Hey guys! Thanks to some inspiration from AriaBelikov, I've decided to write my first VA fanfiction.

This story starts at the beginning of Chapter 23 while Rose is still being held captive by Dimitri. My story is an alternate ending for the story so the first few chapters will have some excerpts from the book.

I don't own Richelle Mead's words and the world of VA is hers alone.

I hope you enjoy and, as always, please review.

The Flames That Bind Us

Broken

I didn't cry very often. And I hated it when I did. The last time I'd done it around Dimitri, his arms had immediately encircled me. This time, all I got was a look of coldness and anger.

"This is your fault!" he yelled, fists clenched.

I cringed backward, eyes wide. "But he… he attacked me…"

"Yes. And Inna. A human! You let a human attack you." He couldn't keep the sneer from his voice. "You are weak. You are incapable of defending yourself-all because you refuse to be awakened!"

His voice was terrifying, and the look he gave me… well, it scared me almost more than Nathan had. Reaching forward, he jerked me up to my feet.

"If you had just been killed, it would have been your own fault," he said. His fingers dug into my wrist as he shook me. "You have the chance for immortality, for incredible strength! And you're too blind and stubborn to see it."

I swallowed back more tears and rubbed my eyes with the back of my free hand. No doubt I was ruining the makeup I'd so painstakingly put on.

My heart was ready to explode out of my chest, I was afraid. I was getting sick to my stomach, independent of Dimitri's proximity. "This is all a mess."

"It doesn't have to be." I didn't think he would shake me again, but there was a dangerous glint in his eyes. The monster was only a heartbeat away. "Time's running out. I've been lenient, Roza. Far more lenient than I would be with anyone else."

"Why? Why have you done it?" I wanted-needed-then to hear him say it was because he loved me and that because of that love, he could never force me into anything I didn't want. I needed to hear it so that I could blot out that terrifying, furious creature I'd seen a few minutes ago.

"Because I know how you think. And I know awakening you of your own free will would make you a more important ally. You're independent and strong-minded-that's what makes you valuable."

"An ally, huh?"

Not the woman he loved.

He shifted so that his face hovered over mine. "Didn't I tell you once I'd always be there for you? I'm here. I'll protect you. We're going to be together. We're meant to be together. You know this." There was more fierceness in his voice than affection.

He kissed my lips, drawing me close. The usual heat flooded me, my body instantly responding to his. But even as my body did one thing, other thoughts were spinning through my mind. I had always thought we were meant to be together. And he had once told me he'd always be there for me. I'd always wanted that too-but I had wanted to be there for him in return. I wanted us to be equals, always watching each other's backs.

Today hadn't been like that. I'd been defenseless. Weak. Never, never in my life had I been like that. Even in horrible, outmatched moments, I'd put up a decent fight. At the very least, I'd had the will to fight. Not now. I'd been terrified. I'd been ineffectual. I hadn't been able to do anything except sit there pathetically and wait for someone to rescue me. I'd let a human get the best of me.

Dimitri said me becoming Strigoi was the solution. For the last week, he'd said that over and over, and while I hadn't agreed to it, I hadn't been as repulsed as I once had been. Lately, it had become a thought floating around out there, a far-off way for us to be together. And I did want to be together, especially in moments like this, when we kissed and desire crackled around both of us.

Dimitri's hand snaking into my hair pulled me out of my thoughts. His touch was becoming more insistent and forceful. I wrapped my fingers into his hair and pulled myself closer to him, even though that voice in the back of my head screamed louder to stop.

Like the day before, his fingers were running up my bare leg, pushing my skirt up to my hip. Unlike yesterday though, he didn't stop when my hands found their way inside his shirt.

I could feel him growl against my lips as his control finally broke. As quick as lightening, I was on my back on the bed. He had pulled back from me and was now looking down at me, the same dark look in his eyes that he'd had while he was fighting Nathan.

"I take back what I said yesterday, Roza." He was leaning over me, straddling my body with his. "I can't hold back anymore."

My mind was still hazy from his endorphins but I was slowly becoming more lucid. My body screamed for his touch, but that stupid voice in my head was getting louder.

