I giggled even though I knew she was dead serious. " And even if doesn't work out the way we want it, you will live, and we'll get through it together. So stop being stupid cause' you're next."

I nodded and took a deep breath. She handed my guitar. "Bella, this is not a sad song so turn that frown upside down and get in the mood."

I smiled. " That's so corny. Couldn't come up with any thing better, huh?"

"Nope, but it got a smile out of your face." She said smugly.

"True."

"And that was….Nice. Very nice Ladies." The announcer said breaking out of his slut-induced trance as they walked off stage.

Tanya walked off last, and just like Mike, she was bold. What is wrong with people these days? She stopped in front of me. I gave her the most disgusted look I could muster.

"Beat that, Tramp." even though she was beautiful, her attitude made her hideous. It helped me see who she really was. Her whole appearance was so pathetic looking, all I could do was laugh at her. She narrowed her eyes at me.

I stepped to her until I was in her face. "Oh I will, skank…I will." I said arrogantly.

She looked at me up and down then flipped her hair and walked off. It hit me in the face. I was about to go put my foot up her ass when Alice grabbed my arm.

"Now we have our final act, Isabella Swan. Lets give her a round of applause!" I stiffened.

Alice smiled and clapped. "Go.' She mouthed.

Some I got my feet to move and made my way on stage. I could barley see the audience because of the blinding lights. But knowing they could see me, I smiled the best I could. The butterflies in my stomach were making that damn near impossible.

I made it to the stool on stage and sat down positioning my guitar on my lap. The room got quiet. I guess that's my cue.

I brought my mouth to the mic. "Uh, hi. I'm Bella and this is a song I wrote for a very special person in my life. I hope he appreciates it." As my eyes began to adjust to the light I could see the first few rows. My eyes locked with Edward's beautiful green eyes and I saw some curiosity in them, but what also looked like disappointment.

Whatever. I began to play the guitar and sang to Edward. Letting him know it was for him. I hope he understands.

I like the way you sound in the morning.

We're on the phone and without a warning.

I realize your laugh is the best sound

I have ever heard.

I like the way I can keep my focus.

I watch you talk, you didn't notice.

I hear the words but all I can think is

We should be together

Every time you smile, I smile.

And every time you shine, I'll shine for you.

Whoa oh, I'm feeling you baby.

Don't be afraid to

Jump then fall.

Jump then fall into me

Be there, never gonna leave you.

Say that you wanna be with me too.

So I'ma stay through it all.

So jump then fall.

Edward stared at me wide eyed and slack-jaw as I got in to the chorus. I guess he figured out it's about him. I couldn't help but smile. He was so cute. These lyrics were right from my heart. As I stared back in to Edwards wide eyes it felt as if I was only singing to him. Like we were the only people in the room.

I like the way your hair falls in your face.

You got the keys to me.

I love each freckle on your face, oh.

I've never been so wrapped up, honey.

I like the way you're everything I ever wanted.

I had time to think it oh, over.

And all I can say is come closer.

Take a deep breath then jump then fall into me.

Cause every time you smile, I smile

Cause every time you shine, I'll shine for you.

Whoa oh, I'm feeling you baby.

Don't be afraid to

Jump then fall.

Jump then fall into me.

Be there, never gonna leave you.

Say that you wanna be with me too.

So I'ma stay through it all.

So jump then fall.

Edward's shocked eyes turned from shock, to understanding, to anger. I didn't understand it. I closed my eyes to break his stare and tried to keep my face composed as I sang the next verse.

The bottom's gonna drop out from under our feet.

I'll catch you, I'll catch you.

And people say things that bring you to your knees.

I'll catch you.

The time's gonna come when you're so mad you could cry.

But I'll hold you through the night until you smile.

When I open my eyes he wasn't there. I looked to Emmett and he shrugged. He looked as worried as I felt.

This can't be good.

Whoa oh, I'm need you baby.

Don't be afraid, please

Jump then fall.

Jump then fall, into me.

Be there, never gonna leave you.

Say that you wanna be with me too.

So I'ma stay through it all.

So jump then fall.

Jump then fall baby.

Jump then fall

Into me, into me.

Every time you smile, I smile.

And every time you shine, I'll shine.

And every time you're here.

Baby I'll show you, I'll show you.

You can

Jump then fall, jump then fall

Jump then fall into me, into me

Yeah

When I finished the song the crowd stood up and gave me a standing ovation. I gave them a fake wide smile, trying not to think about what just happened. Alice came running on stage and me to give vice tight hug. Strong-ass pixie. I heard whistles and yells of appraisement. I waved. The announcer walked on stage as I walked off.

