Chapter 1

"Gil, Gil, wake up you are just dreaming Gil!" Heather shouted as she shock his shoulder trying to rouse him from what seemed to be a nightmare. Although she had witnessed him have many nightmares when he first started staying with her he had not had one lately and never like this he was thrashing about in the bed and screaming for Sara, for someone to stop hurting her. Heather pulled him into a sitting position and continued to try to wake him. "Gil wake up you are ok Sara is not here I'm sure she is ok too, "Grissom was starting to wake up and he was dazed and disorientated.

"Where is Sara why are they hurting her where am I……. Heather?" Grissom looked up into Heather's face looking for answers wondering why she was suddenly in front of him. "Was I dreaming, I'm sorry, I …….. I have to find Sara make sure she's ok, she was in so much pain." Grissom tried franticly to untangle himself from the bed clothes.

"Wait, Gil, calm down it was just a dream and even if you want to go and make sure she is ok, you will just scare the hell out of her if you get in contact with her in this state ranting about someone hurting her. Gil…. Sit still and I will help you get out of the sheets." Grissom looked lost and confused as Heather carefully tried to get Grissoms body and legs untangled from the sheets, unsure quite how he had managed to tie them in knots the way he had.

"Gil.. What was the dream about?" Heather asked as he removed the last of the bedding from his flushed and sweating body.

"I don't know … Sara was in real pain I can still hear her screaming in my head. The rest of the dream was a bit difficult to put together ." He sighed and rested his head in his hands sitting on the edge of the bed. "Ellie Brass was there, its all just too weird but I just want to know that she is alright after seeing that I can't get her cries out of my head, I don't think I will until I hear her voice, do you know what I mean?"

"Yes I think I understand but les get you a cup of coffee and a shower to calm you down and then we will see about contacting her to make sue she is ok." Heather turned to leave the room, but Grissom did not move. "I will get the coffee you go and get showered I will be back in a few minutes I don't want to find you still sitting there." She turned again and left the room, he could hear her descend the stairs and go to the kitchen at the back of her house, he suddenly realised how much time he had been spending in Heathers house, how familiar he had become with it over the last few months that he could tell where she was in the building just from the sound of her foot steps. Normally he found the sound of her wondering about comforting that was why he stayed with her, but now there was no fooling himself he was not happy or comfortable with her or anywhere without Sara. He rose from the bed and stumbled to the shower.

When he returned to the bedroom he found a steaming cup of coffee waiting for him. He quickly dressed and walked slowly down the stairs sipping his coffee as he looked to see where Heather was. He found her sat quietly in her office.

"Well are you feeling a little better now?" She asked although she could see from his face that he was still shaken by the dream.

"Well I know where I am now, so that's better but it was so intense I have to find a was to get in touch with Sara just to make sure she is really alright, if something had happened to her and I didn't check I would never forgive myself."

"Do you know how to get in touch with her?" Heather was sure that he had not had any contact with her since her email saying she was happy, but she could not be sure if he still knew how to get in contact with her.

"No… I do not have any idea where she is although I would think she is still on that boat somewhere." Grissom sat thoughtfully. After 10 minutes sat in silence Grissom suddenly pulled his phone out of his pocket and hit a speed dial number. "Jim…. Sorry did I wake you…..Yes I know I have not had much sleep; look I just have to ask you do you know where Sara is or how to contact her…… Ok I'll meet you in the diner in two hours." He hung up the phone and pushed it back into his pocket, before turning to speak to Heather "He knows where she is and says he will tell me over dinner if I tell him why I want to know."

"So you had a dream and Sara was in pain and you just want to check on her, end of story you're not going to go up setting her or anything because she is doing really well at the moment?" Jim asked at the diner.

"I know it sounds strange but I just want to hear her voice to get her screaming out of my head. How do you know where she is anyway is she in regular contact."

"When she left the first time she was working in the drugs rehab place remember?" Grissom nodded "She met my Ellie there I asked her not to tell you or anyone because it would break my heart if she failed to get clean and you all knew about it, well she did it Sara thought she might struggle when she came back when Warwick died, but Ellie was fine left on her own in the apartment they were sharing," Jim paused seeing the panic spread across Grissoms Face as his friend want increasingly pale. "Griss you ok you have gone very pale and rather worried looking, Ellie has been clean for over a year now, even for the four months they were at sea, and I mean she could not have got anything out there, Gil what's wrong?"

"It just Ellie was in my dream, I as you said yourself I did not know Ellie and Sara had even met in years let alone that they are together, oh god what if something has happened to Sara, to either of them." The look of panic was now spreading to Brass' face as well.

"It was just a dream maybe I said something in passing about them being together with out realising and you subconscious got on to it."

"Jim do you have a contact number or address or something?"

"Yes, they are living on land now have been for about four maybe five months" Brass spoke as he scrolled through his phone looking for Sara and Ellie's details. "They are on some sort of scientific military camp, it does research, but students go there to experience the practical science or something like that she said Sara is working mainly with the visiting students but getting her hands dirty as well, Ellie is on the domestic staff, they have a house on the camp here." Brass held out his phone with the phone number and address of Ellie and Sara on it. "I've booked sometime off in a few weeks the girls have invited me down to visit them for a few weeks, its funny I always thought of Sara as my daughter and now they are together I think of them both as my girls." Grissom gave Jim a quizzical look. "Yes I know I'm rambling but I hope they do not fall out with me for giving you this." Grissom had put the number into his phone and rang the number. They both sat anxiously waiting for someone to answer the phone.

"When is the best time to ring do you know?" Grissom asked as they listened to the ringing.

"They normally ring me, just before I start my shift so about now."

"Jim, I'm taking some time off, I'll see you in a few days." Grissom called as he left the diner with the napkin with Sara's address written on it clutched tightly in his hand.