Author: MoiraShipper
Music: Lost without you-Delta
Summary: Gibbs and Jenny have been together and the redhead is 3 months pregnant but the couple has a big fight and after they break up, they meet each other at the Church. Jibbs universe.
Lost without you
How my ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind
It was Sunday morning and Leroy Jethro Gibbs was sitting on one of the wooden benches in a church that was in Georgetown, not too far from Jenny's house. Throughout his life, he'd never been a very religious person, but in the years he had been married to Shannon, they would took Kelly to church every Sunday and he missed it, hearing his daughter singing with the choral and seeing the twinkle in her blue eyes, the same eyes he had.
With their deaths, his Sundays as well as all his free time had been spent with his boat and bourbon. But there he was, praying for things to get better. He looked down at his lap where there was a photo of Jenny in Serbia, smiling in front of a farm and her ultrasound of the three months pregnancy, showing a small fetus, the proof that the two had been together.
Gibbs felt a pain in his heart and he folded his hands over his lap, taking a deep breath and closing his eyes as he remembered what had brought him there: Jenny Shepard.
"You need to slow down, Jen." Gibbs told her seriously in an afternoon in her office, when the main team was involved with a stressful case.
He was standing in front of her chair and pointed a finger at her belly, as he put her cup of tea on the table.
"Stress can harm our baby." He said worried.
His eyes wandered over her face that although it was showing tiredness and dark circles, she still looked beautiful with her red wavy hair framing her face and his blue eyes softened a bit when he lowered his eyes to her belly that was beginning to show the first signs of the pregnancy under the blouse and skirt she wore.
Gibbs knew he was exaggerating a bit, but he couldn't help being worried about the health of both, who were his future family that he was willing to fight for and keep with him, because if something happen to Jenny or their baby as had happened to Shannon and Kelly, he wouldn't bear the pain.
Jenny closed her eyes and rubbed her temple, feeling she was losing her patience quickly, because since she had told him about the pregnancy a month ago, Gibbs had been constantly surrounding her, wanting her to stay at home resting or keep her away from some cases, disrupting her work as director and annoying the SecNav.
And with no coffee or bourbon to help her, the stress was piling up and although she didn't want to fight with Gibbs, Jenny could no longer control her mood.
"Jethro, stop this obsessive concern!" She exclaimed, opening her eyes that had a flash of anger toward the agent. "I'm fine. The baby is fine, just stop, damn it!"
Gibbs said nothing, just stared at her with angry blue eyes by the tone of her voice and Jenny sighed, staring at him annoyed.
"I know that Shannon and Kelly's death scared you, but stop thinking that something will happen to me and the baby."
Jenny realized she'd said the wrong thing because she felt his eyes staring at her coldly and Gibbs grabbed the table's bar, getting very close to her face, his eyes sparkling in a mix of anger and hurt.
Gibbs felt she'd been low, quoting his dead wife and daughter, which he was still trying to overcome the loss and his heart clenched every time he thought about them or heard their names.
"Never again quote their names, understood?"
Jenny opened her mouth, shocked by the tone of his voice and at the same time regretted for what she had said:
"Jethro, I-"
"Got it?" He stressed, with his voice loud and cold, cutting her off.
Jenny felt angry and sad, before replying coolly with moist eyes, turning her chair away from him and staring at the blinds:
"Got it, now leave my office and take this tea with you, Agent Gibbs. Now!"
Oh my beds so cold at night
and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right
no I'm not too proud to say
Gibbs knew she shouldn't have mentioned Shannon and Kelly's name, but he also knew that he had been trying to control her and prevent her from doing her job, though for her own sake and the baby's. They hadn't been talking for a week and even in her office, she was always accompanied by Cynthia, Ziva or any lieutenant or sergeant who would be involved with some NCIS case.
Gibbs remembered that a month ago he had came to talk to her about marriage before the ball he was going to escort her and coincidentally, she had been in a beautiful white dress. But other than that, none of them had talked more about it because they were too busy, just going to his house other times to hers to sleep, but he felt he was ready to build a family with her, he loved her so much and the fights were part of them.
