There are so many ways to identify in terms of sexuality now, it's amazing. Straight, gay, bisexual, and it goes on and on, it seems. It also seems to me that some people can figure out how to identify at early ages, or at least, they claim to have figured it out. I didn't know anything about sexual orientation when I was a child, I just knew that I loved Yuki, and I hoped one day he could love me the way I loved him. Unfortunately, that never happened.
What drew me to him wasn't really his beauty, although there's no denying that he was gorgeous and still is today. I was drawn to his kindness, his gentle nature, and his sensitivity. I loved how free he made me feel, he showed me that we didn't have to define ourselves by our zodiac animals that we could be whoever we wanted to be, because I know that's what he wanted. As I grew older, I began to notice him more physically; I knew that he wouldn't love me back. However, at that point, another zodiac member had already caught my eye, Rin.
In many ways, she was Yuki's polar opposite, he mostly kept his emotions to himself, he wasn't very expressive, she on the other hand never held back. It was one of the many things I loved about her. It didn't matter to me what gender either of them were, and it still doesn't. When I told Yuki, I would always love him, I meant it with all my heart. However, Rin is the one I have chosen to spend my life with, the one I have chosen to have children with, not him.
Even though the curse is over, we'll always be connected as a family, no matter how far apart we are, every single former zodiac member besides Rin is in my heart, especially Yuki, my first love.