His eyes held no affection for me. He wanted me, but not out of love. Only out of pure primal urge. "But what about what you said yesterday… You said you wouldn't until I was awakened."

"I've changed my mind. After today I can see that you have no intentions of changing on your own, Roza. I can't keep waiting for you to make up your mind. My lure isn't working." He bent down and kissed my neck, his teeth nipping it without breaking the skin.

My thoughts were reeling against the endorphins still in my system. What did he mean by he couldn't keep waiting? That was when I felt it. Dimitri had ripped my dress off of me in one smooth motion. "Dimitri, what are you doing?" I looked up at him with wide eyes.

"Encouraging you, Roza." Before I could think about anything else, his hands were on me again. His lips found mine in one fluid motion. I couldn't do this, the voice inside me was screaming. I pushed against his chest as hard as I could, but he didn't budge. His Strigoi strength was too much for me, and I was weak.

Frustrated by my protests, he gripped my wrists tightly in his hands and held them above my head. I turned my head away from him, breaking our kiss. "No Dimitri. Not like this, please." I was pleading with him, anything to make him reconsider what he was doing.

He took both of my wrists in one of his hands and turned my face back to him. Our lips were inches away from each other. I could see that he wanted me, but the anger that scared me was just behind it. He kissed my exposed neck and I gasped. My body yearned for him to bite me again, but I fought against it.

He kissed up my neck until his lips found mine again. He gave me no room to move away from him as he forcefully took my mouth with his. He nipped my lip with his teeth, forcing me to give him purchase.

I could feel his free hand running down my body, his cold touch igniting my skin. I arched into his touch. He touch felt so good against my skin. Why was I fighting him? Without warning I felt him rip of the silk underwear he had given me. I gasped against his lips, but it only gave him more access.

His tongue pressed into mine as his fingers slowly teased me. I struggled against him as he slowly ran a finger over me. I couldn't breathe with him kissing me and my body felt like it was on fire, but my mind was screaming for this to stop.

He broke the kiss for a moment to catch a breath. I pushed hard against the hand that held my wrists above me. "Dimitri, stop this." I begged. "Please." I could feel tears coming to my eyes. No matter how much my body wanted this, my mind was reminding me how wrong it was the longer I went without a bite.

His features hardened. Without a word, he kissed my neck again. I felt his fangs find purchase against my already bruised skin. "Please don't." I pleaded again, but it didn't matter. His teeth had already sunken into my neck. Endorphins flooded my system as he drank from my neck, but it only lasted for a moment. He had barely bitten me, but he had given me enough endorphins that I forgot why I was struggling. Suddenly, he was all that mattered.

"Dimitri," I whispered. He released my hands as he saw the fight fade from my eyes. I was no threat to him now.

I brought my hands up into his hair. I just wanted to touch him, to feel him against my skin. His eyes might not be the same, but his body was still as gorgeous as it was before he changed.

"Roza," He murmured against the skin of my shoulder. He kissed it softly then continued down toward my breasts. I moaned as he slowly took my nipple in his mouth. His teeth grazing it as he sucked it forcefully. I was floating on the wave of endorphins in my system as he touched me.

His hand at my pelvis tormented me. He stroked me again before he inserted his fingers. I felt as if I was going to combust. "Roza." He murmured against my breast as his arm snaked under my back and pulled me closer to him.

I moaned again as he toyed with me. The voice in my head had disappeared after the bite and I didn't know why I wouldn't want this. Why I wouldn't want him. "Dimitri," I cried as he brought me closer to the edge.

I was almost there when he pulled away from me. I whimpered at the loss of his touch. "Come back." I reached toward him, needing to feel his skin against mine.

He chuckled, his red eyes dark with lust. Before I could process what he was doing, his pants were off and he was pressed against me again. "Imagine how good this will feel once you're awakened Roza." I thought he was going to pull away from me again, but he didn't.

He dove his fingers into my long hair and pulled my face to his as he thrust into me. His hand firm on my leg that he had put around his waist. I moaned against his lips as he pressed into me. My head spinning as the endorphins threatened to pull me under.

I could feel Dimitri's tension underneath my fingers. When he broke away from me, I moaned against his ear. "What's wrong, Dimitri?" I asked as I clung to him, my hands twisting through his hair.

