Chapter 1 – Getting to know you

I always thought if asked I would say I was straight, all though I had never found the thought of being with another guy off putting. I had just never met a guy I liked in that way, not when if a particularly hot girl came in to my place of work I the great Axel would suddenly become little more than a moron with a two-digit IQ if that . I'll admit to losing my head and no longer being able to form coherent sentences, and I had never had the same happen to me with a member of my own gender, so I guess I just assumed I was straight. That was until I meet him.

Roxas. I'd known of him for quite a while, he was that friend of Zexion, the slate haired boy-friend of my best mate Demyx, that always hung out with the twilight town crowd with the really eccentric brother, but we had never spoken. Of course I had seen him around we would do the polite smile and nod before walking the opposite direction and if Zexion was with us he would stop to talk to him. While me and Demyx goofed around in the background until Zexy would get embarrassed by are behaviour and would drag us of promising to talk to Roxas in their English lecture at the university we all attended. I realise now if I had bothered to pay attention even once during these conversations I would have found Roxas to be cute, no that's the wrong word adorably sexy? If there is such a thing, but I had never paid much attention to him. So I gave him little to no thought. Something I regret now I might add.

As I was saying I hadn't paid much attention to the young blond, until Demyx in his infinite wisdom decided to throw a party, being one of the lucky ones to have his parents live close to his chosen uni while at the same time they were one of the cool parents who wouldn't mind leave for an evening, while at the same time giving the blonde permission to have parties that bordered on epic. Of course he also invited Roxas which I assuming was pretty obvious at this point. Said party was when I had my first proper conversation with Blonde and also when I feel hard for him.

It was getting close to midnight when it happened. I had long since left sobriety behind although I wasn't what you would call wasted. In short I was tipsy. I wish I could say I say I sauntered in to the kitchen of Demyx house acting as if I owned it, I had been there often enough that I could have been mistaken for owning it, what can I say I'm a sucker for his mum's cooking. I also had the habit of sauntering pretty much everywhere. The only thing more arrogant then my walk was my mouth as Demyx is often nice enough to point out. On this particular occasion caused by drink and an overly frisky Larxene who just wouldn't take no for an answer (I mean how many times do I have to say no before she gets the message), I stumbled into the kitchen to be meet with the small blonde boy giving me a look that just said he was finding my suffering amusing. "Relax, I saw her talking to that pink haired guy she'll leave you alone, for now at least" he said not even trying to hide a laugh. I shot him a look of indignation, how dare he laugh at my pain this of course only caused him to chuckle more before coming over to put a comforting hand on my shoulder. "It's okay she scares me to and half the population of the planet" he said before moving away to sit on the counter casually sipping from the beer in his hand. "Your Roxas right Zexy's friend?" I asked though of course I knew the answer as I grabbed a bear and sat on the floor by his legs just glad to finally sit down and not have to worry about Larxene.

So there you go that's how it all started. I found him in the kitchen and we talked and talked as if we had been friends for years and not minutes and as cliché as it sounds we just clicked. It's funny I act so confident all the time but I don't get on with many people and it takes a long time for me to consider a person a friend. So it is a rare person that can have me going from stranger to wanting to spill my deepest darkest secrets. It wasn't until the next morning when everyone but me Demyx and Zexion had left that I realised that even after one night I missed the blond and that I had fallen hard for him.

The next week was one of the most confusing of my young life I thought about the blond constantly. I found myself taking about him even when I wasn't aware I was doing. I decided I had to tell Demyx and Zexion about my little crush in the hopes that they would tell me that he had three toes or a tail or anything, so I would snap out of this damn crush and go back to being the awesome Axel of before, the one without a stupid school girl crush. What they did tell me was in many ways worse than if they had told any of those things.

I haven't been entirely truthful with you up till now. I'm not good at the whole relationship thing if I can keep a person for a month without dumping her I would set a new record of the longest I managed to stay in a relationship, which is a little bit worrying but I can't help it. What a line I know it's me it's my fault I am scared of commitment.

This is why what Zexion told me was so terrible. Roxas was worse than I was. I had already decided that if Roxas in anyway returned my feelings I would work on my commitment issues a life spent without the blonde friend even if only a friend seemed pointless. So to find out the blonde contrary to appearances would sleep with someone once then sneak out in the morning or evening if easier without another word was a blow. On the plus side if I hadn't let my fear (yes, fear) of rejection from the young blonde my name could have easily been added to the one-night stand list. Yay for me.

I had already set plans in motion that would bring me in to contact with Roxas again, like I said I week was too long to be without him yea I had it bad. So, I needed a plan to convince him that we belonged together, and that I was worth re-wiring that sexy little brain of his.

I always get what I want. Right now what I want is Roxas. I would have to be more devious then I had ever been if was going to succeed.