A Lady's Life For Me

Chapter 1

Heartbreaker

"I'm sorry, Kagome." Inuyasha said with sad and mournful eyes.

What did he mean "I'm sorry"? I just told him I loved him. What kind of answer was "I'm sorry"?

Unable to comprehend his meaning I asked, "What do you mean?"

He didn't say anything but, looked over to the house. My house was where my mother, Akia, my sister, Kikyo, and I, Kagome, lived. It was a white house with lots of windows for light. Fairly large, it had countless gardens around it, with still a lot a spare land. Right now, I was standing near the glistening lake, right next to my house.

At first I thought he was glancing just at the house, but then I realized it was the part of the house where Kikyo's room was. I didn't know what to say. Inuyasha, Kikyo, and I had been best friends since forever. Over those years, my feelings for him had grown friendlier and friendlier, till I just had to tell him.

Of course, I always knew Kikyo was prettier, smarter, and stronger than me. She was older too. But…I never realized….

"Kikyo?" I choked out.

The look he gave had told me enough. I looked at the ground, hurt beyond belief, making sure my bangs covered my eyes. I knew Inuyasha would smell my tears, no matter how hard I tried to not let him see.

I bit my lip, hoping that I would be able to keep my tears inside me. I clenched my eyes shut and took a deep breath. After I let it out, I looked back up at him.

"Why not me?" I asked with a trembling voice. I knew it tore him up inside to see me like this, after all we were friends. He was never good with seeing women cry.

"Kagome…..I….." How ironic. He didn't know what to say. So I cut him off.

"Could you have ever loved me like I love you?" This is was the question I really wanted the answer to. If he said yes, I could bare it. If he said no…..I would feel so foolish for the way I feel for him. I knew I could never stop loving him.

He lowered his gaze to the ground.

Tears started pouring down my face and I knew my eyes had pure anguish in them.

"Oh, I understand. Just please, do me one favor." I requested trying to hold in my sobs. My hands were clutching the soft material of my purple dress.

He looked back up at me and said, "Anything."

I tried to smile, at least I knew we were still going to stay friends. Only friends. "I want you to be happy. With Kikyo." At this point, my shoulders were shaking. I tried to wipe the tears of my face but, there were too many.

I saw him take a step towards me. But, eyes were too blurry to realize what he was doing until I felt arms enclose me into a hug. I couldn't hug him back, I hurt too much. I wanted to be happy for him and Kikyo, but I just couldn't get over the pain. I wasn't strong enough. Unable to bear his hug, I pushed him away.

I saw pure shock in his eyes. But, before he could do anything I sprinted away. The only thing I heard was his voice shout my name. But, I didn't want to hear it. Not anymore.

I ran past the lake and into the woods next to it. I tripped in the 2 inch sandals I was wearing and laid on the ground, sobbing. But I knew someone would see me from here, and ask what was wrong. So I got up and threw away my shoes, and ran bare foot farther into the woods. I was not in the mood to tell anyone anything of how I could my heartbroken.

I reached my favorite tree. It was blossoming with sakuras all over it, even on the ground. I walked to the base of the tree, tired from running so much and gasping for air. I slid down the tree and pulled my knees up. I wrapped my arms around them and put my head down. I just needed to rest.

By now I had stopped crying. So now, I could think straight. Inuyasha had rejected me for Kikyo. I took a deep breath. I was just going to have to accept that and move on.

But how could I face him now? He knows that I could never go back to the way I felt when we were just friends. And Kikyo…how would she feel when she found out that her sister was in love with her boyfriend?

Well, I wasn't going to go back till I figured that out. I grabbed a sakura from the ground. It was beautiful. It was a light pink color with full petals and leaf on one side. Where my dad lived, sakura blossoms were grown everywhere. The Eastern lands were full of them, since they grew best over there.

I lived in the Southern lands with my mother and sister. And the only reason there was a sakura blossom tree here was so it could remind me of my father. My parents relationship hadn't worked out. So Kikyo and I lived with mom in the Southern lands. While my brother lived with my dad in the Eastern lands.

I realized that if I couldn't stay here, then I could stay with my father. I smiled at myself, happy that I had solved my problem for a little while. But, I wasn't running away from it. I could go visit my dad there for a little where. And when I come maybe, I would know what to do then.

But of course, that would mean I had to become a part of the Eastern court. Which leads to becoming a lady. My face instantly turned into a scowl. And I squinted my nose.

Kikyo was lady with proper manners and elegant dresses. She knew how to behave and what to say when. Most importantly she knew when to keep her mouth shut. The exact opposite of me.

It would be a small price to pay, if I could solve my situation. Because trust me, I had a situation.

I rose to my feet brushing off the dirt from my dress. I could only imagine what a mess I looked like. So, I needed to change into something more comfortable before I set off. I had to leave today, before nightfall. Mother and Kikyo weren't home at the moment, they had gone shopping for some things Kikyo needed. I had no idea what.

I'd send my mom a letter, once I got to the Eastern lands. I wouldn't want her to worry needlessly. It was a two day ride on horseback from here to the Eastern lands. Of course, that was if I didn't stop for rest.

Mom had insisted a few times that I visit my father. And well, that was my cover up for the reason I went. And to my dad I would say, I missed him and mom said I could come. There, all planned out.

I began to walk to the house and started to make a mental list of all the things I needed for the journey. This would be the first time I went so far away on my own.

Now I only had to avoid Inuyasha throughout the whole thing as I packed and got my horse. No problem, miko training wasn't for nothing.

What could possible go wrong? I had this all figured out.