Best Secret I've Ever Kept.

A Holby City Fanfiction

Written By: AutumnMalarkey

Maddy Young had never wanted to become a mum. To be honest, she'd never really thought about it. I mean, of course she had considered it, but she'd just shrug it off and say, "Well, I don't need to worry right now." But everything was soon to change...

December 24th 2009.

Holby City buzzed with people. Christmas music played quietly in the background to give all the patients, doctors and visitors a 'christmas-y feeling.'

Maddy Young walked into one of her many patient's' room. She smiled warmly, "Well, I see we are feeling more 'christmas-y' Maisie." She laughed.

Maisie looked up, her pale skin looked even more drained than the white, musty walls surrounding her. "Yeah." She weakly smiled at her.

Maddy sighed, she walked over to the side desk by Maisie's bed, where her family had obviously placed christmas things. She picked up a santa's hat and put it on Maisie's head, "cheer up, sunshine. If you carry on doing as well as you're doing, you might be home in time for the new year."

Maisie forced a smile at the doctor's efforts.

Maddy sat down on the end of the girl's bed, trying to be comforting yet feeling totally exhausted. I mean, who wouldn't when your eight and a half months pregnant?! She smiled, slowly at Maisie, "Just think, new year, new you..."

Maisie looked up at her, hatefully, "It may be a new year, but I'll always be the same old, fat, cow I have always been!"

Maddy sighed, "Mae, we've been over this..."

"Well obviously not enough!"

"Please Maisie. Do you want to speak to our dietician again? Would that help?"

"No! I just wanna' get out of this hell hole!"

Maddy laughs, "if you keep having an attitude like that, you'll never get to leave."

Maisie sighs and looks sadly at Maddy.

Maddy gives her a smile, "Hey, don't worry. You will be fine, I'll make sure of it..."

"Really?"

Maddy goes to reply, "Of cou-" She suddenly takes a deep breath as a strong pain shoots through her stomach. "I'm... Just going to get your pills..."

Before Maisie can reply, she walks out of the room as fast as she can.

"Woah!" Maddy bumps into Donna, making her drop all of her paperwork, "Where's the fire?!"

Maddy bends down to help her pick the stuff up, only to stop halfway down, wincing with another pain. "Aaah!" She clutches her stomach.

"Madz?" Donna jumps to help her to a seat, "Madz, what's wrong?!"

Maddy shakes her head, looking sweaty, pale and out of breath, "Nothing."

Donna gives her a look of disbelief, "I know nothing when I see it, and this deffinatly isn't nothing!"

Maddy sighs, finally feeling better, "Really, it's fine, just that time of the month. I guess the pains are just bad this time." She flashes Donna a false smile.

Donna looks worridly at her, not believing her lies, "Sure..." She sighs, wanting Maddy to tell her the truth, "Madz?"

Maddy looks at her, "yeah?"

"You know you can talk to me about anything, right?"

Maddy nods, "I know." She starts to grit her teeth and breath deeply through another pain, "I have to go, I have patients to check you know..." She walks off again, towards the staffroom.

Donna watches after her sadly.

Maddy peares through the glass on the door, looking to see if anyone was there. She smiled slightly seeing no one. Pacing herself, she walked into the room, looking around frantically. A wave of sickness came over her, "Oh God." She ran towards the sink and threw up all of her breakfast, lunch and last night's dinner. Groaning, Maddy leant over the sink, her vomiting continuing. Once her 'spell' had finally finished, Maddy heaved herself back into a proper standing position, "Oh God, please not now..." She hunched over in pain again, "Aaah!" Her breathing escalated, faster and faster. Maddy slowly stood back up, properly, again. The pain finally subsiding. One hand placed under her large stomach for support, the other on her sweaty forehead, Maddy paced backwards and forwards. "Right, if I leave now, I can make it to the other hospital..." Maddy sighed, "Or maybe I should just go up to maternity here, now..." She shook her head, "No, I have time, plenty of it, I mean my waters haven't even broken yet." Maddy sighed, "No, I'll have to finish my shift..." Maddy slowly walked towards the door.

Before she could even reach the handle, the door flung open, "Merry Christmas!" Donna and Maria happily chorused. Maddy sighed and forced a smile, how could she have not realised it had turned 12 o'clock?

"You okay Madz? You look really pale..." Maria looked worriedly at her friend.
"Yeah, course I am, but I really should be getting back to work, merry christmas." Maddy tried to leave the room her path being blocked by the two nurses.

"No, Maddy, you look awful." Maria tried again.

"Thanks!" Maddy half shouted at her. Partially mad. She started to take breaths again, the familiar pain returning.