"Well wasn't that fantastic! Best act I've seen all night!" The crowd erupted into another applause. "Alright. That was the end of our show and now it's time for our judges to deliberate so we can find who the winners are."

"Bella! That was amazing! I knew you would do great." Alice chimed once we were back stage.

"Yeah. Great." I said glumly. It wasn't so great with the way I felt.

Alice gave me a confused looked that turned to worry. "What-" she was cut off by my dad.

"Bells! That was great." He said giving me an awkward hug and handing me flowers. I could see the indecision in his eyes when he pulled back. He knew what happened and didn't know what to say.

"Thanks dad." I smiled at him, pleading with my eyes for him to drop it. Then I felt arms wrap around me.

"That was wonderful sweetie." Esme murmured in my ear giving me a hug too.

"Thanx…At least someone thinks so." I said only to her.

She gave me a sad look and rubbed my back. "Oh honey. He'll come around."

"Sure."

Carlisle came into view and hugged me. "Marvelous." I looked into his eyes and saw nothing but wisdom. "I know my son. He's not stupid." I nodded. But I am.

Emmett and Rosalie gave me sad smiles but kept their distance. Knowing all to well I wasn't in the mood. After all the congrats and compliments it got kind of awkward. Because everyone knew who I really wanted to talk to at the moment.

"Um. I'm going to go get my things." I wanted to get away from all the looks of pity. I didn't want pity. I didn't want anything.

I walked down the hall to the dressing rooms then was suddenly grabbed from behind. I opened my mouth to scream but a hand covered it. I calmed down when I recognized the scent of the person. Man and mint.

Edward.

He pulled me into the prop room across the hall from the dressing room. He let me go and closed the door. It was pitch black and I couldn't see him. I could sure feel him though. This wasn't a very big room. I found the light stringy-thing hanging from the ceiling, or whatever the hell it was, and turned the light on.

His expression was livid. He had his arms crossed chest and you could tell he was tense. I mentally cringed. This was not how I imagined it. It was quiet for a few minutes until I spoke.

"Um, so…did you like the song?" I asked timidly. I don't know why I asked that. I was terrified of his answer. It was obvious that he hadn't.

He continued to glare for a few seconds then…then he laughed. He fucking laughed.

I was hella confused for a minute, not knowing what could be so fucking funny, then my temper began to flare. And let me tell you, my temper can be deadly. I just poured out my heart to this jackass to have him run out. Then to top it off, he throws me into a got damn closet and laughs in my face!

Oh hell naw!

I was so angry I couldn't think. I knew if I got any worse and angry tears fell, all hell would break lose. I had to get out. I moved for the door to leave but he blocked it with his body.

"Move." I said as calmly as I could. He knew not to fuck with me when I was angry. I wouldn't be in charge of my actions.

"No." was all he said and stared at me.

"Move Edward." I spoke though my teeth. "If you're not going to talk, then let me go. I don't have time for this. The announcer-" He put his hand over my mouth. I didn't have it in me to be angry any more. His stare broke me. I was about to start pleading. So not me. He removed his hand and opened his mouth to speak but nothing came out. He let out a frustrated sigh and put his hands through his hair and averted hi gaze to the floor.

"How long?" I knew what he was asking. I just didn't want to answer. But I did.

"Six months." I whispered.

He raised his head and it looked like he was calculating something. "This past summer." He stated. I nodded and looked down at my hands, shuffling them together.

"What do you want from me Bella?" He pleaded.

What? Who the fuck did he think I was? Some pathetic little girl. Talking about what I wanted from him. I raised my head to tell him who the fuck he was talking to, but he spoke again.

"I mean, what do you expect me to do? Fall into your arms?" He shook his head as if he was trying to find words. I glared. I didn't want to hear anymore.

"Look-" I started to say but he cut me off. Again. That was getting real old, real fast.

"No, you look." He said, his tone sharper. I was about to go off, nobody talked to me like that. I swear I was two seconds from punching him in his pretty face. He sighed and let go of his hair.

"I'm sorry. This isn't coming out right." He murmured more to himself than me, frustrated. Too bad for him. But really, at the moment I didn't give fuck how he felt.

"Sure in the hell isn't." I retorted and crossed my arms to stop myself from attacking him. Edward should really know better that to piss me off, it never ends well.

"Look Bella…It's just that…" Spit it out. "I feel the same way." He finally said.

