Chapter 1; Man of My Dreams

Some times, when I'm asleep I met a man, I don't know who he is, but he's very kind to me. He tells me that I am his, that we'll meet again another night, just before I wake. His deep violet eyes burned into my memory, his voice a whisper on the wind in the sun. I can't forget him, but….I can't be with him. He only lives in my dreams; it is there, that we can be together, because, for some reason, we cannot meet in the real world. Some times I wonder if my 'real' world is the world I dream of, but then I remember; He's never in my real world, making him surreal. I want to meet him again, so I look forward to nighttime, my afternoon nap, and the occasional cat nap here and there through the day. I'm a writer, I basically can sleep my whole day away, but when I met him, I want to write about the way he makes me feel, about the way he looks at me, the way he holds, the way he kisses me, the way his lips linger against mine.

I never thought that I'd ever feel this way about anyone but my family, but this man in my dreams, he can see right into my soul, he can see the pain that I have, the joy that I carry for him and my family. He's the man I waited my whole life for, the one person I will love for an eternity; however, he can only live in my dreams, in the memories I carry with me of him. I remember everything about him, the way he smells, and the way his hair felt against my skin went we hugged, his lips; how soft and sweet they were against mine. I even remember the feeling of when we first made love. It felt so real, even when I woke the next day, I never understood the reason behind it. My best friend said that it was just my body holding on to the dream, making it ache where it shouldn't ache without sex. I never told anyone else of him, just my best friend, because she called me desperate. She told me that I spent too much time reading romance novels and watching romance movies. She told me that I was pathetic in away for letting my dreams get the best of my reality. I never wanted to feel as if I was doing something wrong by falling for this man in my dream, so I kept it quiet. My heart breaking as I held all I wanted to say to my best friend about this man.

In the end I fell into depression, one that not even medication could save me. When I dreamt, he was there to comfort me. His soothing smells of love and understandment, he held me tight, he told me that no matter what anyone else said, or did, he'd love me for eternity and more. I believe him; I know that I always will. This may sound silly, stupid even, but after that night with him; under those thousand of dream world stars, I woke to find out that some how, I was pregnant. I asked the doctor how this could have happened, she didn't have an answer. She asked if I'd ever had sex, I said not in this world, she asked if I'd gone in for artificial fertilization, I said no. I never wanted to be pregnant with some random man's child, she believed me, the only one to believe that I did not do this for attention.

I lost my so call 'best friend' that day. She said that she couldn't be friends with a woman that lies about pregnancy. I let her go, she never believed me anyway, she never did in the past. Nine months came and gone, the man I loved stayed by me in my dreams, my family kept me under consent supervision; I was 22 when I had my baby. A healthy 13 lbs 7oz'Ed little girl was born at midnight on December 31st/January 1st. My mother stayed with me after my baby's birth, she said that I should rest, take time to think about my baby's name. I did. My dream man and I talked about a name, there were so many to think about, after many hours of debating a name we finally found one; Twilight. Our child was named Twilight Haru Higurahi. That night, when Twilight was born I made a wish, the only wish I'd ever want to make real. I wished my dream time lover to be with us always in the real world. I wished him alive to be with Twilight. My mother loved the name Twilight, said that it was a beautiful and unique name, for such a miracle baby.

"Kagome, will what did you wish when Twilight was born?" He asked, his soft violet eyes staring into my brown eyes. I smiled and kissed his cheek.

"Happiness." I said softly, his arm wrapping tightly around my waist.

"I wished to be alive, to be with you and Twilight." He said back, his breath hot on the top of my hair.

"Will our wishes be realized?" I asked, tears stinging my eyes as I stared at his shoulder. I couldn't look at him, not without crying. His hands moved in small circles on my back, a gesture to comfort me.

"Yes, I'm coming to our world; ask the nurse when you wake about a blood test for Twilight. I've forgotten my name, who I was; I need you to tell me who I am. Then, maybe I can wake up, maybe I can be with you and our baby." He said as he kissed my hair. "I want to be with you. I want Yuri to know that I am real, I want everyone to know that you are telling the truth, I want the sorrow in your heart to be gone." His voice was so full of honesty in hurt my chest. There was always the chance that he'd never come to my world, that he'd stay in my dreams, that his daughter would never know him. Twilight might never know the love her father has for her. How his voice is so soft when he talks about how beautiful and how brilliant she'll become. "Kagome, what's wrong?" he asked pushing my shoulders back, he bent his knees and looked at my face, I could feel his eyes hot against my skin. I tried to hide my eyes beneath my bangs; my hair is back, and thick, good for hiding watery eyes.

