Heartbreak
It was a cool summer evening in the Hidden Village of Konoha. Two young ninjas sat under the shelter of a tree in the corner of the Konoha woods. Both sat in silence, not doing anything but enjoying each others company.
"Sasuke…"
Sasuke looked down, and saw twin endless pools of blue gazing up innocently at him. Aimlessly, he played with the tiny curl of hair by Naruto's neck; the one that always seemed to be slightly longer than the others and answered, "Yes Naruto?"
"Do you love me?"
Sasuke suddenly froze and looked stonily ahead. A few awkward seconds passed.
Hurt, Naruto looked down and chewed on his bottom lip. "You don't have to say if you don't want to."
A few moments passed as Sasuke gathered his thoughts. Both of them sat in silence as they thought about the couple of months that have just gone by. None of them knew how it happened, how they both started to depend on each other and console each other, it just did. Sure, they had sex. But their relationship was not just about sex. Sometimes, the moments they cherished most the most were the moments like this. Where Naruto would just lay there like a small child on Sasuke's lap, the occasional question would pop out, but when it was answered both fell into silence again.
Though, none of the questions before were this personal.
The air seemed to grow stuffier and warmer by the second, despite the cool breeze. Unable to take the silence anymore, Naruto stood up. "I'll be in there if you need me." Dusting himself off, he may his way out of the forest.
There. It seems like such a vague word to use when describing where you were going, but Sasuke knew exactly where Naruto was headed. There. The place they shared their first moment of true friendship. There. The place he will never be able to go again without thinking about Naruto. There. The place his first true heartbreak will take place.
The cloak of night descended upon Konoha, and Sasuke decided it was time to go there. He rose and calmly walked to the place where both of them met every other night.
Once he reached that place he saw Naruto sitting by the lake, Naruto turned around and offered him a calm smile. "Took you long enough, I was thinking that I might've needed to wait until morning for you to come."
Smirking, Sasuke answered, "Well, I'm here aren't I? Idiot."
Naruto stepped up and walked slowly toward Sasuke. Each step caused Sasuke heart to leap twice. Each step made his pants tighten even further. Naruto stopped and his face was a mere centimetre away from Sasuke's. They could hear nothing but the sound of each others breathing, they could feel nothing except the heat emanating from each others skin. Each second that passed was like an eternity of unfulfilled bliss. Their eyes locked with each others in a battle of wills.
All that shattered when Naruto throatily whispered, "Please…"
Sasuke grabbed Naruto's face and cupped it between his hands, crushing their lips together. His tongue parted the lips of Naruto, slipping in and delving into the heat which Naruto offered. Their tongues entwined in a dance of dominance. Naruto's hands just clung onto the shoulders of Sasuke. Sasuke's hands roamed the entire length of Naruto's body, grabbing there, rubbing here. Sasuke's mouth left Naruto's as Sasuke looked into Naruto's face, the blonde was flushed, his blue eyes shinning with tears and his mouth parted for more.
With a smirk, the brunette teasingly licked the lips of Naruto. Naruto whimpered, asking for more, wanting more, needing more. Sasuke grabbed Naruto through his pants and chuckled as Naruto gasped, tears running down his cheeks. Naruto rubbed himself harder against Sasuke's hand as Sasuke devoured the sensitive flesh of Naruto's neck. Hand trembling, Naruto tugged on the shirt of Sasuke and looked up, eye pleading. Sasuke growled and swiftly undressed them both, and started grinding himself against Naruto. Naruto writhed and twisted beneath him. Sasuke suddenly thrust into Naruto, Naruto gasped tears welling in his eyes. Sasuke started to slowly move in and out of Naruto. Then he began to up his speed. Gasping, Naruto clung onto Sasuke and screamed; his back arching and twisting wildly. Sasuke groaned and collapsed straight after. Both lay in each others' arms and savoured the aftermath. Naruto, fast falling asleep cuddled into Sasuke's chest and mumbled something faint.
Sasuke's back snapped straight. Bewildered, he looked down into the tuff of blond hair, questions crowding his brain.
Did he just?
No, he couldn't have.
But he really sounded…
Sasuke lay still for several more moments the internal battle between his brain and his mind still raging on. Finally, after several minutes, Sasuke carried Naruto to his apartment and left.
The next day, as the rosy fingers of dawn crawled through his window, a staccato rapping sounded from his door.
"Naruto!"
Naruto grunted and turned covering his head with his pillow.
