Will and Walter and a decision

by Estraine

"Will und Walter und eine Entscheidung" in English. Will's thoughts while talking to Walther for the last time, well at least the last time as far as we know. Many thanks to my marvelous sister (another-maggie) who helped me with the translation (I would have been far too lazy to do it on my own).

He's talking to him. The son, the boy he would have liked to be his son.

Not a boy with his genes. Not a boy, who will inherit something from him – unknowingly -, that he doesn't want to see again in this world.

It is clear that the dream of having a family is over.
Maybe it was just that. A dream. Like Abigail. Like Hannibal. Like his dogs.

Everything falters so quickly when reality invades, comes knocking at the doors. All this "sicknesses" in the world he collects and soon recognizes within himself. All that will not fit into the fairytale. All that should never come close.

It waits. It waited. Hannibal let it out. Will let it out. Jack, Jack let it out. Knowingly.

Walter isn't stupid. Walter is one of those kids that listen and pay attention. Walter wants to know his mother is safe. He payed attention and he learned. He knows that Will's past isn't easy. He knows that his mother almost died. He thinks there might be a connexion.

Walter wants Will to show him that he is able to take good care of his mother. But now he failed.

And he's failing again. He knows. He says to Walther he won't kill the person, who hurt his mother and he knows. He says he'll capture the man and put him in a hospital for the mad and he knows.

„You should kill him", Walter says, short and dry.
Who do you mean, Will thinks. The red dragon?

Or... Will himself? Will, who killed someone, too. Will, who was treated at a hospital for the mad, too. Will, who came to Molly and Walter. Will, who came and put them into danger?

Will, with the dark side. Will, with all the enemies and restless thoughts. Will.

He should die. You should have died. The dragon or Will? Two of a kind.

At least, in the eyes of a child.

And Will? Will makes a decision. A decision that's been waiting. Looming.

He will leave them alone. He will take care of the danger he brought to them.
Especially the danger that is him. And then he will leave them alone.

It was nice, having a dream.

Something stirs, inside of him, raises its head, blinks. Time to wake up.

Part of him missed this.

In Will? The calm before the storm.
The storm will take the dragon. The storm will take Will. The storm will take Hannibal, too.

1, 2, 3... Ready or not, here I come! Who wants to play with me?