I decided to make a collection of IH drabbles to cure my writer's block and I want to improve in writing so I think why not make drabbles?

This is my second IH fanfic so please be nice to me and I don't think this is an IH fanfic? Ahh well, this story revolves on Orihime's feeing for Ichigo so yeah maybe you can say it's an IH drabble *shrugs*

Anyway... onto the story.

Why her? Why not me?

"Tatsuki-chan... "

She sobbed. Burrying her face on her bestfriend's chest. She sobbed. Cried all her might to ease the heavy feeling inside her chest.

It can't be helped, can it? The feeling of loneliness, the bitterness, and self-pity? She appeared to be cheerful, air-headed and naive infront of them. Well, maybe she guessed, it was her way to escape from reality. Living alone wasn't easy.

When it's the middle of the night and she felt so sad, she would just end up sitting in a corner, sobbing and finding herself crying over petty things. She had to be strong, hadn't she? So why? Why couldn't she handle this? Why? Why did she have to cry on her bestfriend?

"Orihime... why? Why are you crying? " she soothed her bestfriend's back. Doing all she could think of just to calm her bestfriend.

"Tatsuki-chan... " she lifted her face and distanced herself from her. She wiped her tears and gently brought her knees on her chest.

"I'm a horrible person. This... feeling... it grosses me. I don't like this Tatsuki-chan. " her vision became cloudy again. She couldn't help it. It's just too painful to hold it all inside of her.

"I, I can handle the loneliness inside my apartment. I can handle all those weird stares they give me because of my hair color, I can handle cutting all my expenses because I don't have enough money. I can handle people's bad comments about me but what I can't handle is that... " she burried her face on her knees.

Tatsuki could only stare. She couldn't say a word. This was the first time she saw her bestfriend breaking down. It hurt her, it hurt her to see her bestfriend like this and she just couldn't do anything at this very moment.

"Tatsuki-chan... why? Why must it be her? Why not me? Why? I am extremely jealous Tatsuki-chan. All I can do is cry and let you see me in my pitiful state. I hate myself Tatsuki-chan. "

She leaned the back of her head on her wall. Letting her tears fall down on her cheeks.

"She's strong, she's a noble, she's pretty, she knows what to say when he's down. She's everything I'm not so why do I keep asking myself 'why her? Why not me?'.

This feeling... it's awful and painful. This feeling... it brings out the beauty and ugliness in me. " Orihime closed her eyes as she sniffed.

Tatsuki moved beside her, she sat beside her and leaned the back of her head on the wall, copying her bestfriend. The two listened to the silence for a moment. She was still trying to register in her mind what had happened. Trying to think of what comforting words she had to say.

"Orihime, everyone's different. She's not you and you are not her so why? Don't compare yourself to her because it is the most pitiful thing to do. " she gazed at her. Orihime was still leaning the back of her head on the wall but her eyes were no longer closed. She was completely staring at the ceiling. She doesn't know if she was listening to her but even so, she continued.

"They are who they are and you are who you are. Have some pride Orihime. Be proud of yourself because you fight your own battle. You're strong and you are unique. I can't say Ichigo is blind for not seeing the beauty in you and I think it's unfair for him just because he doesn't love you, if that's the case. But never, never compare yourself with others. Humans are different from each other, don't live your life under someone's shadow just because you think she's far greater than you. " she stared at Orihime and closed her eyes. She heaved a dip sigh and stood up.

"Thank you Tatsuki-chan. Thank you. "

She turned her head onto her upon hearing her voice. Orihime stood up, dusting her skirt and straightening her blouse.

"I feel so much better now. Thank you and I think I just found what I have that she doesn't have. It's a friend like you. " orihime then smiled and wiped her dried tears using her handkerchief.

"Seriously Hime, before jumping into conclusions like Ichigo is inlove with Rukia, ask him first! " she said patting her head gently.

"Errrr... I can't. I mean, it'll be so obvious if I were to ask him... "

Tatsuski just sighed and massaged her temples.

"But anyways, what happened? Why this fuss all of a sudden? What did you see this time? " from her temple, she put her hands to her hips and leaned closer to Orihime. Slightly scowling to scare her bestfriend a little.

Orihime scooted a little as she waved her hand infront of her.

"Errr. I saw them... talking in a park. " she looked away from Tatsuki knowing that this will enraged her... a bit.

"And... "

"And... ano, and... nothing more? Hehe. "

"Hime! " Tatsuki then pinched both of her cheeks.

"Seriously, just try to tell Ichigo that you love him already! If you don't want to do it, then I'll do it for you! " she said stretching her cheeks.

"Oowwiieee Tatsuki-chan, you sure are strong. My cheeks are now a little loose. " massaging her cheeks, she gently smiled at her.

"Whatever, just remember what I said. Do it or I'll do it for you! "

"Tatsuki-chaaannn.! "

DONE!

AN: don't hate me! I don't hate Rukia but everyone tends to think that way when we're hurt ne? I mean, just to ease the pain inside us. I don't know if I made Orihime and Tatsuki OOC on this but please let me know! Drop a review please :3