Disclaimer:I don`t own any name,place and so on besides my OC`s and the plot.

Important facts:The time line is very different from the real time seeing as my story starts in the year 2005, so all the things that happened between 1966 and 2009 are kinda squished into that time. In my story HIM is a worldwide known band that does go to worldwide tours, awards, and other things. Like I said above all the things happened besides the filming of Buried alive by love; Apocalyptica`s Bittersweet song and representation at Eurovision 2007. Missy will not be a part of this story seeing as she is divorced from appearances are the same as their younger ones and that means that V. B. & rest will look just like they looked at the filming of Buriedalive... Ville`s duet with Manna did not happen.[yet] I don`t know every fact about them so some things may be different from reality but well this is afterall a fiction story. The only OC that will have a very big role in the story is Ville`s sister and Ryan[inspired by Ryan Sheckler].Bam will compete in several skateboarding competitions but the most important one is the Dew Tour bcz that`s were Astrid will meet Ryan.

Ages: Ville[24] Bam[23] Bam`s friends[22 and 25] Astrid(the OC)[16] RyanAddams[17]

CHAPTER 1:Finding the truth.

Ville Valo was sitting in his homemade studio from his parent`s home in Helsinki,Finland listening to some demos of the band when somebody knocked on the pressed pause on the machine and got up from his bed to open the door to find his mother sitting there with an unreadable expresion on her told him it was not going to be pretty.

"What is it mum?"he said opening the door wider to let her in.

"Well son...um... I have to say something to you and.."she trailed off looking like she was about to burst into tears.

"And?Is it something wrong?"he asked curiosity and anxiety getting the better of him.

"Umm..you may want to sit down for this because it`s a long story and i don`t really know how you will take it.." she said with a guilty expression on her face as she sat down on the armchair in front of the window.

Ville closed the door to his studio and sat in the armchair opposite the window motioning for his mother to say what she wanted.

Finally getting her bearings together she told him:

"You know that when you were 8 me and your father went to a trip to Romania to see the Castle Dracula and such but we stayed longer that the 2 months we said?"she asked.

Ville wasn`t sure why this thing mattered but chose to respond nonetheless

"Yes you said that while you were staying there you got a serious sickness and couldn`t leave the country because the president at the time wasn`t so liberal about contaminating others..so you had to stay in there for another 8 months?"he asked.

Now the guilty expression on her face intensified and he knew that something was definitely wrong with the whole story. Just as he was about to say something about it his mother spoke:

"Part of it it`s true but.."here she seemed to falter slightly but immediately recovered and was on with the story"..the other part about the president and the sickness was contaminating and stuff..well that wasn`t true. The truth is that we lied to you. There is another reason why we came back 8 months later than when we were due to come." she said with a sad face.

Ville was wearing a slightly angry expression as he listened to her being the curious bastard that he is asked his mother what did happen when they were mother,now crying -for what he didn`t know-mumbled between sniffs:

"We had a daughter..".

Right as she said the last word Ville shot up from his position in the armchair with a face full of extreme shock,pain,and anger at what he just heard. He walked over to his mother , picked her up by her collar and face-to-face with her he whispered in a low tone full of anger at the sobbing woman.

" You..what?"he asked still not believing his ears.

With a broken voice she strutted "W-w-we had a baby..a girl..let me go and i`ll tell you the story.." she said not looking him in the eyes. He let go of her without protest seeing as he was still frozen on the spot from the weight of the truth of what really happened those months. Collecting herself his mother sat down in the armchair and told him to do the same. Ville complied but didn`t look at her when he sat back down. Seeing that now he wasn`t being prone to having a fit she started to tell him what happened and Ville didn`t interrupt since he still was partly numb from the news.

"We got there safely and we managed to book a hotel room that wasn`t expensive and decided that since we arrived late we should stay at the hotel for the day and start our visiting the next. That said we got out for lunch and after that we decided to go to bed since it was already late and we had a big day tomorrow with all the visiting and stuff ,but once we got in our room, I really don`t know what got into your father but he said he wanted me so bad and well you know what came next..."here she trailed off to take a peak at his expression but his face was unreadable and he was staring off into space but she saw that he was still listening so she continued

"..so the next day we went sightseeing and stuff .And all was right for the next two weeks . It was a Monday morning when I woke up with a feeling of nausea that I didn`t understand because I didn`t eat anything bad the other day but ..oh well ...and so for the next week I woke up everyday feeling very bad so after a week of vomiting me and your father went to the doctor to see what was the the checkup we got home , ate, and got to sleep. The next day is when I found out that I was pregnant. My first reaction was one of shock because at my age women rarely make babies anymore you know and well ..after that it came happiness because we got the chance to have another baby besides you. So the rest of the day we talked about the situation but as we discussed the matters deeper and deeper we realized that with our financial situation at the time we wouldn`t have a good place to raise her so..." she paused here as her words seem to be stuck in her mouth, and after releasing a sigh she continued"we decided that we should search for a couple to take the baby once I was due with the hope that she would be safe and in a nice home without problems..." here she paused to regain her breath since she was talking for such a long time.

