Bella's New Moon
How am I supposed to live without him? It will be as if I never existed." How the hell will that happen?! He's my life, I love him. How does he think that I'll be able to get over him? Did I mean nothing to him?
My crying increased as the hole in my heart tore open thinking about him again. God, I'm so pathetic, I can't even say their names I hurts so much. I miss all of them so much! Not only did I loose my boyfriend, but my best friend and my family. I love each of them in their own ways. Esme was like my second mother. Carlisle was my personal doctor and a second father to me. Emmett was a big teddy bear brother and protector. Alice was my best friend and annoying sister. Rosalie was my beautiful, hate-filled sister. Jasper was my quiet and reserved brother. He's trying so hard to fit in with their lifestyle that I feel bad that I have tempted him so many times with my blood. I really don't blame him for the mishaps on my birthday. The only thing I blame him and the rest of my family for is playing me and then leaving.
My werewolf friend and his pack are trying to help me fill in the large hole in my chest. No one or no mythical creature can replace Edward.
Maybe I'll finish the job that James and Victoria couldn't. That's it! No one will miss me if I'm gone.
I quickly made my plans and slept peacefully for the first time in months. I'm going to act on my plan tomorrow when Charlie has gone fishing with Billy. The next morning I woke up at ten to the sun shining in my window.
"Hello sun. I will miss you so much, but I don't deserve to live."
I slowly made my way down to the kitchen with a pen and paper in my hands. I sat down at the table after grabbing a sharp kitchen knife and started to write.
Dear Charlie,
I'm sorry for all of the pain that I have put you through. I cannot live in this world because Edward was my world. I know you will probably think this is childish but I can assure you it's not. I love you so much and thank you for taking me in.
Bella
I picked up the knife and was about ready to plunge it in my heart when the doorbell rang. I set the knife down and made my way to the door. I froze as soon as I opened it.
"Oh Bella thank god I got here in time!" Alice screamed as the whole Cullen family made their way inside.
"Bella!" Edward breathed as he kissed me.
"What are you guys doing here?"
"Oh Bella, Alice saw what you were going to do and we came back to save you because we love you and left to try and protect you from us." Esme explained as she hugged me. I turned to Edward.
"So, you still love me?" I whispered.
"Oh Bella, of course I do, but I left to try and keep you safe. I love you so much Bella it hurts" he whispered as he kissed me again. As we pulled away he whispered to me, "Will you ever forgive me?" I pulled out of his arms and ran back to the kitchen and grabbed my note.
"Read" I stayed quiet as each of the family members read the note. "I love you Edward. Always have and always will. And I love each of you as well."
"I'm never leaving you again. You are stuck with me."
"Good because I wouldn't have it any other way!" I whispered before we kissed again.