Bo traced Lauren's jawline ever so softly with her fingernail, down to the nape of her neck all the way down to her hips. As if her finger was memorizing the contours of her body. Lauren reveled in this simple action and Bo knew it, she could tell lauren could barely contain herself as she traced her body with her fingertips Lauren always had a lock of Bo's hair twirling around her fingers and her eyes closed tight. Bo thought it was the sweetest thing in the world. Bo always ended up at the small of Lauren's back and when she circled that spot on her back with her fingertips it would make Lauren arch her back as if that was her come undone button. Inevitably after that reaction this would start a chain reaction. This was always a beautiful thing, each time different always possessing such extreme degrees of fluctuation. At times so tender and so sweet that there was hardly any noise at all, just stifled moans of pleasure and subtle tender kisses, other times strident voices filled the house with raw and sometimes desperate passion threatening to escape the walls and break sound barriers. This is what was so special about their love. Non conformity, and it worked.

Lauren sat up from the couch in a cold sweat. She had been doing it again. She was daydreaming about Bo and their lovemaking rituals, the damn small of my back she thought. Thinking of it gave her chills but she shook her head in frustration. We can't be. I need a break, I can't keep doing this to myself she thought. She is a succubus and I am human our equation doesn't work. Does not add up, does not compute.

"Does not compute" she said aloud as she stood up to put her hair in a ponytail.

She had since asked Hale if she could have some exercise equipment so she can stay in shape, early on the purpose was to get stronger and learn to fight and defend herself. She knew if she stayed with Bo this was an inevitability to be able to somewhat defend herself if her girlfriend was otherwise incapacitated. She never told Bo, she didn't want her to know at one time- she was planning their future. Now the doctor knew to fend off the worst depression in her life she must force herself to stay active, to keep her mind and thoughts at walked over and turned on some rock music one of Bo's favorite bands was blaring, she looked at the player and paused as if the song was even goading her but at this point she just needed to hit something. Hard.

Bo knocked on the door, she heard the blaring music and smiled when she recognized one of her favorite bands, she rapped on the door again and figured Lauren can't hear over the music, just then she heard Lauren grunt as if in pain, then again, oh god she is in trouble? Bo kicked the door so it broke the lock and frightened Lauren out of her workout.

"Bo!" Startled Lauren breathed.

"Lauren I heard you scream-I"...Just then she lost her breath when she finally took a minute to look at Lauren. She had workout pants and a sports bra with gloves standing beside a punching bag. Lauren stood there confused panting and dripping sweat looking at Bo for an explanation.

"Well?" Lauren asked, and Bo could not take her eyes of the unrecognizable doctor with her toned body and swollen veins.

"I, uh I'm sorry. When I heard you scream I didn't know you were punching a bag."

The music still blaring in the background could not have better or worse timing.* big black boots, long brown hair, she's so sweet with her jet black stare!* almost like the lyrics were meant for Bo, Lauren quickly paused the song annoyed.

"Im sorry I wasn't expecting company, least of all you." As soon as she said those harsh words she knew they hurt as she saw the pain in Bo's eyes. She knew she had to be strong, she knew what this conversation was about.

"I'm sorry Lauren I know you needed a break from me, but it's been a week and I was hoping we could talk."

Lauren walked to the couch and grabbed a towel and patted her neck, "look Bo it hasn't been enough time."

"Enough time?" Bo interjected

"Its been a week and I just need to know what's going on Lauren." She walked over to the couch where Lauren was and they both sat.

"Bo there is no time frame that I have in mind."

"Oh wonderful", Bo said "what a relief."

"Can you just hear me out, I am tired Bo."

" Tired of us? " Bo probed.

"No im tired of the ash and..."

"-then why is it that I have to suffer?" Bo interrupted.

"You are not confined Bo you are unaligned, you are the most free you can be. And I am here trapped and it feels that way with all aspects of my life right now can you understand that?"

