The Shadow of No One

I have nothing left here so why do I still linger? Is it hoped that keeps me here? Maybe it's the very few friends I have that keep me here. No that's not it.

I have no real reason I guess. So maybe I'll just end it all. The cool blade pressed to my wrist tells me that I should. One flick of the wrist is all it takes to make the pain go away. The pain of seeing you slowly drift away from me and closer to Haruhi. To feel myself being replaced by her in your heart. The pain of everything, but still I find myself questioning my actions… Why is that?

To late now, I've made my decision. I was expecting there to be more pain but I feel… Light. The colors around me seem to dull and I could my body collapse to the cold wood floor. I hear the door to our bed room open and a distant gasp. I thought you were on a date with Haruhi?

I can feel myself being lifted. My face feels wet, am I crying? No these aren't my Tears… Hikaru please don't cry I wasn't trying to make you sad.

I can hear you talking but your words are so distant it's hard to make out the things you're saying but your voice is still a harmony like no other.

I love you, those are the words you keep repeating. Is that true Hika? Am I making a mistake? I thought you would be without me…

I remember why I've kept living to this point, because I love you. I loved to see you smile. I loved to hear you laugh. I loved the way looked at me and only me. Even while you were with Haruhi you were secretly mine.

Why… Why did it take so long for me to figure this out? We could have been happy… You and me.

I guess everyone make mistakes, right?

I wish I could see you one last time but my eyes feel too heavy to open. My body feels stiff and cold. So this is how it feels to die? I hope you don't have to go through this Hikaru, not anytime soon.

I can feel myself being pulled from my body but I'm not sure I'm ready to let go not anymore. I guess I don't have a choice.

Hikaru please forgive me, I didn't want to hurt you, not like this.

My face has grown damp and I know these are my tears I'm feeling. I guess I have no more time left.

Goodbye… Hikaru.

I hate the ending to this story so I may rewrite it but either way the ending will be the same just worded differently. R&R