"Naruto, open this door right now or I swear I will break it!"
Naruto peered at his door through one eye and sighed. "Alright already, stop banging."
Naruto groggily made his way to the door and opened it. Seeing a slightly peeved Neji waiting outside, he groaned. "What do you want?"
The Hyuuga huffed and said, "I'm saving your ass from a very big thrashing from Sakura thank you."
Puzzled Naruto questioned, "What?"
"It's their engagement party."
"Oh." A pause was issued, then. "WHAT!"
Neji sighed and wondered why he was still friends with this imbecile. "It's Sakura and Sasuke's engagement party. Don't tell me you didn't read your mail yesterday?"
"Hold on, are you telling me that Sasuke and Sakura are engaged!"
"Yes."
Naruto promptly fell down onto the floor.
After an hour of dressing and dragging, Naruto and Neji were finally at the front of the Uchiha residence.
"I still don't believe you" Naruto stated, disbelieving that Sasuke would betray him like this.
"They are." The Pearl-Eyed boy answered calmly.
"But-"
"Oh, there they are, ask them yourself."
Naruto looked up and saw Sakura and Sasuke holding hands and welcoming others. He felt as if someone punched him in the stomach. Still he calmly walked towards Sakura and greeted her, "Hey Sakura!"
"Naruto, you're late!" Sakura scolded him with a teasing smile, "You know this might Kakashi Sensei's influence."
Like always, the silver haired Jounin appeared out of nowhere. "I heard someone say my name…"
"Kakashi Sensei!" Naruto and Sakura exclaimed in union.
"Congratulations on your engagement Sasuke, Sakura." Kakashi nodded and smiled.
When Naruto heard those words Naruto's world came crashing down. He stood there like a deer in headlights.
"Naruto? Are you alright?" Sakura asked, concerned.
Quickly Naruto pasted on him mask and grinned at Sakura. "Nah, nothing's wrong. I was just feeling a bit of a tummy-ache coming on. You know, with all that ramen." Naruto sneaked a glance at Sasuke.
Sasuke just stood there, his face frozen. Not a single emotion flickered in his face; he didn't seem like a man who was just engaged. He seemed like a man whose execution date was just decided.
"Anyways, congrats Sakura. You finally got what you were chasing after for all these years." Naruto gave her a wink and turned to Sasuke "You too, asshole. Treat her well." Naruto shook his hand.
Sasuke gripped Naruto's hand. "I need to talk to you."
Wide-eyed, Naruto looked at Sasuke; tears forming in his eyes. He whispered, "No."
Gritting his teeth, he commanded quietly, "Yes, you will."
"Let go of me. Then I will go." Naruto jerked his hand free.
"Come." Sasuke walked off, with Naruto following reluctantly.
The crowd before looked dumbfounded at the internal battle between Naruto and Sasuke.
Sakura giggled nervously, and said, "Sasuke said he wanted to have some time with Naruto to talk about the Best Man position and all."
With that comment said, the crowd relaxed and resumed their chattering. Strained, but nonetheless the atmosphere returned once more to its cheery demeanour. Only Sakura and Kakashi continued to contemplate about what happened between the two young men only a few seconds before.
"What did you bring me here for?" Naruto hissed at the dark haired man, when his question met with silence he frowned and said. "Sakura's waiting for us." For you, he added silently.
Sasuke said nothing, but his dark granite eyes burned almost painfully into Naruto's face. Naruto shivered under the force of his gaze, and stated, "I'm leaving, excuse me."
As Naruto turned, Sasuke's hand shot out and grabbed the blonde's arm. "We need to talk."
"There is nothing to be said." Naruto plainly stated.
"Yes there is. You don't understand." Despite the almost desperate wording, Sasuke seemed unfazed by the entire situation. His eyes were still as cold as ever, his face not showing a single emotion.
A few moments passed as both men stood in silence, staring at each other, not moving a single inch. Sasuke still hasn't removed his hand from Naruto's arm. The heat and weight soaked into the Kyubi's skin, reminding him of what might have been, could have been. Clawing away at Naruto's heart; eyes burning with salty tears, the Kyubi stubbornly willed them away.
"I love you Sasuke. Or, rather, I thought I have."
