Chapter one- What she's looking for
She gave up her love at 18 years old
Said it was just a lie that the foolish told
And finding herself all alone and cold
She gave up on the world
She found some relief with a bottle in her hand
But the bottle can be such a fickle friend
She swore a million times she'd never drink again
"Breathe Bella, he's not here." I repeated to myself over and over again as I tried to calm my frantic beating heart. My breaths were coming out as gasps as I clutched at my throat, trying to force the air into my lungs. "It was just a dream." I said to myself. "Just a dream." I repeated as I climbed out of bed and headed down to the kitchen for a much needed glass of ice cold water.
I looked at the clock on the wall above the sink as I drank my water. "4:17 am. Great." I mumbled to myself as I climbed back up the stairs to the bath room for a hot shower. Hopefully that would help calm my nerves. I knew I would never get back to sleep, not just because of the same recurring nightmare, but in just a few short hours I would be starting my first day at Forks High School.
After a long much needed shower, I threw on my favorite pairs of jeans and a lose sweater, and headed back down to the kitchen. I knew I needed to calm my nerves before I had a panic attack, so I went to Charlie, my fathers, liquor cabinet and took a long sip of his vodka. I smiled to myself as I felt the cool liquid slide down my throat. In just a matter of minutes my nerves would be just fine.
I brushed my teeth, twice, getting the small of alcohol off my breathe before facing Charlie. He wished me good luck before I headed out the door to start my dreaded day.
As I pulled into the school parking lot, I noticed that I was the only one here, great. I pulled my head up and made a dash for the school. I easily found my way to the office in the small school. I quickly grabbed my schedule and a map and left to go take a look around. Knowing that I was a klutz, and a bit tipsy, I probably shouldn't of been walking around the halls with my nose shoved into my map. Suddenly, I ran right into something small and hard. "Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry!" I looked up to see a small pixie like girl, with short, spiky black hair, and bright blue eyes staring down at me. "Are you okay?" She asked, looking at me with concern. " I stood up, and brushed the back of my pants off with my hands. "Yeah I'm fine." She smiled at me. "You must be the new kid. I'm Alice Cullen, I just moved here with my family two years ago so I know what it feels like to be new too." I gave her a small smile back. "I'm Isabella Swan, but I prefer Bella." She let out a small giggle and hugged me. I was shocked at first but lightly patted her back. "Well Bella Swan, I think we'll be great friends." Before she could go one, the warning bell rang. "Oh! I have to go, I'll see you around, Bella." She hugged me again and then skipped off down the hallway. I just started at her for a few minutes, trying to figure out what just happened. A student walking by, knocked into me, snapped me out of my daze. I shook my head and headed off to my first class.
The morning flew by quick enough. The teachers seemed nice enough, and most of the work I already knew. I had Alice in my English class, and she insisted that I sit with her friends at lunch. I wanted to object but she was having none of that. So here I am, walking into the over crowed cafeteria, going to sit with Alice and her friends.
"Hey guys! This is Bella Swan, she's new." She said as we sat down at the table, which included four other people. "Bella, this is Jasper, my boy friend." I looked to who she was talking about and it was a guy with wavy hair blonde hair, just above his shoulders. He was very tall. He smiled and gave me a small nod. I smiled back. "Next is Emmett and Rose, Emmett is my older, and more annoying brother, and my best friend, and his girl friend, Rose." Emmett had a huge smile on his face and said a loud hi and waved. He was big and muscular, but had a very childish look to him with his short brown curly hair. Rose gave him an odd look and said a quick hi. She was stunning with her long blonde hair that hung in lose curls down her back. Everyone at the table laughed at Emmett's childish behavior. While they were all coming down from their laughing fit, I looked over to the last person at the table. My jaw dropped. He was gorgeous! His hair was a copper color, like something I've never seen before. It was untidy, like he just rolled out of bed, but it suited him well. His eyes, were a piercing green color, and he was tall, but toned. When he noticed me gawking at him, he smiled the most beautiful crooked smile I have ever seen. "Hi, I'm Edward, Alice's cooler brother." I smiled back at him. That comment caught everyone's attention. " I beg to differ!" Emmett scuffed, which brought on a whole new fitof laughter. I felt oddly at ease sitting here, which is never a good sign. I shouldn't be this relaxed around people, they can't be trusted. I need another drink.
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Hi, this is my first story so bear with me. This is just the first chapter so it's slow, and boring, but I promise it will get better. Review? Thanks!