He opened his eyes, visualizing Jenny pregnant with her face glowing and smiling, making him want more than ever to stand next to her at that moment, and taking care of their baby, leaving aside their stubbornness and pride, because Jenny was the woman he loved now.
"Jethro?" Jenny called softly, shocked and he looked at her, feeling her French perfume involve him and he saw her standing on the bench where he was, dressed in a red sweater that showed her pregnancy. "Hi."
"Hi Jen." He said quietly, feeling his heart beat faster.
The two exchanged a look before she sat beside him and Gibbs closed his eyes, praying and asking in a way he had never done before.
"God, don't let me lose the family that I love so much for being so stubborn. My girlfriend and our baby that is in her belly. Look after Kelly and Shannon wherever they are now."
All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye
don't know what I'd do ...I'm lost without you
Throughout her life, the redhead had never been a very religious woman, but there she was, praying to God for things get better, sitting near to Gibbs, who had his eyes closed. She ducked her head as a piano was being played and she put a hand over her belly.
The green eyes were moist at the thought of that child risking being born with separated parents and the man she loved who was there beside her. Because of their stubbornness and the fact that Jenny was his boss, both ended up always arguing because she was used being alone, without someone taking care of her or trying to tell her what to do, but she knew Gibbs had the best of intentions because he loved her.
The discussions had always been part of their relationship, since she had been a probie and both enjoyed it. But the violent discussions she disliked, as they'd always walk away, leaving her lost. Jenny crossed her hands, placing them over her belly and closed her eyes, praying.
"God, don't let me make Jethro or our child suffer because of my choices, I love them so much." Jenny thought about Kelly and Shannon, asking for their permission. "Our Father who art in heaven..."
When Jenny finished her prayer, she felt Gibbs's warm hand gripping her own lightly over her belly and she opened her eyes, finding the sapphire eyes that were shining.
"I didn't know you were a religious person, Jethro..." She tried to joke and Gibbs gave her a half smirk, making a motion with his head and then she pleaded: "Jethro, sorry, I'm-"
"Jen..." He asked, interrupting her in a low but gentle voice.
Both should apologize, but he thought that perhaps none of them needed to say anything and she noticed the photos on his lap, feeling her lips tremble and she bit her lips before lifting her hand and prevented him from saying something.
"I don't want to fight with you and I don't want you to fight with me Jethro." She said with a soft voice, even though her lips trembled and she stroked his hair gently, watching him enjoy the caressed that she did on him.
"Enough of that." He nodded, staring into her emerald eyes with love. "You are my life, along with our baby."
He leaned down and placed a kiss on her belly, hoping for the baby to be born soon so he could hold him in his arms and give him much love and Jenny looked down, touched by his gesture. He then slipped something around her finger and she looked at her hand, surpresed. A diamond ring.
"Marry me, my love, so you and I won't feel lost." Gibbs said, serious but passionately, feeling that the moment was important and Jenny's eyes were wet, and she said, her lips trembling, but passionately:
"Never again lost."
Gibbs then raised his head, kissing the corner of her mouth and she wrapped an arm on his back, pressing her face on his shoulder and gave a small kiss there, breathing relieved.
When the couple went toward his truck, Jenny leaned on him and kissed him on the lips and Gibbs pulled her to him by the waist, deepening the kiss and moving up one hand to her lower back, massaging her as she opened her mouth to receive his tongue.
Jenny felt a shiver run through her body and she put her hands gently on his shoulders, standing on tiptoes to stay the same height as him, as their tongues touched. When they broke the kiss, panting, Gibbs kept one hand on the small of her back and pressed his lips to her ear, saying:
"I love you Jen, I feel lost without you."
Jenny nodded and said with bright eyes, as he nibbled her ear:
"I love you Jethro, I feel lost without you too."
I keep trying to find my way
but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you
End
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