The tears began to fall, but Naruto looked up wilfully at the now shocked man. Images of Sasuke and Sakura; holding each other, kissing each other, loving each other, they all flickered past. Breaking Naruto's heart even more with each image, Naruto pictured Sakura with a child, Sasuke's child, and the pain was all too much to bear. It was the one thing that Naruto could never give Sasuke, no matter how much love he offers the dark-eyed man. No matter how much love he gives the Uchiha, he can never bear Sasuke an heir. He can never fulfil the one wish of Sasuke; the one wish of reviving the Uchiha Clan. Naruto knew that, but the truth was all too bitter.
Naruto looked up and offered Sasuke a weak smile, "I understand you know. I understand why you chose Sakura." Naruto chuckled humourlessly, "I mean, she's beautiful, and she'll give you a lovely heir. One smart and brave, just like you Sasuke."
Sasuke's eyes softened, and he gently patted the shorter man's head. Just like how he used to, and said softly, "I'm sorry Naruto."
"Don't be, I shouldn't have fallen in love with you anyways. It's just that I wished that you could have just stopped me earlier, so I wouldn't have fallen in love with you so much." With that, Naruto pasted on a cheerful smile and straightened his back, "But one last thing, could you…just give me one last kiss?"
Sasuke nodded slightly, and he held Naruto's face in his hands. Kissing Naruto sweetly, knowing that it would probably be the last. The tears kept running down Naruto's cheeks, twin rivers flowing steadily down. It was a magical moment. Their last moment together as lovers.
Love is a funny thing.
As Naruto broke away, he quickly turned and walked back into the living room and out of Sasuke's life.
Sasuke just stood, still relishing the warmth of Naruto within his arms, and found that something was irritating his eye, for one single tear was flowing down his cheek.
The rest of the night passed uneventfully, except for when Naruto spilled a drink onto Sasuke's lap and a short uncomfortable pause ensued.
At the end of the night, as Sasuke was retiring. He saw a flash of red hair. Rushing out of bed and downstairs, he saw a familiar yet uninvited face on his front porch.
"Gaara, what are you doing here?" Sasuke spat at the pale man.
"Asking you something." Gaara stated in monotone.
"What?"
"You are marrying Sakura, correct?"
Sasuke sighed, "Correct."
"So does this mean you have no feelings of affection whatsoever to Naruto?"
Sasuke's sharingan flared, "What does that have to do with anything?"
Gaara smirked and stated, "I'll take that as a yes."
A gust of wind blew by and Gaara promptly disappeared.
Head swirling with confusion. Sasuke decided to leave upstairs and sleep the night, or what's left of it, away.
The next day, Sasuke climbed sluggishly out of bed and found a letter upon his dining table, the one which he and Naruto had once shared a fierce coupling. Skimming the kanji, in which seemed to have been written while the authors hand has been shaking fiercely. He read the letter once, and twice, and again, and again.
He whispered, "Naruto…"
Slamming the door and running as fast as he could towards the one apartment he visited during those sleepless nights. Once he reached there, he slammed on the door.
"Naruto!" He yelled, "Open up!"
After a few minutes of yelling, Sasuke kicked the door open, and found that the entire room was empty. Dizzy with dread, he collapsed onto the bed. Inhaling the scent in which he smelled after he was spent. The scent of mint mixed with a spice; the scent, of Naruto. Clutching the sheets, he remembered the many times where he made Naruto cry out in ecstasy on this very bed.
Tears started to run down his cheeks, as his eyes turned red, only not with the sharingan anymore. But with the pain of no longer being able to see the one that he cherished the most.
He choked, and then whispered to himself, as the person who he wants this to be heard, is no longer here.
"I do." He sobbed, "I do love you Naruto."
Dear Sasuke,
I'm off with Gaara now. I probably won't be seeing you ever again, not until I can actually face you. Don't feel guilty; it's not really your fault. I fell in love with you. You didn't force me to right?
You know Sasuke? It's funny. I've always sat there with you, hoping that you would learn to love me. Even if it's just a little bit of feeling towards me. But I guess, that's impossible right?
Well, since I'm leaving now. You don't have to worry about me anymore. I guess, it is goodbye. But you'll get over it I'm sure. I mean you're getting married!
I'll try to get over my love for you too. Gaara is really nice to me. So both of us will have to work hard hm?
Best wishes,
Naruto
P.S. Tell the gang that I'll miss them and that we might meet again, someday.
Well, how's that for a first go? Haha, please do R&R. It's what keeps us authors alive. My first attempt in the Naruto and Yaoi Fandom, so please be gentle. ;;;;
Constructive Criticism is much appreciated. Please tell me whether I should continue or crawl back to whatever hole I came from.
Hitaki