"Roza," He growled against my ear. His breath against it sent shivers down my spine. "It's hard to hold back."

"Then don't." I whispered without thinking. What did it matter anyways? He wouldn't hurt me and I wanted more of him.

His growl was more audible. He was getting frustrated. "Don't tempt me, Roza." He bit back at me. He pulled away from me a little bit, but kept our hips connected. His eyes were darker than I'd ever seen them when we were kissing.

"But I want you." I didn't care what he did as long as he didn't let me go. My uneasiness from what happened earlier was gone. I just wanted him to enjoy himself as much as I was.

He flipped me on my stomach before I had time to rethink my words. He pulled my hips to his and thrust into my hard. I whimpered as I felt him slam himself into me at an unnatural pace.

I was going to break. "Dimitri. Dimitri, stop." I cried. My hands were clutching the down comforter tightly. My nails were dug into it until the fabric finally gave way. The endorphins from his bite blocked most of the pain, but I could still feel the base pain that came with every thrust of his body.

One of his hands wrapped around the front of my bare body, grabbing my breast tightly. His other was grabbing my hair and pulling my face around toward his so he could kiss me. If he saw the tears on my cheeks, he didn't notice.

This was not the man that I had made love to in the cabin. Even in my drugged haze I could see that he was a monster.

"Stop, please." I cried softly as he pressed his lips into mine. I couldn't take it much longer. I was going to pass out. How long had he been going now? Five minutes, twenty, an hour?

He pulled out and spun me around with a tight grip on my shoulders. Once I was facing him again I could see he was nowhere near finished. I had given him permission to not hold back and he was taking it.

He wrapped his arms around me and rolled so that I was on top of him. My exhausted body could barely hold itself up. He gripped my hips with a bone-crushing grip and pulled me down on top of him. He pulled himself into a sitting position at the end of the bed. My eyes were almost level with his as he lifted his hips into mine again.

I closed my eyes tightly and tried to lean my head against his shoulders, but his voice pulled me back. "Roza, you are beautiful." His voice was soft, a sharp contrast to the look on his face.

He gently ran his hand down my back while the other cupped my face. "I'm sorry if this hurts, but I can't hold back anymore." He pulled my face closer to his. "That is what you wanted, wasn't it?" He kissed me again, his hands back in my hair. His kiss was rough and insistent. The fingers on my back were pushing against my skin painfully.

"We'll go until I break you, Roza." There was a dark glint in his eyes as he thrust into me harder than before.

I didn't know how much time had passed before he reached climax. It felt like it had been days, but I knew it couldn't have been more than hours. I was curled in the fetal position on the bed now, his eyes looking down at me with an unreadable expression.

"We need to get you cleaned up Roza." I kept my eyes firmly closed as I felt him try to pull me to my feet. I quickly collapsed to my knees though as my legs gave way beneath me. All the strength in my body was gone. Without a word, he lifted me into his arms and carried me into the warm water of the shower.

Dimitri washed me from head to toe with gentle hands. "This was why I didn't want to until you were Awakened, Roza. I've hurt you." He gently ran his finger against my cheek. I would have flinched if I had the energy.

When I was clean to his satisfaction, he stepped out of the shower. As we walked past the mirror toward the towels, I saw a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I was bruised everywhere. My body was crisscrossed with bruises both big and small. In the places where he had held me tightest, there were large bruises as large as his hands.

He wrapped a towel around me before I could analyze myself anymore.

Dimitri laid me on the bed then dressed me like a child. I felt weak and ashamed as he put a pair of silk underwear and a nightgown on me. He kissed me softly on my cheek as he pulled the ruined comforter over me.

"I'll come to see you later." When he reached the door he turned toward me. "I was going to tell you last night, but we got…carried away."

I looked up at him for the first time. I didn't have the energy to get upset by his words.

"Two days. Galina says you have two days to Awaken or be killed." The door slammed loudly behind him.

He had left without biting me. I could barely breathe without being in pain. For the first time since he bit me, I could see him clearly. This was not my Dimitri.

The pain my body was feeling was excruciating, but my mind was clear now. I had to get out of here. I had to get away from Dimitri.

Tune in next time!