My feelings and thoughts

by foxhiei

duo feels like no one cares about him, his hopes, dreams, and feelings. rated for mention of doing something drastic. if this sounds like my other story, it isn't even though it could fit in really good i think. so read this and read i feel so alone.

Disclaimer: i do not own gundam wing at all. please review. i keep all reviews good and bad. thank you.

(begin)

Sometimes I feel like my life is not worth all the pain and suffering.

I even feel like the joys that I see going on around me does not involve me at all.

If life is so great then why do I feel this way?

Is it because I feel outnumbered in everything I do?

Why do my friends not notice that I am not that happy?

I think they do not notice because as long as any of them has known me, I have never been that happy.

The smile that they all see is just on my face to hide my true feelings.

I feel for some unknown reason that if they knew I was not happy, they would just turn their backs on me.

I do not want that to happen.

I do not think I could handle that at all.

I need my friends in my life.

They are the only things that are keeping me from doing something drastic to myself.

They help me see that I have some self-worth.

I hope someday that they all see that they mean everything to me.

I take all of their comments to heart and I hope they realize that they have hurt me with their comments sometimes.

I am not perfect and I accept that, so I wish people would stop thinking that maybe I should be perfect.

Sometimes I just want to cry and yell at everyone I see, but if I do then my facade will be lost to me.

Sometimes it is easier to stay quiet so that no one remembers that I even exist.

When I am quiet for too long, then they all worry.

They ask me what is wrong and then they do not even really want to hear what is wrong with me.

I listen to them talk about their hopes and dreams, but they never have time to listen to my hopes and dreams.

I want to tell them that someday I hope to write a book about my experiences that I have had.

I think that if I told them that then they would just laugh at me.

So I will continue to write down what I feel, hope, and dream about.

Maybe someday they will all see everything that I have written and realize that I have feelings and sometimes I need help.

(finish)

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