A/N: I'm just desperate to get this idea out of my head. Hope you enjoy. Does take place in Transformers Prime.

Disclaimer: I do not own Transformers. Only Hasbro. I only own my characters.

past

"I'm so glad that I found you Graph," said Ratchet.

"Me too Ratchet," said Graph.

The slender and sleek silver and green femme snuggled into Ratchet. The orange and white medic held her close. They stared up at the sky above them, filled with stars. Graph sighed and looked up into those beautiful blue optics that held so much. Ratchet looked down at her and kissed her gently. He loved this femme with all his spark. Their bonding ceremony was coming up. He couldn't wait to raise a family with this perfect jewel.

"I love you so much Graph," said Ratchet. "I may not be around much due to school and hospital work, but I will always remain with you."

"Awe, Ratchet. I love you too," said Graph.

~~~ a few days later

Ratchet stormed into his home. He had just caught his future mate with one of the Prime's guards. He even proposed to her and she accepted. Ratchet didn't know what he did wrong. Did she not love him anymore? Is he just worth nothing in her optics? Ratchet started to throw things and even shattered the crystal he had gotten her. He just couldn't take the pain of it.

The orange and white medic slumped against the nearest wall and slid down to the ground. He brought his knees to his chest and rested his elbows on them, holding his head as tears came to his optics. His spark felt like it had been stabbed over and over again when he saw them kiss after the proposal. He remembered it so well.

Ratchet headed out of the Hall of Records. He had just complete six assignments in a few hours. Orion was gladly to get any datapads he would need. He walked through the park, the fastest way to the domain. He couldn't wait to see his future mate. The medic turned a corner and his spark stopped at the sight. His future mate was being proposed by one of the Prime's guards.

"Graph, will you take this and become my loving mate?" asked the guard.

"Oh Sunburst, I will," said Graph and took his present. It was a purple crystal.

Sunburst stood up, the sun glinting off his black and green armor. He pulled Graph into a kiss and held it there. Ratchet felt like he was going to purge. Graph noticed him and broke the kiss quickly. Sunburst also looked at the CMO and pulled Graph closer to him. Graph looked shock and terrified at the same time. Ratchet glared at her before walking away. He didn't see the hurt look that Graph had.

Ratchet blinked away the memory. Tears slid down his face and dripped down to his chest. He shook hard as he cried in angst and sorrow. He loved her so much, with all his spark. But she didn't love him back. Ratchet let out a small cry, showing how much pain he was in.

A soft knock came from the door. Ratchet wiped away the tears and stood up. He opened the door and smiled at the sight of Megatronus, Orion's mate. Megatronus looked past Ratchet at the destruction and then to the distraught medic.

"Ratchet, is everything alright?" asked Megatronus.

"No things aren't. I just caught my future... ex-future mate with one of the Prime's guard. He proposed and she took it," said Ratchet, fresh tears appearing.

"That must hurt a ton. I just heard things breaking and came to see if things were okay," said Megatronus.

"Thank you Megatronus for checking up on me," said Ratchet.

"You are welcome. Come, I'm sure Orion would want you over for dinner," said Megatronus and lead the medic away from the destroyed home.

Ratchet followed Megatronus and arrived shortly at the smaller house. Megatronus opened the door and greeted Orion with a kiss. Orion saw Ratchet and greeted him with a hug. Ratchet hugged the sparked mech back and smiled.

"You look terrible Ratchet. Did something happen?" asked Orion.

"I'm ending my relationship with Graph. She's with one of the Prime's guards now," was all Ratchet said.

~~~000

Graph made it back to Ratchet's domain. She opened the door and saw the destruction left behind. She saw the broken crystal on the ground in the center of it all. Next to it was the bracelet Ratchet made for her. Engraved on it was GxR forever until the end. Tears swelled up in her optics. She picked up the bracelet and held it close to her spark. The look of betrayal on Ratchet's face when he saw her was devastating.

"Graph?" Sunburst asked. "Wow, he must be really upset."

"You think I hurt him badly?" asked Graph.

"I'm sure you did. But was he ever really there for you?" asked Sunburst. "You told me yourself that he was hardly home. He leaves you to sleep alone at nights."