"Well you can kiss-" I stopped. My eyes widened and I stared in shock at the realization of what he just said hit me like a ton of bricks, my anger forgotten. "What?" I whispered.

"I feel the same way." He said slowly. My arms fell limply to my side and I let out a breath, trying to find my voice.

"This changes things." I was all ready to tell him I didn't need him and give him a broken nose, then he goes and says the one thing I hoped he would. He took a step toward me and gently grabbed my face in his hands. He was so close I could feel his hot breath on my face. My eyes hooded. I snapped out of it and as his green eyes bore into mine; I saw nothing but sincerity as he spoke.

"Yeah, well, when I realized the song was about me I didn't think I heard you right. But I saw it in your eyes and it hit me. She loves me too. The one thing I've been wanting for months. I never in a thousand years thought you would feel the same way. That you saw me like that. I thought I would have to convince you. I thought I would have more time…"

This confused me. "More time? More time for…" He dropped his hands from my face and stepped back.

"I'm not ready." He whispered and looked down.

It took me a minute to get what he meant by that but then I understood. It felt as if I got the air knocked out of me. Like the rug just got pulled from under my feet and I was about to fall. But some how I held my ground.

"Okay. I see." He looked up. Whatever he saw on my face had him back tracking.

"No. No Bella. I m not saying I never want to be with you. I just-" He broke off and ran his hand through his hair. " I can't…I don't think I deserve you right now."

I was flabbergasted.

"What the fuck do you mean you don't deserve me right now?" I spoke with as much acid in my voice as I could produce. He looked a little uneasy. Good.

"I mean…I mean that I'm not good enough for you right -" I cut him up off by cracking up. I was laughing so hard tears were coming out of my eyes. He looked at me like I should be committed. But fuck it, I was way passed making sense of my emotions.

"That's a new one." I continued laughing until I got it all out. I sometimes laugh in very un-funny situations, and I don't know why. Maybe my mind thinks its better that me being enraged or hurt, but hey, when life throws you lemons you make beef stew, right? That probably made no fucking sense at all, but what about this scenario does? Especially with this load of shit he was trying to sell me. I took a deep breath and tried to be serious. But the crap he was giving me made it was pretty hard.

"Bella…are you…okay?" he asked hesitantly.

I looked him dead in the eye and cocked my head. There was something there he didn't want me to see but I saw through it like a transparent book. I knew the real reason. "Oh, I'm more than okay. I'm not buying any of that bullshit. I see clearly now. I see what you really are. You're a coward. Your scared. Your afraid."

I knew the real reason. He was scared I would do to him what Tanya did. I told you he had trust issues. But this was me, the girl he'd known most of his fucking life. And I thought he knew me better. And the fact that he would think I would hurt him hurt me so much that I had to find a way to make him feel my pain. And his weak spot was his ego. I knew how to hit below the belt.

"What the fuck am I afraid of!" He exploded.

"Your afraid I'm gonna hurt you like Tanya! Your scared I'm gonna want something else!"

"Bella-" I cut him off.

"Don't Bella me! Is that what you think of me! Huh? Is that what you think I'd do to you! Cause if you do than I don't know you at all. You don't know me at all! You're not the Edward I fell I love with. I don't know who the fuck this person is, but it's not my best friend." I whispered. He flinched. I could tell my words stung worse than any physical pain I could give him because I was right.

"Bells-" I cut him off again. He wasn't liking that too much. Too bad.

"Don't! Just don't." I took a breath. "You know what? I do know who you are." what I was about to say would be the icing on the cake, "You're. A Little. Bitch." His face tuned apple red and his fist balled up.

We stood there glaring at each other both trying to catch our breath from shouting. After what seemed like forever he dropped his gaze from our staring match and untensed. When he looked back up his face was totally emotionless. Him voice clipped and guarded.

"I'm a little bitch, huh? Well, I'm not the one who keep a secret of loving someone then sings a song to this person and expects them to "Jump then fall into them". He even used the little quotation marks.

I was floored. I didn't think he had it in him. Edward had never said anything to hurt me. But we also have never had a fight like this. He smirked. I wanted to bitch slap that shit off his face so bad…but I did better. I smirked back. Then giggled.

"That might be true…but you're still a little bitch." He narrowed his eyes at me, mad that his verbal abuse had failed. It did sting, but I wasn't going to let him see that.

"My I have all the contestants come to the stage please." The announcer called. It seemed to bring us both back to reality. I stepped back from him.

"I gotta go. Bye, for good." I made my way for the door and he moved this time. When I walked outside all of my family fell into the small room.