In the meantime Ville was sitting in the chair with a dazed expression on his face.I can`t believe her..she hid the fact that she had a baby from me..not to mention my own fucking sister but she left her with some couple from fucking Romania God knows where in the country and she pretended to have a flippin` flu for god sake, I should have seen the lie in the thing but oh well 8 year olds can be sometimes very stupid..God I really despise her this moment..I need to punch something..This were the toughts that ran trough Ville`s mind from the moment his mother started explaining...

Realizing that she stopped , he got his bearings together and stated in a cold and calm voice causing his mother to flinch "So you..after giving birth to my sister , y-you just gave her away?" he asked in a disbelieving manner"I mean didn`t you care for her one bit? You just left her to the nearest doorstep you found and in a foreign country nonetheless and came home all cheery and sweet like nothing happened?" he asked in a incredulous voice,while looking her dead in the eye daring her to lie again.

After wiping the few tears that escaped her eyes she said in a very firm voice" Ville don`t you dare think that way of me, you hear me?I am not as heartless as you believe me to be,I nearly broke in half when I had to embark on the plane and I realised that that was probably the last time I saw my daughter...besides,the couple was so kind to us,you know? They were the ones that gave us shelter for the rest of the months of pregnancy... "here she gave a defeated sigh"...I don`t know if they told her that she was adopted but I really hope they didn`t it`s better that way..." she trailed off staring into space. They both stayed in silence for a while, thinking. Ville was burning a hole trough the wall opposite him with silent tears streaming down his face and smudging the eyeliner on his eyes. Finally he removed his eyes from the wall and pinned them on the woman in the chair-he refused to call her mother anymore-and said:

"She is 16 now isn`t she?" but it wasn`t a question more that a statement.

"All those years she could have been besides me,me protecting her,encouraging her, speaking,eating,sleeping,laughing with her..all this things you stole from me..." he trailed but immediately said "..and why?Because you, in your selfish greed decided that we didn`t have enough money to sustain her?"he asked remained silent not daring to remove her eyes from the she spoke it was in such a small voice that he had to strain his ears to hear.

"I`m sorry...I really don`t know what else to say ..."and then in a more forceful voice "Her name.."and at this she looked up to meet the gaze of her son.."it`s Astrid..."she said with a smile that was soon wiped out at the sight of her son`s devastated face..

"Astrid..." Ville whispered...testing the name on his tongue , and then a sudden revelation tore trough his foggy mind and asked his mother "What does she look like?"he asked.

After thinking for a moment she said"Well she has fiery red hair and she has your eyes,green" she said with a smile.."She was very pretty for a baby"she continued.

"Did you see her until now?.." he asked her with curiosity.

"No" she responded with a falter in her voice.

Ville immediately catching on asked her"What is it that you hide from me now?" in a cool manner.

His mother sighed defeated and said "Well like I said I never visited her but...before I left the couple , they gave me their address incase I ever wanted to see her...."she responded.

Ville who had been listening quietly before , now shot out from his seat again started shouting at her "So all this fucking time you knew her address and didn`t even see her!!?" he bellowed loud enough for the whole neighborhood to hear. He was enraged, no, he was downright pissed ,how could that fucking woman say she loved her if she fucking knew her address all this time and not once going to check up on her!

His mother now angry as well as stresses out by the sudden memories started yelling at him

" Don`t you use that tone with me Ville! I`m your mother and even if you don't want that right now, it`s the truth. So you better calm down!" she finished out of breath and with that she got a messily folded piece of paper out of her jeans pocket and slammed it on the desk in front of him. On the other hand Ville not really calmed down enough for a decent conversation began screaming again at her.

"GET OUT!I`m leaving and I`m going to search for her,unlike you who didn`t give a fuck about her life "he said punching everything in his reach.

"Now listen here young man,I won`t tolerate -"his mother started but was interrupted by Ville yelling "I DON`T CARE!GET OUT!" And with a last disapproving look towards her son she was out, the door slamming behind her shut.

I don`t know what to do ..that stupid human being called a mother ..god I hate her ...huh who would have thought me having a sister...I want to see her .and I will see her and make sure she knows I`m her brother.I need a drink and a cigar fast before I blow...

Thought Ville as he sat down on the sofa opening a can of beer and lightening a cigar, before inhaling softly. Then a thought occurred to him. If I search her I need somebody with me..who knows how long will it take before I localize the address on my own ,pff, who can I take...let`s see..none of my band members because they are all busy ..oh fucking Santa of course..Bam will be always free..hmm should I call him?No...I'll just fly to his castle...yes...that`s what I'll do..And with this in mind he rose from the sofa ,got his traveling bag ,put his clothes and other things he found on the floor in it ,dressed himself in some tight skinny black jeans with a T-shirt with his band logo on it , his purple beanie , his black converse and a black trench coat and was out the door faster than you could say 'hell'.

So this was chapter one.I hope you liked it. If you have suggestions or complains please make them known to me because I would gladly like some advice since I`m not exactly a veteran in the art of writing stories.*grin*

`Till next time!

-BittersweetInferno