Yo!
the third of the trilogy (I hope ^^). Thanks to all those who gave me comments about the other
two! and this time I really need your help: I'm stuck! If you have any ideas about how I should
end this TELL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and yes C&C are more than ever welcome.
little notes: 1) I think that Kurama (especially in yohko form) resembles Hiei a lot: they have
the same sens of irony. I hope this isn't too much OOC.
2) the ~~~~~~~ mean a change in p.o.v and the ****** mean a little jump in time.
disclaimers at the end
enjoy!!
Duels:
That's it, he hates me.
We've been working together on this case for hours now and he didn't look
at me once! What did I hope for anyways? That he'd ask me if I
reconsidered what I said?
Well I actually did hope for that, but I know he'd never do it. I humiliated
him enough when I refused, he's not going to humiliate himself further; he's
so proud and –
"Hiei?"
I go over to him, although I don't think he really wants me to. He's standing
in a corner, far from the others so they won't be able to hear us. They're all
fussing over Kaito anyways, they won't notice.
"Hn." I can't look at him, I can't look up and see the hate in his eyes, I can't
let him see me weak like this, can't let him see the power he has over me.
"I'm sorry"
What?! What is *he* sorry about? This time I do look up, I can't control
myself any more and if he'd care to look he'd probably be able to see my
emotions as clearly as if they were written on my bandana.
"What for?"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
That's it, he hates me.
During the whole time we were in this house he didn't look at me once.
This can't go on any longer though. We'll have to fight together at one
point or another of this mission. Let's try to be at least civil to each other.
"Hiei?" I didn't say that very loudly but I know he heard it: we're standing
so close to each other it hurts. But that's what the others expect and we
don't want them nosing around.
He actually comes! Unfortunately it is all too obvious he doesn't want to.
"Hn." All this seems so normal, but he still refuses to look at me. It hurts so
much. It would be so much better even if he glared at me while saying that,
like he does to the others, but he probably can't stand looking at me now.
Well, like I said: we'll have to at least try and be civil to each other and
work as a team if we want to finish this mission alive. I might as well try to
regain my best friend.
"I'm sorry." That didn't sound half as confident as I wanted it to. It sounded
more like I was pleading, which I probably was. I can't stand this situation
anymore!
A moment passes in silence as I wait for his reaction, now he probably
despises me as well, for begging.
"What for?"
Huh? I turn to him and our eyes meet for a fraction of a second. I saw a lot
of things in his eyes, I couldn't, didn't have the time to distinguish them all
but I didn't see any hate, any loathing, any despise. I saw confusion and –
"Yo Kurama! We need you over here!"
I wish the moment could have lasted longer, I wanted to ask him…
He probably was too stunned by the fact that I put my pride aside to beg him
to feel anything but confusion right now.
Well, I can at least try:
"I –"
"Yo Kurama! Hurry up!"
" – have to go!"
I went to help Yusuke. I knew why he called me and, as much as I love
Hiei, somebody's life was at stake.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
What has just happened?
What was he about to say?
I…when he looked at me there was no hate. There was confusion, confusion
and something else. Just a few more seconds and…
And he would have been able to see through me. It's better this way.
But I lost all the courage I somehow managed to build – up.
Ch' screw the parole, I'm outahere!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
He left…
"Kurama? You still with us?"
"Oh yes, of course! He'll be okay by tomorrow morning, a slight nausea
maybe…"
"Yeah, I can testify about the nausea!"
"Hai Kuwabara – kun, it'll help if you took those herbs I gave you –"
"But they taste like –"
"Like Makai herbs!"
"Whoever asked for your opinion baka?"
"Who are you calling baka?"
Well at least it's entertaining. It gives me time to think. But I don't want to
think about it, I don't want to get false hopes…
***********************************************************************************
Ok, so we're friend again. That's what I wanted, no?
We're such great friends that he even comes to me after he fights with his
new girlfriend! I always think that if we had a little more time back in the
mansion, if I had time to decipher his emotions…
Oh Hell, I won't get anywhere with 'what if's'. All of that is past and I have
more irritating problems to deal with now –
"Kurama!"
Speaking of irritating problems…
"So you finally decided to come back?"
I thought that this was past as well; unfortunately I was wrong. Serves me
right for paying others to do my work for me.
"Like I had the choice!"
I hate being blackmailed! Especially by horned youkai whom I tried to kill!
"But of course you did!"
I really should tell my mother everything: it would solve about three quarters
of my current problems.
"What do you want from me?"
"You know very well what I want"
"Look Yom, it was fun while it lasted –"
"And then you got bored and tried to kill me. I know, I know. But you
could try and make it up now."
Jeez! Has he gotten really stupid during these last few years or what?
"What part of 'NO' don't you understand?"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Hn, so that baka kitsune managed to get himself into trouble again.
"You look troubled Hiei"
"None of your business!"
Ok, where was I?
"Does it have anything to do with Kurama?"
I swear! The moment I'm strong enough I'll kill her!
