Author's note: This is my first fic so I apologize in advance if it sucks. I own none of these characters, yadda, yadda, yadda.
Destiny: Chapter 1
473 days it's been. 473 days since my life changed forever. 473 days since I found new priorities. 473 days since I've really been able to say 'I feel happy'. 473 days since I lost the love of my life. For 473 days, I have felt alone.
I wake up to an extremely bright light streaming in through my window. "Uggh" I grunt as a turn over to look at the clock. 2pm it reads. "Fuck, I'm gonna be late" I jump out of bed and instantly feel the throbbing headache that last night's partying gave me. I ignore the pain, hop in the shower and get dressed. When I get downstairs, everyone automatically stares at me, kinda like whenever you show up late for class in elementary school. "You're late" said my manager Ezra Fitz. "Good morning to you too E" I said placing a bagel in the toaster. "You do realize it's almost 3 in the afternoon right?" Said Toby, the lead guitarist of our band. I just roll my eyes as my bagel pops out of the toaster and I take my rightful seat at the table.
"So, what are we talking bout?" I ask biting into my bagel which I now realize is extremely dry. "Well, the tour is starting in a 3 weeks" said Caleb, our bassist "Ya and we might have a really cool opener for our shows babe" said Samara, the drummer.
I just kind of stare at Samara for a few seconds until I can read on her face that she realized she called me 'babe'.
Samara was 2 years older than me and had women & men practically throw themselves at her but yet she still chooses to go after me. I mean sure we've hooked up a couple times and the whole 'female drummer' thing is pretty hot but I have told her on multiple occasions, I'm just not ready yet. Losing someone like how I lost Maya just changes a person. It's hard to let anyone else in after that. I mean sure, I got my revenge on the wack job who did it to her but that doesn't bring her back.
"You know, I'm feeling a little sick, is there anything else you need to tell us E?" I asked, not really wanting to be with anyone right now "Uhh, no, I guess that's it. Meeting adjured" Ezra said.
And with that I was on my way back to my room until I was stopped by the last person I wanted to talk to right now. "Look Em, I'm sorry it just slipped ou..." Samara began "Look its ok, it wasn't intentional, I know, but I just really need to lie down" I interrupt, trying my best to end this conversation to no avail. "Em, I know you're hurting but sooner or later you're going to have to let somebody in. Why not let that person be one of your best friends?" Samara said with a sweet smile.
Samara's a really sweet girl and I really do care about her but I just can't do this. Not now. But I know I'm not getting out of this until I give her at least a little hope that she's getting somewhere with me, even if she isn't.
"Look, I want to, I do. I just need a little more time to just, I don't know. Think this through." I said truthfully.
"Ok I don't mean to sound pushy, but a year and a half seems like a pretty long time to think." Samara said, arching an eyebrow. I just roll my eyes, evade around her, and retreat to my room locking the door. I can hear her jiggling the door knob and calling my name but I just ignore her and turn on my stereo to drown her out. I walk over to my calendar to cross off todays date. "473 days you've been gone" I said, looking at the photo of me and Maya on my night stand. "Wonder what will happen on day 474" I said before I collapsed on my bed, falling into a deep sleep, dreaming of what could have been.