Dahl's Sorrow
When I took this job, I was beyond desperate. My wife, Elena and my daughter, Elenor, are counting on me. I hold no hope that Lord Felbrigg will be open to our pleas. I have no choice but to do what I must for us to survive. I cannot lose them.
I had no choice but to beg for my life. Seeing my comrades thrown overboard and slashed to ribbons can be a very compelling argument for surrender. The dragon-like elf approaching me struck fear into my heart, not for myself, but for my family. If I am killed, my family is done for. Nothing will stop Lord Felbrigg from imprisoning them. My wife is the strongest person I know, and I know that she will not fear being confined, but my beloved daughter has no defense, a lamb to the slaughter to the lust and rage of men. This thought alone spurs me to beg for my life. I only pray it is not in vain.
I have been given a new hope, a new perspective on this life I live. I now have hope that my family will be safe, and taken care of. Caitlin and her group of fighters have given me a second chance, a chance to serve a higher power, a chance for a brighter future for my family. Working for the church is much less weighing on my heart than pilaging from helpless ships and travelers. I also have hope that Caitlin will be able to save my family. With Bahamut on her side, I have no doubt she can accomplish anything.
I feel empty, a hollow shell with nothing to live for. When Caitlin told me what happened, I didn't believe her. She assured me they would be safe! They had to be alive! If anyone should have been killed it should have been me! What purpose do I have now? My beautiful wife is dead, and my pride and joy, my reason for living, my sweet daughter lives no more. I should not be here. I should be with them. I should have died on that ship with the rest of those pirates. What is there for me to live for, besides this pitiful life I have made for myself. There is no way to atone for this. I must do something.
I have planned it all out. I will rent a room at the inn where no one will disturb me. I must do this myself, without the interference of those who would stop me. I have all the ingredients for the poison ready. As one last luxury before leaving this world and joining my beloved, I have decided to have one last meal the way she used to make it. As I started to leave the bakery, I saw Caitlin's group come in. It is strange that she is absent, but no doubt she is dealing with pressing matters. As I reached the door, I overhear them talking of going to the North, in search of an item with which to fight the Demon Baron's forces. I am conflicted. I had resigned myself to death, to joining my wife and daughter in paradise. What would they say if they knew what I was going to do? No doubt they would try and stop me at all cost's, but what other choice do I have? I think of Caitlin, and of what she told me about her past. She has survived, and moved on despite all the sorrow and loneliness. Perhaps there is another way for me to leave this world, and to repay her kindness. I approach them with an offer of help, while praying my death in battle comes soon. May I see you soon my loves.
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