"Yes, but I didn't want him to find out that way. Especially since our bond ceremony was coming up in a few weeks," said Graph.

"Come on, let's go home," said Sunburst.

Graph nodded and turned around. She jumped at the sight of Ratchet in the doorway. His caring look had hardened. Graph looked away.

"What are you doing here?" Ratchet demanded.

"I just came to say goodbye. I know that you hurt. But you just weren't home as often as I wanted you to be. I often slept alone. I'm sorry but it can't continue. You just aren't there physically very often," Graph whispered. "I didn't want you to find out this way."

"Get out of here. I don't ever want to see you again," Ratchet growled.

Sunburst and Graph left. Ratchet shut the door and started to clean up the mess.

~~~000

News spread quickly of Sunburst and Graph at their bonding ceremony. Ratchet became stoic and emotionless. His assistant First Aid was worried about his teacher. Even Knock Out was afraid of the CMO. They were one of the few who knew the truth about Ratchet's change. Ratchet finished up school and came out on top out of all of Cybertron. He got the highest score by a few thousand points. No one would be able to beat him.

First Aid and Knock Out studied under him to learn all that they can. Eventually Breakdown joined as Knock Out's assistant in the medical field. The two made quite a pair. Sadly Knock Out was moved to Kaon as the gladiators' medic with Breakdown. Ratchet was sad to see one of his students leave him.

The hospital was quite busy that night. Ill mechs and femmes came in. Others just to spark their children. Even Graph came in with an illness. Ratchet didn't wish to help her but he had to. It was part of his duty as a medic to help those. He stood out of the room and prepared himself. He knocked and opened the door. Graph laid on the berth with Sunburst next to her, stroking her helm and holding her hand.

"What seems to be the problem?" Ratchet asked, medic mode taking over but no emotion to it.

"She's purging one minute and the next spark pains and high temperatures," said Sunburst.

"Let me see her," said Ratchet.

Sunburst backed away and allowed Ratchet to scan his mate. Ratchet sent the results to the datapad nearby and looked them over. It was not good.

"I'll be back," said Ratchet and left.

Graph tensed up as more pain came. Sunburst went back to her side.

"Don't worry. The medics know what they are doing," said Sunburst.

"It's not that. It still hurts to see him like this. He was always showing emotion and now he isn't," said Graph.

"He'll get over it eventually," said Sunburst.

They waited for a while before Ratchet came back in with First Aid and a tray of supplies that he will need. First Aid read over the datapad and looked back at Ratchet with a scared look. Ratchet just merely nodded at his assistant and got his servos cleaned. Sunburst moved to Graph's head and stayed there.

"So what's going on?" asked Sunburst.

"She has a severe illness and that isn't good for the sparklings," said Ratchet.

"Sparklings? No she can't get sparked. Her last exam said that she was unable to reproduce," said Sunburst.

"I know. That's what confuses me. It's a true miracle that she carries triplets," said Ratchet, no emotion to his voice.

"Sir, I got things ready," First Aid reported.

"Good work First Aid. Wipe down her neck, back, then arm in that order. I'll inject the medicine into her," said Ratchet.

First Aid grabbed a sterilize cloth and cleaned the areas his teacher told him to. Ratchet grabbed the first needle with a blue-green liquid and searched for the right tube on her neck. Graph hissed in pain when the needle was injected into her neck, feeling cool liquid travel down the tubing. Ratchet continued to inject medicine into the cleaned areas. First Aid wrote some things down and scanned the femme's vitals.

Ratchet asked Sunburst and First Aid to leave. He needed to do some stuff. Sunburst hesitantly left his mate's side and out to the waiting room down the hall. Ratchet scanned the femme he once loved to make sure that things were working. Graph just watched Ratchet and studied his optics. She saw betrayal and hurt in them.

"Why are you helping me?" Graph suddenly asked.

"I help those who need it. You're no different," Ratchet's monotone voice answered.

"I hurt you so much yet you are willing to help me. I'm so sorry for what I did to you," said Graph.

"It doesn't matter now. The damage has already been done and can't be fixed, ever," said Ratchet.

"You loved me with all your spark and I betrayed you. I just felt so lonely without you," Graph whispered before going silent.