"I said: none of your damned business!"
"You're in e bad mood aren't you? Go kill some youkai and come back
when you feel better, you wouldn't want to burn my palace to the ground
would you?"
Since when does *she* know me so well?
"Hn."
She is right though; it is about him. He told me that he was going back to
Yomi, to train. Much the same as I did with Mukuro. Why does it bother
me then? If he wants to be with Yomi…But then I made him believe that I
was with Mukuro. Just another mistake to add to my long list.
That night, in the mansion, he saw everything and chose to ignore it. But
still, he forgave me, so we're friends again.
We both went on with our lives: he is happy with Yomi and think that I'm
with Mukuro.
Hn. Good for him!
If everything is so right why does something feels wrong?
It's been a while but now it's stronger. A strange feeling at the base of the
neck, like something bad is going to happen…
Ch' what has the fox gotten himself into again?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
What have I gotten myself into?
Stupid yohko pride!
That's what I get for over – estimating myself again. I really should stop
doing thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat
Why do I keep talking to myself anyway? I should really start concentrating
on the fight!
"Do you give – up yet Kurama? You know that I'll get what I want
anyways."
"Not if I win!" but I won't. Even in this form I'm weaker than him, I have
no chance.
And to think that I was the boss once. Guess it's jus –
Arg! My shoulder!
I'm not as fast as I thought either.
"Come on, give up! I don't want to have to kill you, you'll be no fun after!"
Is there something about me that keeps attracting psychos?
But then, he wanted to kill me too…
Stop that! This is so much not the right time!
There! An opening! If I can – no, he saw it. I can try…no, too late.
Careful! Duck, dodge, block, jump, block, dodge, step back…wow! That
was way too close!
"You can't keep going like that forever. If you are too proud to give – up
you shouldn't have suggested this duel."
How can he still talk? I'm barely breathing! But I'm not going to give – up
I have too much to lose. I'd rather he actually kill me: if he wins it will be
far worse than before.
He is getting ready to attack, it will be the last one. I know I can't keep this
out much longer.
I'm ashamed to even think this but I wish that he'd kill me. Must be the
yohko pride again, I'm much better off dead than if he wins and I'm still
alive.
'Kaasan, you'll never know. Please forgive me. Hiei…
end part 1
disclaimers: none of the characters belong to me bla bla bla bla DON'T SUE!!! I have no money!
n.b. don't you ever buy the french dub of the second yyh movie (argh! yohko kurama with a
higher voice than Shuichi)
the third of the trilogy (I hope ^^). Thanks to all those who gave me comments about the other
two! and this time I really need your help: I'm stuck! If you have any ideas about how I should
end this TELL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and yes C&C are more than ever welcome.
little notes: 1) I think that Kurama (especially in yohko form) resembles Hiei a lot: they have
the same sens of irony. I hope this isn't too much OOC.
2) the ~~~~~~~ mean a change in p.o.v and the ****** mean a little jump in time.
disclaimers at the end
enjoy!!
Duels:
That's it, he hates me.
We've been working together on this case for hours now and he didn't look
at me once! What did I hope for anyways? That he'd ask me if I
reconsidered what I said?
Well I actually did hope for that, but I know he'd never do it. I humiliated
him enough when I refused, he's not going to humiliate himself further; he's
so proud and –
"Hiei?"
I go over to him, although I don't think he really wants me to. He's standing
in a corner, far from the others so they won't be able to hear us. They're all
fussing over Kaito anyways, they won't notice.
"Hn." I can't look at him, I can't look up and see the hate in his eyes, I can't
let him see me weak like this, can't let him see the power he has over me.
"I'm sorry"
What?! What is *he* sorry about? This time I do look up, I can't control
myself any more and if he'd care to look he'd probably be able to see my
emotions as clearly as if they were written on my bandana.
"What for?"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
That's it, he hates me.
During the whole time we were in this house he didn't look at me once.
This can't go on any longer though. We'll have to fight together at one
point or another of this mission. Let's try to be at least civil to each other.
"Hiei?" I didn't say that very loudly but I know he heard it: we're standing
so close to each other it hurts. But that's what the others expect and we
don't want them nosing around.
He actually comes! Unfortunately it is all too obvious he doesn't want to.
"Hn." All this seems so normal, but he still refuses to look at me. It hurts so
much. It would be so much better even if he glared at me while saying that,
like he does to the others, but he probably can't stand looking at me now.
Well, like I said: we'll have to at least try and be civil to each other and
work as a team if we want to finish this mission alive. I might as well try to
regain my best friend.
"I'm sorry." That didn't sound half as confident as I wanted it to. It sounded
more like I was pleading, which I probably was. I can't stand this situation
anymore!
A moment passes in silence as I wait for his reaction, now he probably
despises me as well, for begging.
"What for?"
Huh? I turn to him and our eyes meet for a fraction of a second. I saw a lot
of things in his eyes, I couldn't, didn't have the time to distinguish them all
but I didn't see any hate, any loathing, any despise. I saw confusion and –
"Yo Kurama! We need you over here!"
