I was at a point in my life where I was rebellious, and didn't care what anyone thought about me, let alone Jesus.
I would drink alcohol and start fights, using the drink as an excuse.
I grew angry with everything and ignored any advice anyone gave me.
Before I knew it, shame and guilt overcame me when I realised my behaviour and how many people I had hurt both physically and emotionally.
I remembers several years ago I had become a Christian, and asked the lord to take my life in His hands.
Shame was my only emotion and I realised I had sinned against God too.
I walked along a road one night, in the early hours.
I passed a small church with a crucifix at the front.
I looked at His face and sorrowful eyes, and noticed the wounds in His hands and feet.
Shaking, I fell to my knees and bowed my head at His holy feet and confessed my shame and guilt. I pleaded he forgive me and take my guilt and sins away.
"Please!" I cried, "please take my sins away. I beg for mercy, please!"
Then I sobbed and sobbed, asking Him to take control my life again and to hold onto me, even if my grip slipped as I was weighed down by sin.
A loving hand was gently placed on my shaking shoulder, comforting me.
After calming down, I eventually turned round to see my comforter.
It was Jesus.
My heart almost stopped as I remembered what I had done, and I bowed my head, unable to look at His wonderful face.
"Son…what did I do all those years ago?" He asked, His hand still on my shoulder.
"Died on the cross?" I responded, still not looking up.
"Yes. Now why do you think I did that?" Jesus asked me.
I sobbed.
"So we could be forgiven for our sins?"
His grip tightened as answered,
"Yes. I love you, and you have remembered my gift to you, and have accepted it. You have just humbled yourself before me, for you know your shame and guilt. You asked forgiveness and I am giving it to you. Do you understand? I forgive you!" He stressed, making me look at Him.
"Oh lord!" I chocked, hugging him tightly.
He sighed and hugged me back.
Then, when I was truly comforted, He slowly vanished.
But I knew He was still there.