Ratchet just ignored the last comment. He wasn't going to love anymore. He didn't want to hurt anymore. After what Graph did to him, he wasn't sure if he will return to his normal side. Ratchet finished up with Graph and called Sunburst back in. The mech pulled the chair closer to his mate and stayed with her.

"She'll be able to leave in a few days. We need to have the medicine work," said Ratchet and left.

The CMO made his way down to more patients that he was assigned to. A small youngling laid on the berth in the last room down the hall. Ratchet took the datapad hanging on the wall outside the room and walked in, reading it over. He looked at the tan and purple mechling. His parents sat next to him with worried looks.

"Alright Grate, let's see what we can do for you shall we?" asked Ratchet with a small smile and emotion.

"He hasn't been getting better since he's been taking some medicine we were told to get," said the white and purple mech.

"Hotline... are you sure about telling him that?" asked the smaller tan and red mech.

"Alphite I'm sure it's fine. He's a medic that can care for our son," said Hotline.

"What medicine was he given?" asked Ratchet. Hotline told him. "From what the tests say, he's allergic to it. That would explain as to why he isn't doing any better."

"He's also been complaining about abdominal pain that is extremely painful," said Hotline.

"Hmmm... let me scan him and see what it says," said Ratchet and took out a scanner. He activated it and checked over the results. "It seems like he is internally bleeding. I'm going to have to take him to fix it before it gets worse."

Ratchet called in First Aid and a gurney. The assistant rolled the gurney over and Ratchet lifted Grate onto it. Grate looked scared and whimpered in fear.

"Shh... I'm going to take care of you Grate. You just have to trust me," said Ratchet, calmness and reassurance in his tone. "After we're done you can get something special."

Grate calmed down and rested against the berth. First Aid took him to the operation room. Ratchet turned to the parents and nodded before leaving. First Aid had things set up just as Ratchet arrived. Ratchet took an air mask and covered Grate's mouth, letting him breathe in the air.

"I'll see you soon Grate," said Ratchet.

Grate fell asleep quickly. First Aid started handing tools over to Ratchet after they got cleaned. Ratchet cut into the small mechling and found the problem instantly. He patched it up and closed up the wound. First Aid cleaned things up. Ratchet just stared at Grate and waited for him to wake up. First Aid noticed Ratchet stroking the youngling's helm the way a parent would.

"You know sir, you are great with kids," said First Aid. "You seem to show your emotion towards them more then anyone else. Why is that?"

"I have become fond of children. I was first working with them before I became top CMO on Cybertron. They seemed to trust me. I always wanted a few of my own," said Ratchet. "That chance may never come. Not until I find the right one. One that won't betray me and go to another."

"You must of hurt when you had to take care of her," said First Aid.

"It is still a fresh wound in my spark," said Ratchet. "Come, let us take him back."

First Aid rolled Grate into the room. The parents seemed relieved at the sight of their son. Hotline thanked First Aid. Alphite greeted their son as he woke up. Ratchet came in carrying a stuffed turbo fox in his servos. He handed the stuffed animal to Grate and smiled as he did so.

"You did excellent Grate. He can go home in a couple days. Let him recover from surgery. Luckily the problem was easily found," said Ratchet.

"Hotline, how are we going to pay for them helping us? We don't have the credits to pay any sort of debt or bill," said Alphite.

"There is no need to pay. What I do is for free. With how Cybertron is now I can charge no fee to anyone unless I must to get more medicine," Ratchet reassured.

"Thank you so much Ratchet," said Hotline.

"You three seem to have no home. I have a few extra rooms in my home. You are more then welcome to live with me. It would do me some good. Especially since what happened recently," said Ratchet.

"I accept your offer. A guard came in and ruined everything that we owned. We were kicked out and my mate lost his job," said Hotline. "You have been most kind to us. May Primus bless your spark."

Ratchet smiled and nodded. Grate motioned Ratchet over and hugged the medic. Ratchet hugged him back. Grate said thank you to Ratchet before the medic left. First Aid was glad that his teacher was lightening up a bit. But little did they know was that things were going to go downhill for the orange and white medic.