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Author's Note: I believe this song really reflects what happened to Obi-Wan so please enjoy. Read and Review and The Force Shall Be With You
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I would always told myself that, master
I
will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
When Anakin first became my apprentice, I would always tell myself that.
I
will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
You did master, you fell so hard after the turning of your second padawan
I've
learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Or
so I thought master….or so I thought
Because
of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
You always kept me in line. You made sure I would never face the same fate as your last apprentice
Because
of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
You
never let me get too far out of your sight. You always kept a
watchful eye over me
Because
of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
But master after you left me……….it was like my whole world was turned upside down. Suddenly nothing mattered anymore. Especially not Anakin. And all too soon I found myself looking far too much like you, master
Because
of you
I am afraid
Because
you forced all those responsibilities on me, master I
lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I worked so hard to get it that way master
I
cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
All those years I worked so hard to make us close. And then master, you threw me out. But master did you even bother to think how it would make me feel? How much it would make me want to cry? Of coarse I could not because you announced you wish me to be knighted.
I'm
forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
I do it for Anakin's sake, master. I do it so he cannot see the cold, lonely man that you turned me into
And
now
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to
start with
Now
I realize that maybe, master….I did not hold as much in your life
that I thought I did. Maybe after Xanatos….you really didn't
trust me as much I thought you did. I realize because you abandoned
me and pushed me into a cold hard unforgiving world far too
soon.
Because
of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
You kept me safe, you made me soft master
Because
of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Maybe master, you kept me from getting hurt because you didn't want to face the pain of another turning apprentice
Because
of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
What if someone else decides to take advantage of me master? Just like you did?
Because
of you
I am afraid
I
can't bear that ever happening again can I master? No I can't.
I
watched you die
My heart shattered into a million pieces when I saw you laying there master
I
heard you cry every night in your sleep
And when I sat there on the titanium floor, crying into you chest I remembered all that you've ever done to me. The words you said to me. The last few words you said to me. It hurt master. It hurt like betrayal. It hurt more than it did when I was young. When you first took me in. The way it hurt when I heard you cry every night in your sleep because of your turned apprentice.
I
was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You really should have known better master. Of coarse you didn't. That's why you thought I was ready for all those responsibilities
You
never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
Is that why you where so stubborn master? Is that why you would always defy everyone and do what you thought was right? Because all you wanted to do was keep away the pain? The pain that was scarred into your soul when your Padawan had turned?
And
now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
That's
right.Every
single night I cry because your beloved Anakin Skywalker……. Has
turned Because
of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
I looked over him just like you looked over me
Because
of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
I kept him safe like you kept me safe
Because
of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
But what did he give me for it master? What did I gain from fulfilling my father figure's dying wish? Pain. Unbelievable, Unforgettable Pain
Because
of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Now there is no one for me master. Now I lay here in some run down hut in the planet that ruined my life. I am in exile on the damned planet of Tattoine. Crying in my sleep
Because
of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
My life is indeed empty. Everything, and I mean everything I ever lived for has been taken from me master. Everything.
Because
of you
I am afraid
Yes, Because Of You My Master,
Because
Of You Qui-Gon Jinn, I Am Afraid
Because Of You
fin
Thank
you so much for reading. The story line of this I was told is
slightly confusing. So if you're confused let me explain it to you.
This takes place a few days into Obi-Wan's exile to Tattoine. He
has yet to meet Qui-Gon again and starts to think about how he ended
up in this mess. He comes to the conclusion that it was all Qui-Gon's
fault. That Qui-Gon couldn't let go of Xanatos and reflected that
on him. Just wanted to make that clear. Again thanks for reading and
please don't forget to review!!