I wish the moment could have lasted longer, I wanted to ask him…
He probably was too stunned by the fact that I put my pride aside to beg him
to feel anything but confusion right now.
Well, I can at least try:
"I –"
"Yo Kurama! Hurry up!"
" – have to go!"
I went to help Yusuke. I knew why he called me and, as much as I love
Hiei, somebody's life was at stake.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
What has just happened?
What was he about to say?
I…when he looked at me there was no hate. There was confusion, confusion
and something else. Just a few more seconds and…
And he would have been able to see through me. It's better this way.
But I lost all the courage I somehow managed to build – up.
Ch' screw the parole, I'm outahere!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
He left…
"Kurama? You still with us?"
"Oh yes, of course! He'll be okay by tomorrow morning, a slight nausea
maybe…"
"Yeah, I can testify about the nausea!"
"Hai Kuwabara – kun, it'll help if you took those herbs I gave you –"
"But they taste like –"
"Like Makai herbs!"
"Whoever asked for your opinion baka?"
"Who are you calling baka?"
Well at least it's entertaining. It gives me time to think. But I don't want to
think about it, I don't want to get false hopes…
***********************************************************************************
Ok, so we're friend again. That's what I wanted, no?
We're such great friends that he even comes to me after he fights with his
new girlfriend! I always think that if we had a little more time back in the
mansion, if I had time to decipher his emotions…
Oh Hell, I won't get anywhere with 'what if's'. All of that is past and I have
more irritating problems to deal with now –
"Kurama!"
Speaking of irritating problems…
"So you finally decided to come back?"
I thought that this was past as well; unfortunately I was wrong. Serves me
right for paying others to do my work for me.
"Like I had the choice!"
I hate being blackmailed! Especially by horned youkai whom I tried to kill!
"But of course you did!"
I really should tell my mother everything: it would solve about three quarters
of my current problems.
"What do you want from me?"
"You know very well what I want"
"Look Yom, it was fun while it lasted –"
"And then you got bored and tried to kill me. I know, I know. But you
could try and make it up now."
Jeez! Has he gotten really stupid during these last few years or what?
"What part of 'NO' don't you understand?"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Hn, so that baka kitsune managed to get himself into trouble again.
"You look troubled Hiei"
"None of your business!"
Ok, where was I?
"Does it have anything to do with Kurama?"
I swear! The moment I'm strong enough I'll kill her!
"I said: none of your damned business!"
"You're in e bad mood aren't you? Go kill some youkai and come back
when you feel better, you wouldn't want to burn my palace to the ground
would you?"
Since when does *she* know me so well?
"Hn."
She is right though; it is about him. He told me that he was going back to
Yomi, to train. Much the same as I did with Mukuro. Why does it bother
me then? If he wants to be with Yomi…But then I made him believe that I
was with Mukuro. Just another mistake to add to my long list.
That night, in the mansion, he saw everything and chose to ignore it. But
still, he forgave me, so we're friends again.
We both went on with our lives: he is happy with Yomi and think that I'm
with Mukuro.
Hn. Good for him!
If everything is so right why does something feels wrong?
It's been a while but now it's stronger. A strange feeling at the base of the
neck, like something bad is going to happen…
Ch' what has the fox gotten himself into again?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
What have I gotten myself into?
Stupid yohko pride!
That's what I get for over – estimating myself again. I really should stop
doing thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat
Why do I keep talking to myself anyway? I should really start concentrating
on the fight!
"Do you give – up yet Kurama? You know that I'll get what I want
anyways."
"Not if I win!" but I won't. Even in this form I'm weaker than him, I have
no chance.
And to think that I was the boss once. Guess it's jus –
Arg! My shoulder!
I'm not as fast as I thought either.
"Come on, give up! I don't want to have to kill you, you'll be no fun after!"
Is there something about me that keeps attracting psychos?
But then, he wanted to kill me too…
Stop that! This is so much not the right time!
There! An opening! If I can – no, he saw it. I can try…no, too late.
Careful! Duck, dodge, block, jump, block, dodge, step back…wow! That
was way too close!
"You can't keep going like that forever. If you are too proud to give – up
you shouldn't have suggested this duel."
How can he still talk? I'm barely breathing! But I'm not going to give – up
I have too much to lose. I'd rather he actually kill me: if he wins it will be
far worse than before.
He is getting ready to attack, it will be the last one. I know I can't keep this
out much longer.
I'm ashamed to even think this but I wish that he'd kill me. Must be the
yohko pride again, I'm much better off dead than if he wins and I'm still
alive.
'Kaasan, you'll never know. Please forgive me. Hiei…
end part 1
disclaimers: none of the characters belong to me bla bla bla bla DON'T SUE!!! I have no money!
n.b. don't you ever buy the french dub of the second yyh movie (argh! yohko kurama with a
higher voice than Shuichi)