"WTF?' I muttered trying to get my feet from under Emmett.

"Sorry Bella. But you didn't think we were going to miss this." Jasper was trying to get up.

"May I have all the contestants please." the announcer called again.

"I have to go." I said as I made my way to the stage.

"I'll come with you." Alice added.

"Dude, you dropped something." I heard Emmett mutter as I walked down the hall.

"What?" Douchward asked.

"Yo face!" Emmett boomed. I laughed, and so did Alice as we got to the stage.

I made my way to the stage in a daze running over what just happen. The announcer was revealing the winners and I tried to concentrate but couldn't. All I could think was about what he said. "I don't deserve you right now." What a load of shit.

I shook the thoughts out of my head for the time being and focused. Jacob won 3rd place for his karate skills. Angela and Ben got 2nd for their salsa dance. Tanya and her gang got 1st and I almost gagged. We still had the grand prize to go so they had this big producer guy come up to the stage to present it. He was the one who was going to be setting the winner up with some big deal that dealt with their talent.

I stood there, sort of numb, willing the pain that threatened to elope me go away as I listened to Aro Volturi state how he felt all the acts were great and how he was sad for there to be only one winner.

Blah, blah, fucking blah. I know I didn't win so just get on with it.

"…and the grand prize goes to…Isabella Swan!" he said.

What the fuck did he just say?

"Bella?" Alice whispered.

"Yeah?"

"I think you just won."

"No."

"Yes."

"No."

"Yes!" she screamed. She pushed me to Aro while the whole auditorium was clapping.

Aro was kind of freaky looking close up, but had a kind smile. "Congratulations Miss Swan."

"Thanks." I murmured, not totally sure this wasn't a dream. I wasn't totally enthused as everyone else seemed to be though. He handed me a trophy, a check of a hundred dollars, and a certificate that read "Volturi Records."

"Is there anything you would like to share?" He asked holding out the mike to me. I shook my head to clear it and took the mike.

I spoke to the crowd. "Um, when I entered the show I had no intention of winning anything, let alone the grand prize. But here I am, and I have to say, wow. Um yeah…" I handed Aro the mike as people clapped as I walked off stage to my family. Edward was there but I tired to pretend he wasn't. If I looked at him I was sure I would cry. Him not trusting me cut me to the core.

"Omg! Omg! Omg! You won. Ahh! This is amazing. You rock!" Alice screeched and hugged me. Everyone gave me their praise, and made there ways to their cars. We were all going out to dinner. Edward hung back with an ashamed look on his face. I felt sad. I felt mad. I felt broken.

How could so little be so much and make everything seemed so fucked? This just wasn't perfect without him. He had been my best friend for so long, he was my family, but in a un-perverted way. He was my other halve and I felt not only sad of potentially losing his friendship, I felt lost. He was the other halve to my whole. I could probably live without us together how I want, but he needs to be in my life. But, on request of Alice and the looks of worry from my family, I tried put it out of my mind for the rest of the night.

Before I left I talked to Aro and he told me what was going to happen. He said that if I wanted to, that in two weeks his label was having a charity concert with some of the artist from his label and I could be a part of it. He informed me that some big wigs from the label were going to be there and if I was serious about this whole thing and performed well, I would no doubt be signed. It was a lot to take in, especially after this day, but I told him I would think about it. He gave me his card and a week to make a decision, then left.

I rode with Alice to the restaurant though I had ridden with Edward here, and told her about all that Aro had offered. She almost crashed and threatened to kill me if I didn't take the deal. Then I told the rest of the family at dinner, sans Edward, and they all encouraged me to follow my heart.

But the thing was, my heart was pulling towards the boy that hurt me just a few hours before, and I didn't know what to make of it. Alice told me to put it in a song to use in the concert. She said that this could be an inspirational experience for me. Writing songs is what I tend to do when dealing with delicate, difficult situations, so that's what I began when I got home that night. But overall, I would give it a few days.

I didn't have to make a definite decision now, and I wasn't ready. I wasn't ready to faced my feelings on the Edward situation yet and that's bound to fuck with me. I didn't really feel anything right now, but we'll see how it goes, and what he does. We'll see.

In the mean time, I have a song to write.

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Just to let you know this will not be a long fic, so hopefully i finish it pretty quickly. I already have chapter 2 & 3 done, but I will post those when I get a encouraging amount of reviews. Feedback makes me want to write. No feedback makes me think I am a failure in life and I should shoot my self in the face...JUST KIDDING! I wouldnt go that far, but it would make me sad. So review!

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