It had been 6 agonising long months of heartache from the day… Edward the hole ripped further making me catch my breath left me It hurt to say his name however even worse than that to actually see him nearly everyday cause he technically never left well in the fact him and his family still live in forks however luckily people from school aren't talking about it anymore thank god though I am still considered zombie like that I cannot help I spend most of my afternoons and weekends with my best friend Jacob who is a werewolf doubt the Cullen's new they probably wouldn't even care diffidently not him I guess who would blame him Im ordinary enough.

I parked my truck up at the school and sucked in a deep breath jumping out the truck swinging my bag on my shoulders wrapping my arm across my chest great another torturing day at school got to keep my self together so I walked forward.

'Bella!'

Mike waved from across the way he ran over and walked beside me.

'Hey Mike'

I tried to make my voice seem less lifeless it must had worked well a little.

'You free after school today?'

'Um…I'm sorry I have an English assignment to hand in and I promised Jake…'

'Oh…ok' he said sadly.

I wasn't really paying attention until I caught a glimpse of his face he was almost pouting he looked really upset I felt sorry for mike along with him and Angela were the only ones who put up with me through my almost unquestionable first couple of days of being zombie like.

'How about tomorrow?'

'Sure!' he smiled

We walked towards the school.

Today went even slower than usual just getting by each lesson was hard enough thankfully he was able to get all the teachers to move seats I wish I had the power to do that then the bell went for lunch great I sighed lunch cause that's when I had to see them all together.

I walked into the cafeteria grabbing a tray as I walked sluggishly towards the queue lining up I decided to spare myself one quick glance to there table it wouldn't hurt – that much – they were all there of course Emmet, Rosalie, Jasper, Alice and Edward

I recoiled slightly at the sound of his name bring back the memories which once were and will never happen again his expression was emotionless he was probably fine distracted with other things I felt the hole in my heart tug I was getting greedy.

'Bella?' I ignored the voice

'Bella what are you looking at?'

Then in the first time for 6 months he glanced a look in my direction immediately his eyes held mine but something was wrong he seemed sad pained almost whatever he saw in my face made him seem even more unhappy I quickly dropped my eyes Jessica sighed beside me.

'C'mon Bella'

Lunch went slowly as everyone talked but me it was like routine I kept my head down saying the usual yeah, sure kinda answers short and simple I didn't spare myself another look to his table I knew I had to get a grip.

So when the school day was over and the bell went I headed out quickly being one of the firsts to leave I walked out the main entrance and stopped mid stride as I saw Jacob leaning against my truck his black shiny motorbike right next to it he seemed even taller is he still growing? Then his warm smile lit his face and all my worries vanished I was Bella again.

'Jacob!'

'Hey Bell's'

I all but ran towards him I was so happy to see him he caught me hugging me to him I held his waist as he stroked my hair.

'That kinda day huh?' he smiled

'Yeah…' I sighed he chuckled

'What?'

Then I looked around unaware of our audience a couple of students froze on the side walk one of them being Mike he didn't look to pleased this was probably the most happy they have seen me in a while I blushed embarrassed standing back a bit from Jacob he held my hand.

'How come you're here Jake? I thought your school ends the same time as mine?'

'Yeah but I got out early' he said smug

'I hope you didn't get in trouble'

'Me in trouble not at all' we both laughed it felt good being with Jake.

'I'm glad'

'Me too'

I leaned my head against his chest then he leaned down and whispered in my ear.

'I wish…I could make this easier for you'

'Huh?'

'You having to go to the same school as….'

Please don't say it please don't say it my heart cant take it and I don't fancy crying with an audience watching then I felt his hands turn to fists at my back and a growl escaped his lips he held me so tightly that I wasn't possible for my heart to shatter.

'Jake what is it?'

I followed his stare his eyes piecing in the direction of the Cullen's car as I looked more clearly Edward was stood outside the Volvo wide eyed looking at me then Jacob he obviously never seen Jake cause he doesn't come to this school however he could read his mind I stirred in Jacobs arms

'Jake please calm down lets go'

I felt Jacob shake as I looked Edward was nearly braced his jaw restrained his eyes narrowed glaring Jacob down he looked truly terrifying then it hit me He now knows…. everything

'Jacob! Please' he grunted his face smug as he held my hand.

He pulled me away towards the truck

'Lets go back to la push to many bloodsuckers around here'

'shhhh' I slapped his arm but it was to late Edward new everything….

I went back to Jacob's after that we spent most of the afternoon on the la push beach like we do most days I was very thankful the subject never came up…