"Maddy?" Donna walked further into the room.

Maddy snapped her head up, about to tell her that she was fine, "Aaah!" She clutched over in pain again.

Maria and Donna jumped forward, one at each side of her, supporting her to a chair. "Deep breaths Maddy, deep breaths..." Maria tried to encourage her. She looked worried at Donna and mouthed, "What's wrong with her?"

Donna simply shrugged and mouthed back, "She said she was having period cramps..."

Maria looked down in disbelief at Maddy, she sighed and looked back up at Donna, "Doesn't look like that to me!"

Donna shook her head and continue to rub Maddy's back as she sat, still hunched over, breathing deeply.

Maria crouched down at her side, "Maddy? What's wrong? Do you need me to get Ric?"
Maddy shook her head, the pain finally subsiding. "No!" She slowly sat back up, "I'm fine."

Donna looked unsure. Slowly, she squatted by Maddy, rubbing her shoulder. "Madz, please tell us."

Maddy shook her head, "I already have."

"The real truth Maddy! Period pains are NEVER this bad!" Maria glared at her, becoming impatient and worried.

Maddy glared up at her, "I do believe that I am the doctor!"

Donna shook her head at Maria, before she opened her mouth to argue back, "Maddy, please, we are really worried."

Maddy looked up and sighed, "Maria? Can you get me a drink, please?"

Maria saw Maddy's fragile state, her pale complexion and her face covered with sweat. She raced over to the sink, a smell of vomit present when she got there. Turning around, confused, "Madz? Were you sick?"

Maddy looked up, "Can you just get me a drink, please?" She looked at her with a 'please' look.

Maria nodded and got her a drink, walking back over to the table, she placed it in front of Maddy, "There."

Maddy looked up and forced a smile, "Than- Aaah!" She clutched her stomach in pain again.

Donna looked worried at Maria, she started to rub Maddy's back again, "Madz, you really need to tell me if something is wrong. We have to know!"

Maddy shook her head, "I'm.... Fine...." She took deep breaths.

Maria bent down next to her, "Madz, your not! Your in pain!"

Maddy shook her head, the pain finally subsiding. "I'm not." She took the drink and quickly drank it. Standing up, "I have got work to do..." She walks out of the room.

Maria looks at Donna worried, "Shall we tell Mr Griffin? Tell him to let her off work for a while? She obviously isn't fine."

Donna sighs, "I know. But don't tell him, she'll just get mad, and if something is wrong at least we can do something here, now."

Maria nods.

Maddy walks over to one of her other patients, "Hello Mrs..." She looks down at her sheet for her name, "Murphy," She smiles at her, "How can I help you?"

"How can you help me?!" Lara Murphy came off as someone in a serious mood, and considering the 'state' Maddy was in, she didn't want to push it. (No pun intended)

Maddy sighed, "I meant, what is wrong with you?"

Lara glared at her, "If I knew that! I wouldn't be here!"

Maddy took a deep breath, "Okay, easier question, why did you come here? What made you come to a hospital?"

Lara looked at her as if she was stupid, "Why do you need me to tell you?! Won't it way that is your stupid papers?!"

Maddy sighed again, she took some breaths, the familiar pain coming back. "I need you to tell me, in case it is wrong on the paper, for hospital policy."

Lara snarled her, "Your not very good at your job?! Are you!?"

Maddy sighed, "Would you like me to assign you to another doctor?"

"If they're all nincompoops like you, then NO!"

Maddy grimaces, "I'll just get someone..." She walks away towards the door, breathing through a pain. She gets to the desk, "Will you get another doctor to take Mrs Murphy, please?"

The receptionist nods, "Sure."

Maddy smiles and walks into the staffroom again, her pain gone. She sits on the chair, "Okay Maddy, deep breaths." She slowly rubs her stomach. Pacing backwards and forwards.

Ric slammed the door open, "Maddy!"

Maddy jumped and turned around to meet his eyes.

Infuriated, Ric shouted, moving closer and closer to her with each word, "Maddy! Stop dawdling about here and get seeing your patients!"

Maddy closed her eyes, Ric now towering above her, she timidly spoke, "Yes, Mr Griffin."

Ric glared at her, noticing her pale, sweat cover face, he tried to speak more softly, "Maddy? Are you okay? Do you need to go home?"

Maddy looked up at him, "I'm fine Mr Griffin."

Ric looked unsure, "We don't want you to infect our patients."

Maddy sighed, "I wouldn't be here if I thought I wasn't fine and that I was a risk to the patients."
"Fine, but if you need to, I'm going to need warning, so I can get a replacement."

Maddy nods, "Sure thing Mr Griffin." She walked out of the room.