I kept thinking to myself this can't be happening I can't cry any more my tears have tried. I got out of bed and went to the bathroom to wash my face. I look into the mirror my eyes are red and puffy from all the crying also my cheeks are stained from all my tears. I looked terrible but I couldn't careless that was the last thing in my mind. Then I washed my face and closed my eyes and I kept seeing it I tried not to but I couldn't

~ flashback ~

I was at my locker getting my books so I can leave that's until I saw my friend roxy running towards me and smiled at her

"hey roxy what's up" I said while she catches her breath from running

She finally managed to say "hey flora my mom just called me and told me and she told me that your mom isn't home so you're coming over to my house for a while"

I nodded and we left

Her mom was parked in front of school we both got in and roxy's mom greeted us

"hey girls" she said in a fake happy voice I was surprised usually she is a very happy and bubbly person I got curious then she interrupted me by saying "flora sweetie I am going to tell u something but u can't over react and just stay calm ok sweetie"

I was so confused at that point and slightly scared roxy saw that and she put her arm around my shoulder and mouthed "don't worry"

Then I calmed down and said "sure I won't''

She then sighed and said "flora your mom is in the hospital right now her lung cancer has gotten so bad so were going there right now"

My mom had cancer and didn't even bother telling me I felt like I was stabbed in the heart with a knife I felt like I was in a nightmare but I wasn't I wish I could just wake up and everything will be ok but that's not possible "why didn't she tell me she had cancer" I asked roxy's mom

She sighed and told me "she didn't want u to worry about her" she looked like she was on the verge of tears

I really can't believe this I always nagged and complained about school drama and my little fights with my friends. While my mom listened and comforted me and always had a smile on her face and on the inside she was the one who was battling the actual fight. The fight of life or death and all what I did is be a diva all what I could say is "can we please go to the hospital now"

She nodded and drove off to the hospital

When we reached the hospital one of the nurses took us took us to her room

The nurse looked at me and said "you can enter if u want"

I smiled half a smile and thanked her and I entered her room I gasped from what I saw. My mom was laying in the hospital bed her body was lifeless she was barely breathing I went beside her and looked at her face it was pale and cold

I put my hand on her cheek and stroked it and said "mom please don't leave me alone in this world ur all I have don't have anyone except of you please please please mom" with every word I was crying harder and harder

Then all of a sudden I heard one beep I was shocked I knew exactly what that beep meant I quickly pressed the emergency button and some nurses and doctors came rushing in they all ran towards the bed

One of the nurses sighed and out her hand on my shoulder and said "sweetie u have to leave so we can take care of her"

I nodded and looked at my mom one last time and I whispered "I love u mom" then I left

I was sitting outside waiting for any news but surprisingly I wasn't crying I just felt depressed. What would I do without my mom? Where would I go? then I heard the door open all the doctors and nurses left except for one she headed towards me

I stood up "I am so sorry sweetie but ur mom didn't make it" she said the left

I couldn't believe my ears I felt like I was going to faint. My legs gave up and I fell on my knees no this isn't true. Those words they were stinging me

"sweetie come on I will take you to your house u can pack and u will stay at my house for a while until we see what we can do and were will u stay" roxy's mom said as she picked me up off the ground

I could tell she was being strong and she was trying to hold her tears her and mom have been childhood best friends. My mom considered her as a sister they did everything together

We left and we entered the car and on the way roxy was trying to comfort me but I wasn't crying I was just sad confused and shocked all of this is happening too fast. Then they dropped me

"flora were coming in 2 hours so u rest, change, pack and we will be back okay sweetie" she said as she hugged me

I nodded and then they left

First when I entered the house it hit me mom is dead she's gone I won't see her again I won't hear her sweet voice again I won't have a mom again I ran to my room and cried my eyes out

~ flashback ~

I left the bathroom and went to my room then my phone started ringing I didn't feel like picking up but I did anyway it was roxy

"hey roxy" I said as I answered

"hi flora so my mom called your aunt and she said that u will be staying with her your flight is tomorrow so u will stay the night at my house" she said in a sad voice I knew why she was sad its cause my aunt lives pretty far so we won't be able to see each other and we have grown up together roxy is like the sister I never had its going to be weird not having her around

"okay roxy what time are u picking me up?" I asked

"in 5 min so be ready okay" she said

"okay roxy bye" I said

"bye" she said then I hung up the phone

I got all my suit cases ready then I heard a honk from outside I looked out and saw it was roxy and her mom I took all my luggage down stairs and loaded the car. On the way me and roxy talked we lip synced to songs and we had a fun time roxy always knows how to cheer me up

Then we entered the house I put all my luggage in the guest room and changed to my pj's and left to roxy's room cause were going to have a slumber party since it will be our last night together we will make it unforgettable

I knocked on the door and roxy opened first when I entered I found pizza movies popcorn games and two sleeping bags

I looked at roxy with a smirk and I said "roxy u know me so well"

She smirked back and said "I know I know I am amazing now lets eat some pizza cause it's not going to finish its self"

I smiled maybe this day won't be so bad after all