this is my first teen titans yuri story, so bear with me. StarXRae I have already finished the third chapter, but I'll only put it up once I think I've gotten enough reviews. thanks :)

Chapter 1

Jealousy and Girl Time

Song: Solitude by Evanescence

"She's so amazing Star. She has the most beautiful voice, eyes that you can stare into forever..but she's so hard to talk to sometimes. I wish that she would open up more to me you know? I know that I love her, but she hasn't even said "I love you" yet... " Robin went on and on about how much he loved Raven, the most dark and mysterious of all the titans. It was nothing that Star hadn't heard before. Out of all the titans, why did she have to be the one that he talked to?

"Robin?"

"Yea?"

"Why do you talk to me about such things that I will never begin to understand?"

"You're like a sister to me Star..you know that."

"Yes, but even so, I have never been in a relationship. Perhaps you could talk to Raven about it? I cannot guarantee that my advice would be the best, and that it would even be helpful to you.."

But even as she spoke, she knew that was not what she wanted to say. Robin had been going out with Raven for some time now, and he had continued coming to her for advice. Star knew how she really felt about their relationship. I'm jealous she told herself.

"It's not just your advice that I seek. I need someone to talk to."

She stood up and sighed.

"Talk to someone else." With that, she flew out of his room and down the hall to her own. When she arrived at her own door, she stepped inside and slammed it shut. She slid down to the floor, shaking her head.

"What's wrong with me?" you know what's wrong with you. you're jealous. She stood, rubbing her left arm.

"That must be it. I'm jealous." She sat down on her bed and looked over at a picture of her and Raven together. She smiled to herself at someone she would never be able to have. she's taken. she doesn't like you. she's not like you..heck, is anyone like me? She stood and walked into the bathroom.

"I shouldn't have treated friend Robin like that." She walked over to the tub and turned the water on. maybe a bath

will calm my nerves. She stripped off her clothes and stepped in. She leaned back and closed her eyes. why me?

How many times have you told me you love her
As many times as I wanted to tell you the truth
How long have I stood here beside you
I live through you, You looked through me

Her eyes opened as she sighed. Is it normal for a girl to like another girl? It sure feels normal.. She opened a bottle of shampoo and squeezed some into her hands before applying it to her head. She had kept to herself lately more than usual. She had stopped her attempt at cooking, since everyone seemed disgusted by traditional tamaranian foods. everyone from my home planet loved my cooking..were they just lying? She grabbed a cup, filling it with water before dumping it over her head. Water and soap ran down her face as she looked into the mirror in front of her. Her eyes were green, her hair orange. She studied herself for a long time. what is wrong with me? Besides avoiding cooking, she tried to avoid contact with Raven. But every time they came face to face, she would look down at the ground. She had to banish her feelings for her. Robin is hers now. She knew that she would never be what he was to her. She loves him...

Ooh, Solitude,
Still with me is only you
Ooh, Solitude,
I can't stay away from you

She dried herself off, brushed her hair, and put on her usual purple suit before stepping out into the hallway. Each step she took seemed to only get slower as she neared Raven's room. Her destination, the kitchen, seemed further away. After what seemed like an eternity, she arrived at the refrigerator. She opened the door and looked inside. hm...milk, eggs, tofu? The usual..

"Starfire?"

"AHHHHHH!" Starfire dashed underneath the table, peeking out. Raven stood there with her hands on her hips and an eyebrow raised.

"I eee...was..uhhhh.."

"Hungry?" Raven finished.

She let out a long sigh. "Yes, I was.."

"I just wanted to let you know that I was about to head out to the store...you want to come with?"

Starfire burst out from underneath the table and squeezed Raven "Oh yes! I would love to go with you on this journey in which we gather food!"

What happened to 'avoiding' her?

"Um...Starfire?"

"Yes?"

"Could you stop squeezing me? I feel like my boobs are going to pop."

"Oh.." She released her, their faces turning red. Robin walked in behind Raven and wrapped his arms around her, planting kisses on her neck. Both of their smiles turned upside down almost instantly.

How many times have I done this to myself
How long will it take before I see
When will this hole in my heart be mended
Who now is left alone but me

"Can we talk in your room for a sec?" He whispered in her ear.

"Sure." They walked off, leaving her alone once again. They walked into Raven's room. Robin locked the door behind him and they sat on her bed.

"What did you want to talk to me about?"

Robin looked deeply into her eyes.

"You." She looked down at the ground, but Robin tilted her chin up at him.

"Don't you love me anymore?" When she didn't answer, he pulled her down on top of him and kissed her passionately, his tongue moving through her mouth. She pulled back and glared down at him when his hands started to make their way to the zipper on her back.

"What? Don't you want this?"

She sighed "You practically forced me into this last night..and besides, someone would catch us.."

"No, the door is locked."

"Oh.." There went one excuse...

"Besides, I have to go to the store..I asked Star if she wanted to come with me and-"

"Can't it wait till later? Please?" He gave her the puppy dog look, but she ignored it.

"She's waiting on me.." She got up, walked out, and slammed the door.

Robin stared off into space, trying to figure out what he did wrong.

Ooh, Solitude,
Forever me and forever you
Ooh, Solitude,
Only you, only true

Star looked over at Raven when she stormed through the kitchen, grabbing her cloak and putting it on.

"Friend Raven, I must ask you. What is it that is wrong?

everything's wrong.

She took her hand and led her out the door "Nothing star..nothing.."

Instead of flying, they walked to the store in silence. She would glance over at Raven once in awhile. She wanted to ask her the question she had asked earlier, but could she do it?

"Raven?"

"Hm?"

"I know that there must have been something troubling you earlier and-"

"There was nothing."

Star frowned, looking down at her feet as they walked. Why does she always cut people off like that?

Raven sighed. "It's Robin.. He's been acting- he just expects me to do anything he wants that I do not want...and"

She stopped walking and sighed. "I don't think I love him anymore. He really has been pressuring me from the beginning. I thought it was love..but.. I knew that I loved someone else all along.."

Everyone leaves me stranded
Forgotten, abandoned, left behind
I can't stay here another night
Your secret admirer
Who could it be

"Oh Raven.." She threw her arms around her, this time giving her a not so boob-popping hug. "I cannot imagine the pain you must be going through. Please, you must tell me all about it!" She grabbed her hand and rushed her over to a bench where they sat in silence.

Raven?"

"Yes?"

"Why did you ask me to come shopping with you? I mean..you never do such things..ever..and well.."

Raven sighed. "It's just that..." -long pause- "After everything that has been going on with me and Robin, I wanted to get out of the tower..and..I wanted you to come with me to have some..girl time.."

Starfire gasped "oh Raven! This is most delightful! We shall go to the mall of shopping!"

"Um.. Starfire... you're squeezing me again.."

"Oh.." She let go of her.

"and besides..we can't really call it the 'mall of shopping' if we're not going to the mall, now can we?"

She frowned "I guess you're right.."

Raven smiled "But..we could always do that tomorrow, and get our shopping done tonight."

"Really!"

"Um..you really need to stop with the hugging now.."

"Oh..sorry..." She let go of her, Raven taking her hand. She gasped from surprise. They stood and made their way to the store.

Ooh, Can't you see
All along it was me
How can you be so blind
As to see right through me

And Ooh, Solitude,
Still with me is only you
Ooh, Solitude,
I can't stay away from you

Ooh, Solitude,
Forever me and forever you
Ooh, Solitude,
Only you, only true