" No. I don't understand why we can't just be together I will do whatever you want me to. "

"It's not about you Bo it's about me and my human needs. You're a succubus.. "

As Lauren was explaining why she needs a break Bo's head starts to spin she was heart broken and frustrated that she cannot express to Lauren in words what she feels for her. That the magnitude of her loss could not be filled with anything but her. She grabbed Lauren's gloves and forcefully pulled them off and threw them on the floor. This startled Lauren quiet and she softly began to speak. "Bo..."

Bo grabbed Lauren by her hands as she knew it would quiet her. She looked at the beautiful creature across from her and looked into her brown eyes. This human has no idea what she does to me she thought. There had only been one time when Bo tried to explain to Lauren how she saw people, their aura the way it radiates around people who they burn for. What she never explained to Lauren is how her aura around Bo never dimmed, it was always radiant and burned deep, even when the doctor is explaining something to Bo hell even when she was angry, it always burned deep when she was in Bo's presence, and to know that just her mere presence was enough to do that to Lauren was enough to drive Bo insane. Lauren began to speak again "Bo please, you.."

Bo closed her mouth and her thoughts with a tender kiss. She leaned into Lauren and released her hands so they she can place them around the doctors face. She looked into Lauren's eyes as Lauren parted her lips slightly to anticipate another kiss Bo cupped her face and moved around to her ear. She leaned in closer and took a deep breath in Lauren's ear that sent chills down her spine. Bo's lips were as close as they could be to the her ear and she started to recite " your eyes have their silence... "

Lauren looked up at Bo as if taken back, "you read the book of poetry I gave you of my favorite collections?"

"Why yes doctor, I even tried to memorize one for you. Iambic pentameters, nifty."

Lauren didn't have the heart to tell her only certain poems fall under that genre but she was so pleased Bo took interest in something she loved. She was overcome and in this moment she stopped Bo before she could recite another line and put both of her hands in Bo's long hair, she pulled Bo to her feverish kiss and pulled her on top of her simultaneously. Bo was surprised at this reaction and kicked herself for not reading poetry before to garner this reaction. She pulled away from Lauren to kiss her neck, Lauren was sweaty and heat was radiating from her although Bo knew it was not from working out. She grabbed Lauren by the back of her head to steady her face into the kiss. Lauren could feel herself drifting into sexual oblivion like she always does when they are together. She snapped out of this trance with difficulty but she knew she had to stay focused as she pulled away.

"What's wrong Lauren?"

Lauren sat up with regret already washing over her for what she was about to say. "Bo, I need this."

" I don't understand, can you just explain it to me Bo pleaded."

"I'm trying to" Lauren stood up in frustration. "Bo its not easy for me! Do you ever imagine how it is for me? Living in the fae world, being owned by the light fae, meeting someone like you, loving someone like you?" Bo walked towards Lauren and grabbed her hands.

"I love you too..."

Lauren released her hands almost instant.

"Don't do that to me Bo its not fair"

"What's not fair me telling you how I feel?The fact that I don't want a break? What is it Lauren?"Her voice became shaky with frustration.

"Your touch, Your presence, What it does to me, What it does to anyone you touch. I cannot have my thoughts clouded by you!" Lauren said with her voice raised. "This is too important for me to think about what I want."

"What?" Bo looked at her incredulously. "Do you mean to tell me that you think I influence you with my touch so I can get my way?"

" No, " Lauren snapped "I know you aren't trying to take advantage of me but I feel the pulses run through me when you touch me and I know it's because you don't want this and this is too important for me to ignore. Our love has never been in question."

" Then I don't understand why you need an equation for love, not everything adds up like that Lauren. Especially love." Bo hung her head and looked at the floor in defeat.

"It's not that Bo, I just...I just don't know if I belong in your world anymore. "

With this said Bo started towards the door with watery eyes, she didn't want to leave this way and she was already mad at herself for not being able to communicate other than physically what she felt for Lauren to verbalize how deep her love ran for her and how she'd leave the fae world too if that's what it took. She didn't say any of this. Instead she looked back at Lauren and said softly-

" I just wanted you to know, other than helping me gain control in the lab I have never influenced you with my touch. Those pulses you felt run through you? That was just us."

With that Bo walked out, and Lauren collapsed on the couch sobbing with her head in her hands, "Oh God. What am I going to do?"