Okay this is my first fic like this and well I'm a little worried and I want to know what you guys think. Please don't leave me hanging I would love to know how I could make it better. Oh and I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho.

The times where hard and things never seemed so bleak. The girl sat on her bed and thought back on all the things that has lead up to this moment in her life.

Flash Back

The stars where high over her head as she lie in the grass the pain shooting through her body. A evil laughter floating on the air reached her ears and made her flinch. The dark pricing eyes stared right through her battered body as she cried. The fact of what just happened to her burned in her mind. He spoke to her in a sick stomach twisting way.

"You know, that was fun. Not half bad either." He leaded over her naked form and grabbed her face forcing her to look him in his heartless eyes. He spoke in a dark tone "You're mine now." The statement made her skin crawl. Then he took a kiss as if to complete his sick torment.

Then he was gone with inhuman speed. His sick laughter still floating on the air. "You're mine now." The words played over and over in her head. She could still feel him, his hands on her body. The feeling of him violating her.

She cried out in pain as she tried to move. Hours past and she couldn't do anything but think about what just happened. The bastard raped her and then left her in the middle of no where. As she slipped out of the waking world she thought she heard a voice and feared the worst that he'd come back of more.

Present Time

The memory bought tears to her eyes. Rage and hatred towards that man flooded her thoughts. How she hated that man with all that she was. He took her life and now she lives like this because of him. She never told anyone that she had been raped. She lives with the scars on her heart, body and mind.

She hates all of it. She fills herself with one thing and one thing only. Hatred. She had been trying to track this demon down for months now. She finally found him. She plans on killing him. Just as she gets off the bed and stands she's shoved back down.

She knows these hands. In a split second her hands are restrained and those dark eyes are staring right at her. He speaks and the voice is the same as it was that night. "Hello dear. Did you miss me?" She was scared out of her mind and she look him in those cold heartless eyes and mustered the words and forced them to be spoken.

"No you sick bastard I didn't and don't." "Why so cold sweety?" He asks this in a teasing manner. "I don't know maybe because you raped me and your back!" "Oh that? HAHAHA that was nothing girl." That sick laughter again it made her flinch and it makes him laugh even harder.

"I know you've been tracking me." At this her eyes widen. "It's been funny to. You know if you're going to track some one" He leans down to her ear "you should be a little more discreet about it." He says the last part in a low whisper. " Now do you remember what I told you that night?"She replies slowly. "No."

She remembers what was said that night though she wishes she didn't. He pulls his head back to look her in the eyes. "No? Sweety, I told you you're mine. Can you tell me what that means?" Still teasing her she feels the tears coming, but she wills them back. "No." He looks at her and sees the fear in her pink eyes. He smiles a sick smile and says in a low dark voice laced with lust.

"It means I get to take your pretty little body anytime I want." She tries to kick him at this but misses. He laughs darkly at her attempt to try and stop him. "Now, now we can't have you doing that, now can we?" The question was to himself. He grabs her legs in his other hand and drags her off the bed and on to the floor. "GET OFF ME!!"

The scream goes unheard and he flashes a dark glance at her as he restrains her and stops all her movements. She lies on the floor things racing though her head trying to find one thing she could do. He speaks and her thoughts stop at his words. "There's nothing you can do my dear." Tears slip from her eyes as she feels his free hand undress her.

Her mind screams out at the thoughts of what's to come. Her body thrashes as she tries to get free. But he only tightens his grip on her. "You know Botan the more you struggle the more this is going to hurt." Her clothing is no longer covering her body and she is bare once again. He looks her over and she sees it.

He mumbles something to himself and. "AHHHH" The blue haired deity springs into the siting position. Her body covered in sweat and her face pure white. I young boy comes barging into the room "Botan are you alright?!" The worry clear in his words as well as on his face "Yes Yusuke I'm fine." "What happened? Are you sure you're ok?" She answers him in a reassuring tone. "I'm ok it was just a bad dream that's all."

The boy gives her a worried look and then walks away. She sits up in the bed and recalls the dream she had it was all so real, so vivid like it had really happened. She looks her body over she's dressed in her nightgown and she see no signs that the dream was true but she comes across old scars from the real thing. The time that she had been raped.

Okay guys I know this may confuse some, it kinda gets me to and I'm the one that wrote it so the dream starts at "Just as she gets off the bed and stands she's shoved back down." That's when the dream part starts. I really hope you guys like it. I'm kinda thinking about making it a chapter story but that would depend on you guys. So please R&R let me know if you want me to keep going or not.