I probably wont be posting much. Short version- my computer got a virus. Long version- check my profile. Enjoy this anyway. And sorry for the major point of view and tense issues.
Sometimes, I can feel the dark inside me. I don't know how it got there, but it's there. I'm sure of it. My master tells me I love too much. I didn't know that was possible. Master Yoda says I shouldn't love at all. He says attachments are bad. He says we must show compassion though, and I don't really get the difference. I think it must be a sad way to live, without love. I don't know how else to get rid of the darkness inside of me. Not that I've told anyone about it. They'd just think my imagination was running away with me again. They shouldn't be so quick to judge. I know there was a sith lord in my closet that one time. I know it! Just as I know about the dark in me. It scares me. I've been thinking about it all day, and sometimes I manage to push it out of my mind, but it always comes back. Is it bad to thirst for adventure? Master Yoda says so. He says a jedi must not crave excitement. That must be boring, living those hundreds of years without all that stuff. But I bet Master Yoda doesn't have dark in him. It really starts to terrify me. How can you not be scared of the darkness inside yourself? "A jedi knows no fear," Master Yoda says. Well, he says it more funny-like. More like, "No fear, a jedi knows," or maybe "Fear not, does a jedi know." And in an instant, the dark is forgotten, not to be remembered for many more years.
It lies there, forgotten, but still there and waiting.
I grow older, and I learn many things. I learn that Master Yoda is wrong. I fall deeply in love, I marry, and one day, I learn I am going to be a father. That night I dream. It's that night, the night I wake screaming and drenched with sweat, that I remember the darkness inside of me, and I wonder if maybe it wasn't just a childish fear like the sith in the closet. My fear for those I love awakens the memory, and I remember how it haunted me, that entire day, until I forgot about it. I know it won't be so easy to forget this time.
So I decide to confide in someone. Someone who is not biased by their teachings. I go to Chancellor Palpatine.
I have broken the code. I've broken it before, but I think this might be the worst yet. Chancellor Palpatine is the Sith Lord we have been looking for. He has opened my eyes to the corruptness of the Jedi Order. Instead of killing him, I thank him. For that, and that he will show me how to save her. The Sith are right in their power, the Jedi are wrong in their quest for peace. Peace is a lie. There is only passion. I embrace the darkness inside me. It feels right.
I don't hide the darkness inside me anymore.
I let it out for the galaxy to see.