The Remembrance of You
My name is Subaru Sumeragi. I'm a twenty-one year old male and I live by myself in Tokyo. Being alone doesn't help my already ruined life. Sometimes strangers and friends go up to me and ask, "Why are your eyes so dark?" My eyes have also been described as dead, emotionless, and sad... People also ask me, "Why do you carry so much pain? Why...?"
My twin sister, Hokuto Sumeragi, I loved you, I still do. Why did you have to leave Grandmother and me? Life's been so empty without your gleaming eyes and smiling face. I've often wondered what life would be like if you hadn't gone away. For one thing, I'd be a lot happier. I would probably be a veterinarian or be at some other career that I enjoy. My life wouldn't be so dark and dreary. I miss you so much...
I remember when we were young; Grandmother used to let us play games after our long Omnyoudo1 studies. I'm sorry you didn't excel in that part, sister. But instead you just giggled and said it was more important for me to learn the spells, because I would become the new head of the Sumeragi Clan, our clan. In my thoughts, it would be the prophesized, thirteenth head of the Sumeragi Clan. The one who would later become the loneliest head ever.
As we grew older, our views on life changed too. I was studying to be an exceptionally strong Omnyouji2, while you, Hokuto, were amazed by the world of fashion. And the outfits you created! I'll never forget them. I think Grandmother still has them back at home. You always made me wear those silly things, I did give in sometimes, but I usually wore my black pants, shirt, and orange jacket. If you were still here you would have probably make your own little shop and sell your outfits to everyone in Japan. You would also make me be your model for those clothes. You were so energetic and friendly to everyone! Back then, you were very happy; we both were very happy. The day now draws into night. I will always remember you sweet voice before I go to sleep. It reminds me of so much I wish I could still have. If only...
Don't blame my regret on yourself, Hokuto. It was also my fault for falling in love with Seishiro Sakurazuka, or otherwise called the Sakurazukamori3, our Clan's sworn enemy. I know I should've listened to my mind and dreams, and the warnings in my head. Even after sacrificing yourself to him, he is still after me. Not only in my dreams, but he is secretly waiting every day for me. I often think he is waiting until I go insane with the fact that the whole world is against me. But my mind doesn't think that way. I have found new people who care about me, and I know you're happy about that. You always said I needed more friends.
It's funny; I still remember what the last thing you said before you fell to the ground lifeless. I remember you whispering my name. I can believe that you were trying to say that it wasn't my fault. I know how you would like to try to lift the guilt from me, but it doesn't work. I also have the reoccurring dream of you dying. This reminds me of so many questions that were left unanswered. For instance, how could Seishiro kill you after all the happy times we've been through? It was me he wanted anyway. It should've been me with the gaping hole in my torso. It should've been me crying for everything that I was going to lose. But... The man I loved didn't kill me. What I had was worse. I watched my only sister, the most important person in my life, get killed by the man I loved. Which was you Hokuto, my sister.
My name is Subaru Sumeragi. I'm a twenty-one year old male and I live by myself in Tokyo. Being alone doesn't help my already ruined life. Sometimes strangers and friends go up to me and ask, "Why are your eyes so dark?" My eyes have also been described as dead, emotionless, and sad... People also ask me, "Why do you carry so much pain? Why...?"
My twin sister, Hokuto Sumeragi, I loved you, I still do. Why did you have to leave Grandmother and me? Life's been so empty without your gleaming eyes and smiling face. I've often wondered what life would be like if you hadn't gone away. For one thing, I'd be a lot happier. I would probably be a veterinarian or be at some other career that I enjoy. My life wouldn't be so dark and dreary. I miss you so much...
I remember when we were young; Grandmother used to let us play games after our long Omnyoudo1 studies. I'm sorry you didn't excel in that part, sister. But instead you just giggled and said it was more important for me to learn the spells, because I would become the new head of the Sumeragi Clan, our clan. In my thoughts, it would be the prophesized, thirteenth head of the Sumeragi Clan. The one who would later become the loneliest head ever.
As we grew older, our views on life changed too. I was studying to be an exceptionally strong Omnyouji2, while you, Hokuto, were amazed by the world of fashion. And the outfits you created! I'll never forget them. I think Grandmother still has them back at home. You always made me wear those silly things, I did give in sometimes, but I usually wore my black pants, shirt, and orange jacket. If you were still here you would have probably make your own little shop and sell your outfits to everyone in Japan. You would also make me be your model for those clothes. You were so energetic and friendly to everyone! Back then, you were very happy; we both were very happy. The day now draws into night. I will always remember you sweet voice before I go to sleep. It reminds me of so much I wish I could still have. If only...
Don't blame my regret on yourself, Hokuto. It was also my fault for falling in love with Seishiro Sakurazuka, or otherwise called the Sakurazukamori3, our Clan's sworn enemy. I know I should've listened to my mind and dreams, and the warnings in my head. Even after sacrificing yourself to him, he is still after me. Not only in my dreams, but he is secretly waiting every day for me. I often think he is waiting until I go insane with the fact that the whole world is against me. But my mind doesn't think that way. I have found new people who care about me, and I know you're happy about that. You always said I needed more friends.
It's funny; I still remember what the last thing you said before you fell to the ground lifeless. I remember you whispering my name. I can believe that you were trying to say that it wasn't my fault. I know how you would like to try to lift the guilt from me, but it doesn't work. I also have the reoccurring dream of you dying. This reminds me of so many questions that were left unanswered. For instance, how could Seishiro kill you after all the happy times we've been through? It was me he wanted anyway. It should've been me with the gaping hole in my torso. It should've been me crying for everything that I was going to lose. But... The man I loved didn't kill me. What I had was worse. I watched my only sister, the most important person in my life, get killed by the man I loved. Which was you Hokuto, my sister.