"I…I'm scare, I'm afraid that it won't be that easy, that even if you know your name, you may not wake up." I said, my voice shaking, the hot tears in my eyes snaking their way down my face. He placed a hand below my chin and tilted my face to his. His eyes soft with pain, pain I put there with my tears. I raised my hand to his face, gently touching his cheek. "I don't want to promise Twilight something that might not happen. My mother did that to me about my father, he never got better, and he never came home from the hospital. He died the day she promised me that he'd come home soon." I said, I could hear my own voice crake with the memory I hated to have.

"Kagome, trust me, once I know my name, and who I am, I'll come to you and our daughter. I know I will, everything in my body screams that I'll hold you in my arms when we're not asleep and in this world." He said as he leaned down, his eyes the only thing I could see. His lips brushed mine, soft and sweet like a piece of chocolate. When he pulled away I was left to look into his violet eyes once more, they held such loneliness, so much longing that I had to believe in him; his eyes told me that no one else believed in him.

"I trust you." I said softly, closing my eyes as I leaned my forehead against his shoulder. "I believe you." I repeated softly against his clothed shoulder. I could hear his heart beating. Bump-bum, bump-bum, bump-bum. A slow, steady beat I wanted to hear forever in my ears. I didn't even notice when my eyes closed, I was just so at peace with the sound of his heart, that I never realized I'd started to fall asleep in my dream. He shook me lightly, jarring my body to awareness. "I think I'm starting to wake up." I said softly, everything was turning fuzzy around the edges. That in its self meant I was waking from the dream world. "Before I wake up; what do you remember about your life? Anything that could help me find you?" I asked, if I was going to find him, I needed all I could get about him.

"I think I have an older brother, we fought all the time, what about? I don't know. I know my mother died when I was little, little bits of memory find me here. I sometimes see my mother and father's face, but then they disappear. I know that my best friend is perverted, that I remember for sure, but everything else is a fog." He said his voice slow, his eyes glazed over with thought. She could tell he'd been thinking this over for a very long time, trying to remember his past. I kissed his cheek before everything started to loss focus.

"I'll find you, I promise." I said before the dream world disappeared and bright lights assaulted my eyes. "Mom? Are you there?" My voice was sheepish, a sleepers voice. I could feel my mom move beside me, her hand touching mine.

"Right here baby." She said, her voice was always so kind and gentle. I smiled as I opened my eyes fully to see her.

"Is Twilight here?" I asked, it had been three days since the birth, and I was still in the hospital under observations. They said that since no one knew who the father was, they wanted to check for any defects in the blood, any diseased that may have been born with Twilight. I agreed with them, she wanted to make sure nothing was wrong with her baby.

"Yes, they brought her in a few minutes ago. I'm amazed that you woke up. You went to sleep not more than three hours ago." My mother, Ms. Higurashi said as she picked up the infant. Twilight's eyes were closed, not yet ready to open. Her small hands were balled into fists as she whimpered in her sleep at the sudden movements. I smiled at her small wrinkled face. She was so cute, I knew it would be hard not to spoil the little girl rotten when she was older.

"Mother, can you ask the nurse to do a blood test? I want to see if her father is someone in this world." I said allowing my little daughter to grip my index finger with her whole hand. I knew my mother was looking at me funny but she knew the reason why I asked this of her.

"Yes, I'll ask her. Feed Twilight, she looks hungry." My mom said as she moved from her chair to walk out of the room, her feet making clacking noises on the tile floor outside my room. I lifted my head to look at her.

"Thank you for everything. Mom, when I'm let out of here, may Twilight and I stay with you. Just until I can get enough money to support us?" I asked, I was embarrassed to ask such of my mom, but she smiled at me, her kind loving smile.

"Baby girl, I planned on keeping you and Twilight with me." Mom said as she left the doorway empty. I smiled, that's momma for you. I looked down to my daughter and smiled.

"Hungry baby girl?" I asked softly, Twilight made a fussing noise and I smiled. "Ok, I'll feed you."